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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
:kickingmyself: :thumbdown: :veryangry:

Fur fuc...! How d’ye deal with folk in yer family who don’t show ye an ounce o’ respect or even the slightest bit of gratitude when ya do summit for them? : idontknow:
 
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Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
What is the feckin' point ?! :kickingmyself: Every time I get told or shown how to do something by my mother, she ends up doing it for me. Why bother showing then? :thumbdown: :sad: Speaking to me like I'm an idiot. :veryangry:
 

Graeme1988

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I feel so bored. I wonder why no one really comes online..

Time differences, probably.

Dammit! Huv’nae been getting much sleep lately. Staying up late n’ sleeping during the day, that’s how it is for me at the moment. :sad: Wish things would just get back to some sense o’ normality. :kickingmyself:
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Sorry you're feeling so angry.

Thanks, I guess... :idontknow:

Och! Tae be fair... it’s something I’m used to. Used to being the arsehole. Or perceived as such.

My mother gave me guff, just yesterday there, when I insisting she say ”please” when she demanded that I hand her something (an empty bottle). Apparently no-one in the family says it to her, so why should she bother? Despite the fact, most of the time, I’m normally asking if it’s okay for me to get a shave. Not asking permission to do so, but just asking in case someone need to use toilet before I spend a few minutes in the bathroom.

Ah nearly pointed that out, but thought better of it. Since why bother being nice to people who, instead of asking you to do something nicely, just snap at ya to... “Gimme that!” :eek:mg:
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Yeah I had a time I was talking about sleeping late. That happens when I don't have anything to do during the day and then can't sleep later. I'm with you on that one.

Yeah... the thing is though. I’ve got plenty to be doing during the day that I should be doing, or getting on with. I just don’t seem to have the focus to do ‘em. And, weirdly enough, I feel more focused and energised to get stuff done in the wee hour of the night than during the day. :confused: :idontknow:
 

Marc7

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I can relate there. It’s good that you’re getting back into some of the things you used to do though. :thumbup: I’m currently trying to get back into making music, it’s been nearly a year since I started doing that. Failing that, I want to get back to playing the guitar again. So, hopefully, teaching my oldest sister how to play the bass guitar will go someway to achieving that.

You're behind in news too? It pays a price though because i'm behind in news now plus it is hard to read comments on videos I got back into because of not wanting to feel inferior, anxious, and fear of the unknown. So I'm stuck now. Cool I hope you get back into making music. What did you fail at (getting back into playing the guitar)?
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
You're behind in news too? It pays a price though because i'm behind in news now plus it is hard to read comments on videos I got back into because of not wanting to feel inferior, anxious, and fear of the unknown. So I'm stuck now.

Yeah, quite behind on the news. It's been a rough few months in my life. :sad: Can't really find the time to focus on the news at the moment.

Cool I hope you get back into making music.

I'm trying to do that. And would be getting more ideas fleshed out if I was allowed more than a day's peace n' quiet. But my mother doesn't seem to want to acknowledge or care how the past, almost, year has affected me. :crying: :kickingmyself: But, thankfully, my oldest sister is just as pissed off and angry about that. As she is getting disregarded by our mother in favour of the middle sibling like I am.

What did you fail at (getting back into playing the guitar)?

Oh, I picked up my electric guitar a few months ago and couldn't come up with any ideas. So I'm kinda hoping teaching my oldest sister how to play her favourite songs on the bass guitar will hopefully inspire some new ideas of my own. :thinking:
 

PeterO

Well-known member
A bit tense. I hate the part of my job where I have to manage people and/or confront colleagues (gee, wonder why!) and I had to do some of that tonight. I'm very lucky that I have a quiet job that I can do from home, but sometimes I still have to deal with this stuff and I get super-anxious.
 
I'm feeling really depressed today. I don't even want to leave the house. I'm getting really tired of this trying and failing bullshit - I just want to be the person I was supposed to be. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough... or, I just don't deserve what I am asking for. I want other people to experience happiness, but when you don't have it, seeing it everywhere is just ****ing painful.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
Just a note to say thanks to those who offered their support in regards to my last post's.
It was probably the lowest I've ever felt..and it took a while to subside. But your support DID make a difference to me.

So.. Thank you.
 

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
I'm feeling really depressed today. I don't even want to leave the house. I'm getting really tired of this trying and failing bullshit - I just want to be the person I was supposed to be. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough... or, I just don't deserve what I am asking for. I want other people to experience happiness, but when you don't have it, seeing it everywhere is just ****ing painful.

Sending hugs and support your way Sarah.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Not great, ah think I’m in for the flu... again! As per, muh family are pissing me off. :kickingmyself:
Don’t know if ah should laugh or cry at what’s happened within the last year. :idontknow:

Ah nearly gave a smart-arsed sarcastic response to my older sister, yesterday afternoon, when she asked me and our oldest sibling to explain why we were taking some boxes and my old guitar stand to the recycling tip? :eek:mg: As if it wus’nae bloody obvious, y’know? But ah thought better of myself than to make a daft but clever Harry Potter joke reference. :giggle:
 
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