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    Someone dear to me left today and I'm having a hard time coping

    Hey everyone, About two months ago, I relapsed pretty bad and have been feeling very lonely until about 3 weeks ago, I was talking to a friend of mine on google chat (we didn't know each other that well) and offered her to come visit me for a week and stay over at my place if she wanted. She...
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    Seeing a therapist the first time

    Well, that's about it for me. I'm finally accepted that there may be something wrong with me and I'm seeking professional help. I have a whole mess of problems...depression, awkwardness, possible AVPD, passive-aggression issues, insomnia and extreme loneliness. Lately, since I finished school...
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    I graduated two weeks ago with an engineering degree! But..

    now I am very lonely...the loneliest I've ever felt actually. Every day since finishing exams, all I do is wake up, cook breakfast, watch some TV shows in bed, occasionally going to the gym in the building, then taking the car for a short spin. No one has asked about me since we finished, not...
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    I have no passions, no interests and no hobbies

    I think I lead a life which many could call 'successful'. I am just about done with my engineering degree, I have a good job lined up after I graduate and I have a decent amount of money from my last job. However, my life is so painfully empty, it's hard to put into words how lonely I get...
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    Watch this

    YouTube - How To Be Alone
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    Do you talk to yourself often?

    On the balance of things, I think I'm a pretty sane person, but having gone weeks at a time without any human interaction (other than my mom occasionally calling me), and not having any pets, I've taken up the off habit of talking to myself. By that I mean far beyond the occasional curse or...
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    No one cares about me but...

    I think I can relate to the many people here who feel that no one cares about them; we go about our lives unnoticed, our phone rarely rings, and our spare time is wasted on anything but socializing. But I've realized lately that, for better or for worse, we have to learn to accept the fact that...
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    One of my favourite Youtube videos (just 1 min long)

    This ALWAYS puts a smile on my face YouTube - Baby Bob Marley
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    What to get my mom for her birthday?

    It's hard for me to admit this, but I have no one in this world who truly cares about me but my mom. She's the only person who calls to ask how I am, the only person who sincerely loves me, and the only person who would go out of their way to make me happy... Her birthday is coming up soon, and...
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    University is almost over. I am almost on honor roll but I don't feel proud

    Four years...they were supposed to be the "best years of my life"...gone. Not a single non-academic achievement. Not a single true friend. Not a single girlfriend. Nothing. In four months, I'll be an engineer, with a degree from a respectable school, and yet I feel like a failure. I know a...
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    Happiest moments of your life?

    Ok, so I was feeling a bit crummy this morning when, as I was lost in my thoughts, I remembered one of the happiest moments of my life, so I thought I'd share it: So I have a very soft spot for hugs :) As you can imagine, as an AvPD'er, I seldom do get a chance to hug people, but when I do, I...
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    Thinking of getting rid of my cellphone

    I'm paying about $30 a month for not using it. The only person who calls me is my mom, and occasionally my one friend will text message me asking how my studying is going. Other than that, it's just a paperweight...a waste of money. I'm kinda grappling with the thought of getting rid of it. I...
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    It's Friday night...what are you doing?

    I'm watching me some Planet Earth over some food I just cooked :) Might go for a stroll later... While I do wish I had someone to do anything with on a Friday night, I'm actually happy with what I'm doing...I rarely get a relax this much.
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    I just had a miserable relapse

    Hey everyone, It's been maybe 2 months since I posted here. Since then, I had taken the very bold step of joining 40 random people on a camping trip...and somehow I managed to pull it off, even though everyone there was with their friends. I'd been feeling ok when I got back...not doing much...
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    I've resolved myself to having no friends

    This used to be very depressing to me: My 'friends' never initiate any kind of social discourse with me. I'm always the one who calls or texts or emails. The last time I'd been invited anywhere by a friend was more than a year ago. If I don't write on someone's wall on facebook, mine will stay...
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    Putting your theories of social ineptitude to the test

    So I just got back from a long, uneventful day at university. I wasn't really anxious during the day, just miserable...watching all the freshmen socializing and such. I was thinking...why not join these orientation events, maybe I'll get to meet some people. But then I thought...wait...people...
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    Sports

    Does anyone else here love playing sports? Nothing relieves stress more than pushing your limit, trying to win a squash game or jogging in the park nearby, getting that runner's high...or just that feeling of accomplishment after you leave the gym. I think it's really the only thing really...
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    I think I've been rejected again...

    sigh...I won't go into the details but a girl I've liked for quite some time just rejected me. As if my self esteem needed this... I feel so numb right now. I wish I understood what was wrong with me that I drive the opposite sex away from me like this. This is my fourth rejection in a row...
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    I'm terrified of the future...

    Hey everyone, I think I've been doing OK for the last couple of days. I've been eating healthy and trying to stay in shape (though still I have no social life outside a handful of people, one of whom I like but she seems interested in others). I've just ended my work term and I'm going back to...
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    Don't drink hot coffee when you're with people!!!!

    Take it from me... I had the WORST sweating episode last year when I was sitting next to a girl I really liked in a cafe. It was horrible...a cycle of anxiety/poor body heat regulation, and it just wouldn't stop. DO NOT drink any hot liquids if you don't want to get a "sweat reaction". Also...
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