lonely_drummer
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I feel accomplished, I recorded the 2nd guitar tracks to my album today and got 9 out of 11 songs done, yes!!
Tired. I spent 8 hours in a car. 8 freaking hours. It wasn't supposed to take nearly that long. Ugh, I don't even want to talk about it. It was going so well for the first 2 hours and then it quickly went downhill from there. (No accident or anything; just drama) As soon I got here at my uncle's, I put my stuff in the room I'm staying in and called my mom to vent. I cried. I feel stupid, but at least I feel a bit better now. Thank god I brought chocolate.
I feel accomplished, I recorded the 2nd guitar tracks to my album today and got 9 out of 11 songs done, yes!!
I wish I had friends or someone other than my parents who cared for me. I hate this friday. I'm crying and having a major self pity moment.
Very down.
I've never been able to keep friends no one seems to like me ever and I can't connect with people. I want to cry because it's so hard but I can't do anything..
I can't keep a job, I can't keep friends, I'm never motivated to do much uni work. Haven't hated myself like this in a long timeee
^ Yeah I've gone through a 9 hour trip before, and normally it doesn't bother me. With everything that happened though and that it was originally only supposed to take 5 hours is what bothered me and made it even more exhausting.I find it hard to endure a 5 hour trip when I go to my grandma’s place in Spain…but 8 hours + drama sounds much more challenging. I’m sorry it went like that, and you aren’t stupid at all.
Make sure you rest and have a good night of sleep.
Very uncertain about future. 49 years of age with a mental illness, and perhaps without a job.
Horrible. I am a bad parent. I'm very frustrated since my son still hasn't gone to bed (I put him down for it 2 1/2 hours ago). He told me he loved me, and I instinctively said, "No, you don't." He now says that I don't love him. He even said, "Have fun not loving me." One frightening thing about this whole episode is that it reminds me of my abusive relationships. Him, not appearing to care about my feelings, and me, crying and begging him to love me and be happy again. The worst part is that I created this relationship so I can't blame anyone else.
Yay! So the two of you are going on a date now?
You're not a bad parent. The fact that you're so much concerned about him shows that you really care about him. I understand sometimes its hard to explain while fighting with your problems but I agree with Deadman, explain to him how much you love him, I'm sure he'll understand.Horrible. I am a bad parent. I'm very frustrated since my son still hasn't gone to bed (I put him down for it 2 1/2 hours ago). He told me he loved me, and I instinctively said, "No, you don't." He now says that I don't love him. He even said, "Have fun not loving me." One frightening thing about this whole episode is that it reminds me of my abusive relationships. Him, not appearing to care about my feelings, and me, crying and begging him to love me and be happy again. The worst part is that I created this relationship so I can't blame anyone else.
I'm sorry Kia, *hugs* Hang in there.I'm sorry man.
I am not feeling all that great either. In fact I feel miserable, alone and frustrated.
I'm so sorry Tally, I wish there was something I could do anything to make you feel better. Stay strong.Intense disappointment. Anger. Sadness. Frustration.
My workplace feels more and more like high school all the time. I don't feel like I belong, and I can't tell if it's all in my head or not. But I am always unsatisfied with the way my interactions with people go, I am left feeling bitter and defeated. Constantly. I want to run away and live on my own. But then I don't. I can't.
Some plans for this coming weekend/next week have been modified, involving some BS and some stupid behavior on the part of a family member. I don't even know how to put into words the way I feel about the whole thing. It's indescribable. I am just so, so fed up. dklfjadoisfjwdlfjalsjflk
I'm really hungry and there's nothing to eat. The kitchen is a terrible mess and we're going to leave it that way tomorrow when we go on a trip. I'd clean it if I had time, but I have to pack. Because a certain someone couldn't just do the dishes, they had to make the decision to act like an idiot.
I AM SO DONE. Almost everything good in my life gets ruined, as pessimistic as that sounds, it's scarily true. All because of BS and/or stupid decisions. I can't take any more.
I am just... so sad. So defeated. I don't want to TRY anymore.
I know I'm whining... I don't care. I don't know what else to do. Have to go pack and iron some clothes and stuff. I feel awful.
I'm sorry Kiwong.Very uncertain about future. 49 years of age with a mental illness, and perhaps without a job.
Why bother talking if nobody's listening? ::
Why bother talking if nobody's listening? ::