It is, but they are so annoying and tedious.
How are you feeling?
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It is, but they are so annoying and tedious.
Srijita52
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Thank you.
MikeyC
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You're welcome. How are you going now? Feeling better?
Srijita52
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I'm so depressed, I've been crying for the last half hour ::
I hope you both feel better soon.I have been too:
I'm still feeling the same unfortunately. Like no one around me cares that I exist. Maybe its because I know its true.
How are you Mikey?
Srijita52
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hugs to you too Marie and everyone on SPW. I hope all of you feel better.
EscapeArtist
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I have been too:
I'm so depressed, I've been crying for the last half hour :
all my love goes out to you two. Crying is better than not crying.. I hope you feel better after a little bit of it
MikeyC
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I'm sorry you feel that way, Srijita. :
: I sometimes feel exactly the same and it's not nice. I care that you exist. I care deeply that you exist. You're such a fantastic person. Please feel free to PM me at any time if you need to.I am doing fine, thank you.
Srijita52
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I'm so sorry you're feeling such way Kia. If you ever want to talk I'm here.
KiaKaha
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Thanks - maybe I will take you up on that one day.
Its more a nagging emptiness I feel - you know... on the inside.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Emotional, detached, confused... ::
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Srijita52
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Emotional, detached, confused... :
Hang in there..
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Thank you. I've been feeling pretty numb lately. Wondering how best to deal with my dad's death. I don't know whether I should feel guilty, since I was the one who cut contact with him in January 2011. I certainly regret not telling him how I felt about him, and how he made me feel about myself. :
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Srijita52
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I'm sorry Graeme, but don't be too hard on yourself. Its sad that you didn't get a chance to tell him how you felt though its not your fault that you cut contact with him considering how he made you feel.Thank you. I've been feeling pretty numb lately. Wondering how best to deal with my dad's death. I don't know whether I should feel guilty, since I was the one who cut contact with him in January 2011. I certainly regret not telling him how I felt about him, and how he made me feel about myself. :
Roman Legion
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Feeling entirely hopeless today, I was looking forward to getting back in college when I got a letter from the school saying I was not longer eligible for financial aid, loans, grants.. et cetera.. I was eligible until the Army pulled me for a deployment and I missed the last half of my semester.. I can't find a job, even if I could get through the interview with my inablility to speak or somehow find a job where my bi-lateral knee issue wouldn't be a problem (knee issues was also caused by you guessed it, the United freaking states freaking Army..) I'm all out of plans, ideas, money, hope.. I'm all out of everything and I don't see a way around this.
I'm feeling much better today. I went into work with the determination to have a better day. I was more assertive, and took the time to talk with four different people about clarifying my schedule and what I was supposed to be doing on which days.
Also, I pulled into the employee parking lot at the same time as one of my supervisors. My first instinct was to cower in my car until she had walked a ways ahead of me, but instead I got out right away and walked to the building with her.
And finally, I made it a point to make some friendly conversation with my coworker. I was upset yesterday because she seemed kind of aloof with me and of course I blamed this on my own inability to interact.
And I got paid finally AND I don't have to go back to work for five days, so overall it has been a challenging but very good day.
Also, I pulled into the employee parking lot at the same time as one of my supervisors. My first instinct was to cower in my car until she had walked a ways ahead of me, but instead I got out right away and walked to the building with her.
And finally, I made it a point to make some friendly conversation with my coworker. I was upset yesterday because she seemed kind of aloof with me and of course I blamed this on my own inability to interact.
And I got paid finally AND I don't have to go back to work for five days, so overall it has been a challenging but very good day.
Vampayah88
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Like sh*t.
MsBuzzkillington
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I am feeling like a hypocrite and like a really bad person over all. I think sometimes I get frustrated too easily when I read posts on here of people being down on themselves or people talking about feeling depressed.
I understand that sometimes it is normal to feel that way and sometimes you just need to vent because you are feeling miserable. But when I see the same thing over and over again, it just makes me frustrated. So I seem to get angry and post rude comments as if people "aren't trying hard enough" to change their thought patterns. I know things are difficult, but I seem to just be like "stop that! you need to stop talking that way to yourself." Because the more you continue to repeat the same negative thoughts to yourself, the longer you stay stuck in the same place. Things don't click to positive thinking over night, so it gets frustrating when people seem to just "give up." But it is like my responses totally lack sympathy and I am not being understanding of how difficult it is (even though I know how hard it can be).
