I'm not feeling so good...
My girlfriend left me about a month ago and it's been hard to get over it because I so loved her and she was my whole life.. and then she just said me that she doesn't love me anymore and left me.. Okay. One month passed and I've started to get over with it.
But today, I met my old friend who is a really good friend of my ex and I heard lots of things about her...
I heard my ex had cheated me. Not having sex or something but she had kissed with few boys who were good friends of her... I had always been jealous about them, but she always assured me everything is okay and she had done nothing wrong...
I also heard that she hadn't loved me for last six months...she had played with my emotions all the time...
She was my first girlfriend and I was her first boyfriend and she had very low self-esteem. But now, she has become a whоre and I'm not lying seriously. Three days after she left me, she started to have sex with another guys... Now she has a sex relationship with one guy I know... and who I really not like... she lives now in different city but she has two sex relationships with two different guys. She have been having sex with very many guys my friend told me and she also told how she is annoyd she has her menstruation and how she could have been with atleast eight guys...yes that is what she said...
Okay, I shouldn't be so bitter about her sex relationships after she left me, but I just can't...I'm so bitter... The girl I loved so much had played with my feelings and now she is a whоre... I trying to not think about it but it's so hard...and I'm so angry about one thing too.. We had a common friend who was a very beautiful and gorgeous girl and she had so many guys. My girlfriend was all time jealous to her and she always called her a stupid slut. And now...she is alike her...
I'm just trying to forget everything this but it's still bothering me...and I'm scared that all this will make my mood depressive... I've always been so alone, I'm sitting home alone every day and trying to avoid bad feelings. But it's hard after this all I heard and my brokeup... I want to be strong.. and I've been pretty strong my whole life, but now it's started to collapse... And I don't have courage to love anyone anymore... I'm scared my feelings are crushed again... my problem is that I'm just fighting with every feelings of mine just myself.. I've never talked about my problems to my parents, friends or anyone... Now they are starting to accumulate and I'm scared it will makes my life hard and messy...