Ah wish ah lived somewhere else, as I don’t feel at home in the house that I’m essentially paying for. Haven’t since last year. :sad: Plus the infamous wee town ah live is an utter shitehole - f*ckin’ hate the place! Don’t know if that would inspire me creatively, but it sure would get some life about me. Oh, and a decent nights sleep would grand. Instead o’ this constant insomnia I’ve had for nearly a month straight. :kickingmyself:
You bet me to it! I was about to post a chocolate cake or sth now. But i didn't think to do anything like that (post a pic) when i saw C's post 19 hours ago. :oh:
still not asleep. Looking for people to help, hope that'll give you a nicer day.
Thanks. But ah think a serious change of scene would be nicer. Get myself away from the bedlam and petty drama of my family. :sad:
And if that means packing up and moving, so be it. As I'm f*ckin' sick of feeling caught in the middle. :kickingmyself: :crying:
I know... it just sucks that things aren’t going well for me lately. :sad: Especially after all the stressful crap I had put up with from ma family last year. :kickingmyself:
I've been having some out there dreams lately. Some of the imagery is so wild and vivid I want to right it all down.
There was one about a ghost world . There was a nice Dalish image when I got meet the Governess of the ghost world, a talking head on top of a monolithic stone column. A melting pizza down a wall, like Dalis watch.
Entering the ghost world was by climbing through a crumbling colloseum like structure, and walking through a storm of maggots and decaying flesh coming at me like in a wind tunnell. And walking dow the main street a blinding deadlight flare blinded me, before I enetered the world. The residents of the ghost didn't know they were dead, and didn't take kindly to strangers. And we walked through worried that rhe residents would recognises us as outsiders, fresh meat in a dead world
Being led by a ghost guide down tunnell like spiral staircases.
My town changed it's policy to if you need medication for mental health issues, they MAKE you go to counseling or they will not give you meds.
At first, I was only seeing him once a month at the soonest, because I just can't handle therapy. But for the last 3 weeks, I've been going once a week, and plan on making an appointment as soon as Monday comes around.
My adult brother moved back in with me and my mother. I got no warning. He just came back, and never left. I started getting suspicious when I started seeing boxes being around. So, I mentioned to my mom that I thought he was gonna move back in. She just dropped her mouth open and said why do you think that? Then, "yeah, he is moving back"
Oh cool, thanks for the update. I get suicidal being around him too much so this will be interesting.
counseling is good but that implies that everyone who has mental health issues is going through issues which i've heard that's not true that some people got it all their life so it can be genetic? therefore if they force everyone to go counselling then it's not good whereas in my instance it is good.(?)
I was told that is was very possible that I may have to be on anti-depressants my entire life. So does that mean I have to go to therapy for life? lol
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