How are you feeling?

[Nathália]

My blood pressure is rising. I can't get my bottle of soda open!

ETA: Okay, so I tried cutting the cap off. Bad idea. It turns out that soda bottles kind of pop like wine bottles do. The lid flew somewhere in my room, but I can't find it. And I'm covered in Mountain Dew. But it's open!

Pop like a wine bottle? Was it a classic bottle or something?

I just don't see it.

I'm tardy. You blame yourself so much, you're great to the people who will care about you regardless and those who seek to understand you and all of your issues. That's all who matter, you don't see it but in other peoples mind/hearts they do and they really thank you for it. The smallest things make people smile and that's all people be needing sometimes and you give that and whether you know it or not....save lives because everyone wants someone to care about them even if it's not in real life. You care and it shows. *Pats Back* No one really cares about your imperfection, it's what you do.

 

[KiaKaha]

Like a loser.

My life is passing me by. I wish I knew what I really knew what I wanted to do with myself.

 

[Srijita52]

Like a loser.

My life is passing me by. I wish I knew what I really knew what I wanted to do with myself.

I'm sorry Kia. I wish I knew how to make you feel better. *hugs*

 

[KiaKaha]

I'm sorry Kia. I wish I knew how to make you feel better. *hugs*

Thanks Srijita - just an acknowledgment makes me feel better. Its my own problem. One that only I can only have the answer too. Life is fleeting, my youth is waning - and I have nothing to show for it.

 

[superfluouslyme]

Pop like a wine bottle? Was it a classic bottle or something?

No. The lid was put on way too tight. I tried and tried and it wouldn't come off. I used my box cutter to cut the seal, hoping that would help, but it didn't. Then I started cutting the screw cap from the bottom. When I made the second cut, I guess all the compressed air inside was released and it shot the lid somewhere in my room.

 

[Srijita52]

Thanks Srijita - just an acknowledgment makes me feel better. Its my own problem. One that only I can only have the answer too. Life is fleeting, my youth is waning - and I have nothing to show for it.

I really hope things get better with you, stay strong.

 

[bcsr]

Like a boss.

 

[Falkor]

I feel somewhat better than yesterday Just cycled through nice fresh weather to school, though I might have the same old thing today what I was upset about yesterday so much. If I will graduate I can transfer to another school so things will get better anyway (I hope...)

And I am feeling good about the fact that I will work at the music school today and I will be going to see my therapist which is awesome (I just love talking to her since it helps.. I need it)

 

[Roman Legion]

Had a major panic attack and felt rather on edge with so many people around me.. Glad that I left after only a few minutes.. All these years and my father still doesn't get why I can't talk in public or around strangers.. Kinda irritating.

 

[Falkor]

Had a major panic attack and felt rather on edge with so many people around me.. Glad that I left after only a few minutes.. All these years and my father still doesn't get why I can't talk in public or around strangers.. Kinda irritating.

Hi Roman Legion, I thought I react on your comment since I can very much relate and feel sorry for you. I'm sorry you had to feel like that around ppl. It's ridiculously hard to feel like that, do you have it a lot in crowds? I have it in buses, trains, in college, yards, traffic lights.. it's still so hard to believe I still have them on a daily basis. It's sad your father doesn't get why you feel like that, It's hard to explain why, though it is so easy to understand yourself since you have them, just try to explain him and say you need support, truly. And, hey, maybe you should think about meditation, breathing exercises, relaxation courses, it's so hard to cure panic attacks, but I wish you all the luck you need

 

[Srijita52]

I feel somewhat better than yesterday Just cycled through nice fresh weather to school, though I might have the same old thing today what I was upset about yesterday so much. If I will graduate I can transfer to another school so things will get better anyway (I hope...)

And I am feeling good about the fact that I will work at the music school today and I will be going to see my therapist which is awesome (I just love talking to her since it helps.. I need it)

I'm glad you're feeling
better today. I hope things get better in a different school.

 

[Srijita52]

Had a major panic attack and felt rather on edge with so many people around me.. Glad that I left after only a few minutes.. All these years and my father still doesn't get why I can't talk in public or around strangers.. Kinda irritating.

It sucks that your father isn't realising your problems.

 

[MikeyC]

A lot of people do say I have a very familiar face. I always get people saying "have we met before?" when I never seen the person my whole life lol. Plus it's pretty hard to miss a big bearded dude with 2 arm slings walking down the hall lol

Hmm, it must be your looks. All big bearded men look the same, right?

I'm tardy. You blame yourself so much, you're great to the people who will care about you regardless and those who seek to understand you and all of your issues. That's all who matter, you don't see it but in other peoples mind/hearts they do and they really thank you for it. The smallest things make people smile and that's all people be needing sometimes and you give that and whether you know it or not....save lives because everyone wants someone to care about them even if it's not in real life. You care and it shows. *Pats Back* No one really cares about your imperfection, it's what you do.

