How are you feeling?

Terrible! No energy whatsoever, a feeling of massive doom and failure, worry, hurt, shame, a feeling i can't control anything and am misunderstood, always going to be alone... Todays been crap anyway, and made me feel bad but that's on top of the depression i already have.

Thanks twiggle

MikeyC said: ↑

What's the matter, my friend?

Nothing really, just random stuff. Thanks for your concern, always appreciated.

lonely_drummer said: ↑

Hey Mikey I'm sure this is thought throughout the whole forum but your kind refreshing and inspiring words are always greatly appreciated.

Completely agree. You're awesome, Mikey.

I never drink but now I've decided to go buy some alcohol and probably get lost in some forest.

Bad, I wish I could go back home with my parents. I hate family reunions and I have no one else to talk to. My cousin keeps irritating me all day long. I wish I was left alone.

Well the increase in Zoloft didn't last long haha, feeling very blue today.

Miserable. I feel like a failure. :🙁:

I wish my therapy sessions would hurry up and start already. I can't go on like this, I hate feeling the way I've been lately.

dizzy, weak, ashamed.

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

dizzy, weak, ashamed.

Aren't thoes the symptoms of drinking?(joking:😛:, I hope you will feel better soon).

Just got back from family party...and yes it was as I thought it would be...I'm just so happy to be home again!

I despise myself for needing people at all. I wish like heck I could be completely independent of everyone. I think more than anything in the world.

狼 said: ↑

I despise myself for needing people at all. I wish like heck I could be completely independent of everyone. I think more than anything in the world.

Everyone needs people, no matter if they want to admit it or not. I need people too. But having no one is very hurtful. Being alone even when surrounded by people. And still alone.

MrJones said: ↑

Everyone needs people, no matter if they want to admit it or not. I need people too. But having no one is very hurtful. Being alone even when surrounded by people. And still alone.

I just wish I could take care of myself and not rely on other financially i guess is my bitch. I really dislike myself for needing others help, which I do and it sucks so badly.

A combination of creative and zombie-fied.

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

dizzy, weak, ashamed.

I find something really distracting to do is the only way to help the feeling of being ashamed, until it passes. I hope it's something that can pass soon for you.

狼 said: ↑

I despise myself for needing people at all. I wish like heck I could be completely independent of everyone. I think more than anything in the world.

oh I have the same desire. It sucks to not be able to just rely on yourself huh?:🙁:

edit:....I just saw your next post. You said financially. Yes, that can be worse then relying on others for things like emotional support sometimes :/

@ bluedays-yeah I feel emotionally like I can handle a lot. I have been through a ton of things that way and I am okay. But the fact I cannot pay my bills on my own makes me feel like a useless turd for lack of a better word.
I guess if I could support myself I might be in another life someone who is lonely for people, like the other me in another life kinda thing-the me living in an alternate universe is starving for human connection but can pay the bills LoL idk. You always want what you don't have is what it feels like.

Extremely tired, I think my lack of sleep is catching up to me after all these weeks...I hope I can sleep tonight now.

Feeling alright, looking forward to havin lunch with my mum, who i havn't seen for ages 🙂

Feel like never eating eggs again.. I don't know why, but they have a bad reaction in my stomach.. :🙁:

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

dizzy, weak, ashamed.

I hope you're feeling better by now Weirdy 🙂

WeirdyMcGee said: ↑

I think you've got nothing to feel guilty about, then.
You're an honorable guy is all, Olhos~ don't do anything if it feels wrong to you.
(and also-- continue to vent here anytime!)

thanks you are too kind.