TheGirlInTheCorner
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Thanks. Actually, already started to feel better, but my GP was concerned too, so here I sit in the hospital again, waiting my life away.
How are you feeling?
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Thanks. Actually, already started to feel better, but my GP was concerned too, so here I sit in the hospital again, waiting my life away.
shakethelight
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Thank you, me too. I've been journaling so that helps.I'm sorry you feel the way I do
I'm been doing good with the gym buuuut my membership runs up on July 8th and I am already spazing out because I dont know anything lol. I dont want to go in there and talk to anyone to continue my membership but I have too.
lilmutegirl
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I hope I don't have to work today. I'm "on-call" so it's possible, but we really don't have the payroll to cover it. Normally, I wouldn't care, but tonight is my first test in my class, and I still feel very unprepared.::
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Yeah, I still can't believe that he said something like that. I already have a hard time going to college, now it's even worse because I'm so vulnerable for things like this. I am very avoiding every social thing, they go to the mall together to eat snacks (the whole class) which i wish I could join, and they go sit in the canteen while i'm outside in the park, walking alone, which is pretty comfortable though my mom thinks it's unhealthy for me, to avoid every single time they go somewhere, but why should i when they don't like me? I mean, of course a few guys might be nice, of course not all of them may be like that, but they still think i'm always hiding myself from the world, and I might come across as a Einzelgänger, which stands for ''Outsider, hermit, loner''. So no wonder they are judging me die hard, but it hurts so much, If I only would have had ONE person, to help me around, by talking to me, showing affection or anything like that, then the world would open up to me, i might seem desperate, but sometimes you get it, when you have been like this for a whole friggin' school year, when there's one person talking to me, saying good morning or such, I am so happy that I smile a lot, but the sad part is, is that it ends so quickly that I'm completely left out. it's also my f*cked up behaviour, I mean, I should talk more, I should walk up to ppl, i should be more happy, etc etc.. though this is so scary.. but still, a few of them say goodmorning which is comforting, but only that I cried today in class, that they saw my pain, makes me terrified of going back tomorrow, they might still pay attention to it, which makes me even more scared, that THEY KNOW.
I just saw a dude at the school building standing there all the time, and I was in the hall way, he was looking at me from the window, and he was completely staring in front of him, quite looking scared, so maybe he's also like me, though i would never got the guts to walk up like him, but I swear, I won't ever make fun of him, i know what's like. I just wish I could walk up to ppl, that's a huge fear of mine.
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lonely_drummer
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Nervous!! Today is the long awaited day and the moment of truth. Im headin to the hospital soon to see if my shoulder is going to need surgery and to see if I can stop wearing my slings but shhhhhhhhhh don't tell him I haven't been wearing my right sling for 5 weeks and my left one for 2 weeks lol. Wish me luck!
da_illest101
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Still feel horrible. I spend the past four days on my bed resting my neck and I doubt today is gonna be any different today, no idea how long it will take, but I can't spend more than 20 mins vertically, sit down or standung up. Called my job and told them about it, I won't be surprised when they'll fired me. The time it will take for me to recover ( assuming I can recover fully) is near the time I would finish working for them. So here I am having the worse time of my life.
alwayssunnyinphiladelphia
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I managed to go out friday saturday and sunday but I didn't really enjoy myself at all because of shyness. I'm unhappy today this keeps happening I manage to go out for a while then I panic and end up isolating myself again. I would give anything to be really confident and talkative. I don't know what to do I am panicking about going to college to finish school exams in September it os only a few months away now.
Srijita52
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Same here, good luck with college.
Good luck!
I'm really sorry.
Thank you, me too. I've been journaling so that helps.I'm sorry you feel the way I do
Well, I hope you feel better. Glad that you have some healthy release.
I know. It's hard doing school, hang in as long as you can. good luck.
Don't mind the people who don't know any better. I went through a torturous stage in school somewhat similar to what you're describing, but the fight to the end was well worth. I hope you'll be well.
dyingtolive
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Thank you Lea, Srij & Beleza. Thanks for the support, I appreciate it.
I noticed i put work and trying so hard in the same comment, (though i was actually not referring to work in particular).. The reasons might make you laugh. Well i heard from a friend that he did something that i took months to do, without much effort. So my wallowing in self-pity feelings started flowing, and then they got triggered by 'something else', so then there became 2 things to pity myself about.. And then the garbage started spilling out of the closet..
it's always about feeling cheated or feeling like its unfair. Being and feeling flawed but not being able to get over it or accepting it. My issue is self acceptance and it is something that i struggle with day to day. I try to do my best day to day and that helps me cope. But i sometimes get affected when I compare myself to others.. But its hard not to...
I noticed i put work and trying so hard in the same comment, (though i was actually not referring to work in particular).. The reasons might make you laugh. Well i heard from a friend that he did something that i took months to do, without much effort. So my wallowing in self-pity feelings started flowing, and then they got triggered by 'something else', so then there became 2 things to pity myself about.. And then the garbage started spilling out of the closet..
it's always about feeling cheated or feeling like its unfair. Being and feeling flawed but not being able to get over it or accepting it. My issue is self acceptance and it is something that i struggle with day to day. I try to do my best day to day and that helps me cope. But i sometimes get affected when I compare myself to others.. But its hard not to...
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lonely_drummer
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Yesssss!!!!!! Great news! My shoulders are healing really well, there's no need for slings, no need for surgery(as of yet) and I can start physio this week. I'm soooo stoked!!!! Now all my plans to do some festival hopping can actually happen!! Now I can go to Victoria for ska fest in a couple weeks, I can go camping in 2 weekends AND I can fill in on guitar for my friends band who's touring across Canada at the end of July, things are really looking positive right now. And not to mention I can probably start mountain biking in a few weeks which is amazing cuz I've been going mad without any love from my bike lol. Sorry for the excessive positive behavior but my summer just looks sooooo much better now
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Phoenixx
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^ That's so great, drummer! Awesome!
dyingtolive
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Great news, Drummer
Srijita52
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I understand dyingtolive, this is something I do a lot too. But I guess each of us are unique, no matter how easy or hard things might be for other people we still have to fight our own problems. I know its hard not to compare ourselves to others but try to concentrate on yourself.Thank you Lea, Srij & Beleza. Thanks for the support, I appreciate it.
I noticed i put work and trying so hard in the same comment, (though i was actually not referring to work in particular).. The reasons might make you laugh. Well i heard from a friend that he did something that i took months to do, without much effort. So my wallowing in self-pity feelings started flowing, and then they got triggered by 'something else', so then there became 2 things to pity myself about.. And then the garbage started spilling out of the closet..
it's always about feeling cheated or feeling like its unfair. Being and feeling flawed but not being able to get over it or accepting it. My issue is self acceptance and it is something that i struggle with day to day. I try to do my best day to day and that helps me cope. But i sometimes get affected when I compare myself to others.. But its hard not to...
That's just too awesome!
Srijita52
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I'm sorry Phoenixx, I hope you feel better soon.
lonely_drummer
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Thanks guys! I'm just so flipping happy lol. My summer isn't ruined!!!!!