I am feeling abandoned, lost, angry, and depressed. Ive been in this depressed state for weeks and I can't get out of it. I'm angry that no one in my family seems to care how sad ive been. I'm angry that this is my life and no matter how hard I try to fight the monsters in my head they just seem to get stronger and stronger.
I'm So Sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. You are in a harsh period of time and I think you deserve care. I'm sorry your family doesn't react on it like you need it so much. Just know, if they don't show sympathy, it doesn't mean directly that they hate, or not like you, or not want to share sympathy, it could be that they don't know how to help you, and feel lost and despair too, though they don't want to make it worse for you by showing so, or that they might be frustrated, and you think you're being ignored while they just want change, for you and them. Maybe you have a feeling of wanting to take things under control (like i am, and used to be, i'm fighting to get rid of it) that you want people to always listen to you, when you are sad, while they have a life too, i know, it's not selfish at all, while some people might say it is, our heart wants it, we need understandment, just because we have to know they are okay with us, even when we are negative. and when they don't hear us, we can even feel worse. though, we can't control things, nor other people, nor the future. They have their way of reaction, and we have ours. We just have to accept that, and i know it's hard, but maybe learning to get more independent helps, or trying to help yourself, i might be assuming things wrong, but it's something i want to share, if you feel so upset about ppl not caring about you. Cuz in fact, most people do care.
Just ask yourself, is there any reason why they don't care? or is it just a reaction, that isn't a fact of not showing care but just a ''irrational thought by behaviour conclusions''?
and don't resist things in your life, that is the worst thing you can do and makes you only go negative and down-wards to darkness, because resistance is the break of acceptance, and accepting things makes it much easier on you, and makes yourself get not so harsh on your own thoughts. You are telling yourself this, STOP IT.
You have to think of your good traints and qualities.
oh and those monsters, bring them back to bed, like Monster & Co, they are just good, because you are the owner of your thoughts, none monsters, they are just becoming like monsters indeed, but you can kick them away from you.
