I'm feeling a little productive--even though I've only done about 2 productive things thus far today--and it's 7 p.m. Maybe I'll get more of my to-do list done before bed tonight.
! I'm sure you'll find time to finish that to-do list. Good job on being productive!I'm feeling a little productive--even though I've only done about 2 productive things thus far today--and it's 7 p.m. Maybe I'll get more of my to-do list done before bed tonight.
I wish I could get you out of there somehow. I hate your situation.
Me too, its awful.
I would like that.
), but how he was certainly did. Seemed like every single sentence or statement he said sounded sarcastic, and nearly everything seemed cynical in some way. Before he even started the lecture he said he'd call on random people and didn't want an "I don't know" answer. Sounds like a wonderful start right? He called on me three times. The first two times weren't so bad. Scary, yes, but I got the questions right, which always somewhat eases my anxiety. The third one I managed to get wrong, and with this he just gave me this "Oh my god you're stupid" look. It's bad enough I beat myself up over mistakes (always, doesn't matter the mistake), but that look just killed me.
^ Have you tried cutting caffeine and sugar? Maybe drinking some tea before bed will help ease your mind, especially either green tea or chamomile.
:Tired and crappy. Just got back from my course.... well, actually I've been home for an hour, but needed to veg out a bit and eat and then talked with my brother for a bit since I haven't seen him much the last 4 days.
It was an incredibly boring 5 hours. Thankfully we got three 10 min. breaks, which during then I mostly just read, only getting up once to walk around to stretch my legs while some random guy kept looking at me, probably wondering what the heck I was doing just wandering the hallway by myself.
My instructor was very ignorant though. He was very sarcastic, like cynically sarcastic. Don't get me wrong, sarcasm doesn't usually bother me (as it comes 2nd nature to me anyway
Didn't stop there though. Then soon after he uses me as an example for a body/size comparison demonstration (discussing alcohol). Usually I'm not self-conscious of my height nor body. Most of the time I'm okay with it... Until you start pointing it all out for everyone to stare at me. THAT is when I get extremely self-conscious and even more anxious. I get it. I've been told a million times -- I'm small, really small. I have the body of a 14 year old and look like I'm 12. Girls that age are usually taller than me. Everyone can stop pointing it out now and stop staring.
So yeah, I've been pretty depressed the rest of the night because of that. Stupid I know. Sorry for the rant. At least it's over. One step closer to getting my license. Now let's hope I can pull myself together within a year, or I hope much sooner, to get it.
He seems so annoying. Its not a stupid rant Phoenixx, I'd be really pissed off too. I hope you get your license soon.Tired and crappy. Just got back from my course.... well, actually I've been home for an hour, but needed to veg out a bit and eat and then talked with my brother for a bit since I haven't seen him much the last 4 days.
It was an incredibly boring 5 hours. Thankfully we got three 10 min. breaks, which during then I mostly just read, only getting up once to walk around to stretch my legs while some random guy kept looking at me, probably wondering what the heck I was doing just wandering the hallway by myself.
My instructor was very ignorant though. He was very sarcastic, like cynically sarcastic. Don't get me wrong, sarcasm doesn't usually bother me (as it comes 2nd nature to me anyway
Didn't stop there though. Then soon after he uses me as an example for a body/size comparison demonstration (discussing alcohol). Usually I'm not self-conscious of my height nor body. Most of the time I'm okay with it... Until you start pointing it all out for everyone to stare at me. THAT is when I get extremely self-conscious and even more anxious. I get it. I've been told a million times -- I'm small, really small. I have the body of a 14 year old and look like I'm 12. Girls that age are usually taller than me. Everyone can stop pointing it out now and stop staring.
So yeah, I've been pretty depressed the rest of the night because of that. Stupid I know. Sorry for the rant. At least it's over. One step closer to getting my license. Now let's hope I can pull myself together within a year, or I hope much sooner, to get it.
^ Yeah, he was pretty intimidating and annoying. Thankfully that was it though, just those 5 hours. Now if I get myself pulled together and get my license within the year, I won't have to take it again. The course only lasts one year. If you don't get your license after that one year, you have to do it all over again, which is a pain. I don't want, nor need to, pay another $45 to listen to the same lecture over again, with most of the material I already knew.
Oh that truly sucks, I'm sorry.
Its good that you don't have to deal with him again. Good luck with your course.