I have been struggling a lot with (embarrassing as this is to admit) binge eating for the past couple months. I am depressed, lonely, and miserable and I just keep eating and eating and eating. I try and stop, I try and tell myself all these things about why it is bad, how it is hurting my body, how the negative thinking isn't helping me. And yet I can't stop. I try and say that I can stop, instead of that I can't... and yet I make zero progress. I get defeated and just eat. So I was thinking about how much I am struggling with this and how it is the same way others are struggling with their body image issues and depression and how they "can't" help it and I can understand what it is like to be stuck there.
I have done a lot, as far as being able to pull myself out of depression in the past. I have done a lot as far as pulling myself out of incredible self hatred. I don't love myself, but I am not as low as I was once before. So since I have done that, I seem to feel like I can dish all this advice out about how to get better. But I can't seem to get passed this. So, now comparing myself to others and how hard it is for me and how hard it must be for them, I realize what a horrible person I have been lately. Things suck and things are so hard.
I am feeling scared. I don't know how to beat this. Sheer will power? Is that all there is to it? I think about how people quit drugs, drinking, and smoking and I don't know how they do it. I can't imagine how hard quitting those things must be if quitting something like binge eating is this hard. It sucks doing this alone. I don't know what to do.
Also, I should add. Simple diet tips like "drink more water, don't buy it, eat small meals and healthy snacks, walk more" etc, don't help. I know things that I should do, but those things don't stop the obsessive constant thoughts that never, ever go away.
I understand that sometimes it is normal to feel that way and sometimes you just need to vent because you are feeling miserable. But when I see the same thing over and over again, it just makes me frustrated. So I seem to get angry and post rude comments as if people "aren't trying hard enough" to change their thought patterns. I know things are difficult, but I seem to just be like "stop that! you need to stop talking that way to yourself." Because the more you continue to repeat the same negative thoughts to yourself, the longer you stay stuck in the same place. Things don't click to positive thinking over night, so it gets frustrating when people seem to just "give up." But it is like my responses totally lack sympathy and I am not being understanding of how difficult it is (even though I know how hard it can be).
I have been struggling a lot with (embarrassing as this is to admit) binge eating for the past couple months. I am depressed, lonely, and miserable and I just keep eating and eating and eating. I try and stop, I try and tell myself all these things about why it is bad, how it is hurting my body, how the negative thinking isn't helping me. And yet I can't stop. I try and say that I can stop, instead of that I can't... and yet I make zero progress. I get defeated and just eat. So I was thinking about how much I am struggling with this and how it is the same way others are struggling with their body image issues and depression and how they "can't" help it and I can understand what it is like to be stuck there.
I have done a lot, as far as being able to pull myself out of depression in the past. I have done a lot as far as pulling myself out of incredible self hatred. I don't love myself, but I am not as low as I was once before. So since I have done that, I seem to feel like I can dish all this advice out about how to get better. But I can't seem to get passed this. So, now comparing myself to others and how hard it is for me and how hard it must be for them, I realize what a horrible person I have been lately. Things suck and things are so hard.
I am feeling scared. I don't know how to beat this. Sheer will power? Is that all there is to it? I think about how people quit drugs, drinking, and smoking and I don't know how they do it. I can't imagine how hard quitting those things must be if quitting something like binge eating is this hard. It sucks doing this alone. I don't know what to do.
Also, I should add. Simple diet tips like "drink more water, don't buy it, eat small meals and healthy snacks, walk more" etc, don't help. I know things that I should do, but those things don't stop the obsessive constant thoughts that never, ever go away.
lonely_drummer
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Well, the dreaded doctors appointment wasn't so bad. I just got stuck in my head wondering if they'd found a brain tumor or something. But my doctor just wanted to discuss and review some things and she wanted me to get more blood work done just to make sure that CK enzyme that caused kidney failure wasn't still sticking around since my value of 49,000 when I was first admitted into the hospital which was the highest she had ever seen. And it seems my EEG is completely clear and there are no signs of epilepsy. But I still need to go to the epilepsy clinic just to make sure. Annnnnd, if I keep up like this, I will be off my Dilantin pills in 6 months which is great cuz they make me very jittery like I drank way too much caffeine. Soo, seems my worrying wasnt at all necessary