Thank you so much for the kind words, Beleza. I hope you're right. I have said the wrong things to some people recently so I still have a few things to work on. You're a great person yourself, too.

Like a loser.

My life is passing me by. I wish I knew what I really knew what I wanted to do with myself.

You and me both, my friend. I'm sure we'll both figure it out eventually.

I feel somewhat better than yesterday Just cycled through nice fresh weather to school, though I might have the same old thing today what I was upset about yesterday so much. If I will graduate I can transfer to another school so things will get better anyway (I hope...)

And I am feeling good about the fact that I will work at the music school today and I will be going to see my therapist which is awesome (I just love talking to her since it helps.. I need it)

I'm glad you're feeling better because you were certainly in a bad spot yesterday. You have an uncanny knack of keeping your head up so don't stop doing that.

 

[Roman Legion]

Hi Roman Legion, I thought I react on your comment since I can very much relate and feel sorry for you. I'm sorry you had to feel like that around ppl. It's ridiculously hard to feel like that, do you have it a lot in crowds? I have it in buses, trains, in college, yards, traffic lights.. it's still so hard to believe I still have them on a daily basis. It's sad your father doesn't get why you feel like that, It's hard to explain why, though it is so easy to understand yourself since you have them, just try to explain him and say you need support, truly. And, hey, maybe you should think about meditation, breathing exercises, relaxation courses, it's so hard to cure panic attacks, but I wish you all the luck you need

I wouldn't know how to meditate.. I get kinda paranoid and feel trapped in crowds. I am very anxious and watchful on buses, but I haven't been on one in a very long time and I haven't been on a train since 1999 or early 2000 and that was the D.C. area Metro that ran into Alexandria.. In college I wander off away from groups and sit it the back of the classroom making sure my back is to the wall. Not so much at traffic lights, I lock my doors religiously and never look at the cars around me and play my music fairly loud.

 

[Graeme1988]

Had an argument with my mum. She seems to think it's easy to get over all the harsh, f***ed up stuff my dad said to me over the years, now that he's dead. Well, it isn't. My step sister gave me her phone number but I don't know if I'll call her. I mean, what's there to say? And I didn't exactly have the same impression of my dad like my step-siblings.

He was a total prick towards me. Always made me feel like I was never good enough for him. He was f***ing control freak as well. It was always about him. "Go to university and study accounting" - Why? So I could take over his business. No, not because I wanted to. I was a disappointment to him, because, in my father's eyes, you're f*** all - nothing - unless you've got a job or a university or college degree.

Sorry... ::

 

[Srijita52]

Had an argument with my mum. She seems to think it's easy to get over all the harsh, f***ed up stuff my dad said to me over the years, now that he's dead. Well, it isn't. My step sister gave me her phone number but I don't know if I'll call her. I mean, what's there to say? And I didn't exactly have the same impression of my dad like my step-siblings.

He was a total prick towards me. Always made me feel like I was never good enough for him. He was f***ing control freak as well. It was always about him. "Go to university and study accounting" - Why? So I could take over his business. No, not because I wanted to. I was a disappointment to him, because, in my father's eyes, you're f*** all - nothing - unless you've got a job or a university or college degree.

Sorry... ::

You don't have to be sorry Graeme, if your dad was harsh to you, its hard to forget about what he did. I don't agree with your mom, it isn't that easy.

 

[Graeme1988]

You don't have to be sorry Graeme, if your dad was harsh to you, its hard to forget about what he did. I don't agree with your mom, it isn't that easy.

I know... I just wish my mum and I could talk openly about how I felt my father now. But we can't seem to do that. It seems this is another issue to be dealt with through counseling (I hope I start therapy this month) :: He lost the use of his legs in the end. :: I found that to be equally tragic and ironic. Given how my father never accepted the fact I have a disability.

 

[Srijita52]

I know... I just wish my mum and I could talk openly about how I felt my father now. But we can't seem to do that. It seems this is another issue to be dealt with through counseling (I hope I start therapy this month) :: He lost the use of his legs in the end. :: I found that to be equally tragic and ironic. Given how my father never accepted the fact I have a disability.

I'm sorry, I hope therapy helps you to deal better with it.
Oh that's really very ironic.

 

[Arthur_Dent]

I have a decent prospect of a comfortable life in the future, through professional success. But in the meantime, specially that year (as a minumum) that I have left before moving alone, my present is rather boring, lonely, restrictive, and it sucks big time. I like my future, but I hate my present, even if time seems to be going fast.

 

[lonely_drummer]

I'm kind of worried. My family doctor just called for me to come in tomorrow to discuss my results but I thought it was all inconclusive. So this is really starting to worry me that she found something serious. Urrrrgggg this is going to bug me all day now