theslowesthand
Banned
There are different social animals. You might be a giraffe, having its head way above others, in its own "head space", away from all the turmoil below.
How are you feeling?
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theslowesthand
Banned
I don't think i'll shower today. I'll just turn up tomorrow for the course SMELLY. Haven't showered or been out for a week. SOMEBODY has got me in a stubborn, temperamental mood. F*CK IT i say...
theslowesthand
Banned
I pray to God that i will be alright tonight & in the short-term, & that things will be alright for me, & that bridges can be rebuilt. Changes have a REALLY HUGE affect on me, not in a good way. I can go "OFF THE RAILS" quite easily.
PugofCrydee
You want to know how I got these scars?
Where the hell did my post go?..
Ahh.. someone must have taken it the wrong way and had a cry about it, had it removed.
Great, even here the same BS rules apply that society forces upon us. Seems its ok to use them when it suits.
Ahh.. someone must have taken it the wrong way and had a cry about it, had it removed.
Great, even here the same BS rules apply that society forces upon us. Seems its ok to use them when it suits.
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FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Toothache.
The whole side of my head hurts.
Tylenol and bedtime.
The whole side of my head hurts.
Tylenol and bedtime.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Oh, ah couldnae be happier ! After 10 months of having to put up with the constant arguments, me losing the heid n’ going off on these rants of pure rage. Or, me, having to keep my niece company whenever her mother had tantrum over something trivial. Makes me wonder who’s the child and who’s the adult at times.
Or, to be more accurate, my niece would come n’ see me whenever her mummy yelled at her.
Which is understandable - how that wain doesn’t swear is beyond me though. :idontknow: She hears it from her mother enough. Effie’ n’ blinding whenever something goes wrong. And my mother used think I swore a lot... mg:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Ah! Dysfunctional parents are great. They fill ya with crippling self-doubt and a delusional sense of yer own self-important. All within the time frame of a single argument. Or, in the case of my older sister, never tell her she’s wrong, cuz that makes ya likeable, doesn’t it? Losing yer cool at merely being told someone thinks yer in wrong. :kickingmyself:
Sorry, am still a wee bit pissed off about being berated for buying the wrong phone charger for my niece’s phone the other day. When it wus an easy mistake to make when ya shop via eBay and a seller’s are a bit vague on details.
Sorry, am still a wee bit pissed off about being berated for buying the wrong phone charger for my niece’s phone the other day. When it wus an easy mistake to make when ya shop via eBay and a seller’s are a bit vague on details.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
I'm behind in the news by a week:sad:. But the good news is I'm starting to get back into some things I use to do
I can relate there. It’s good that you’re getting back into some of the things you used to do though. :thumbup: I’m currently trying to get back into making music, it’s been nearly a year since I started doing that. Failing that, I want to get back to playing the guitar again. So, hopefully, teaching my oldest sister how to play the bass guitar will go someway to achieving that.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Make that 9-year old Darvocet and bedtime; what a pain.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Re: How are you feeling?lm
:kickingmyself: Nothing like yer own mother talking you through, then proceeding to show ye how to microwave a f*ckin’ ready meal! Naw, that doesnae condescend to the disabled at all, does it?mg: :thumbdown:
:kickingmyself: Nothing like yer own mother talking you through, then proceeding to show ye how to microwave a f*ckin’ ready meal! Naw, that doesnae condescend to the disabled at all, does it?
mg: :thumbdown:
MollyBeGood
Well-known member
Re: How are you feeling?lm
Graeme mine does the same thing to me. I think it is the most undermining behavior and deserves to be challenged every time. It's their sweet motherly way of controlling you through passive aggressive insults to your intelligence.
Happy Mother's Day!.. coming up here on Sundayh:
All I can do is try to be forgiving and not take her destructive to my mental well-being behavior too personally. I think she must just be Fuc king oblivious!
:kickingmyself: Nothing like yer own mother talking you through, then proceeding to show ye how to microwave a f*ckin’ ready meal! Naw, that doesnae condescend to the disabled at all, does it?
Graeme mine does the same thing to me. I think it is the most undermining behavior and deserves to be challenged every time. It's their sweet motherly way of controlling you through passive aggressive insults to your intelligence.
Happy Mother's Day!.. coming up here on Sunday
h:All I can do is try to be forgiving and not take her destructive to my mental well-being behavior too personally. I think she must just be Fuc king oblivious!
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Re: How are you feeling
Still, or...? Cuz my mother does it every occasion when I’m likely to left alone. Even goes as far as show how the central heating to the house on and off. Never mind the countless times she asked me to turn it off or on. :kickingmyself:
I’m starting to think my oldest sister was right when she said to me that our Mum still doesn’t see me as an adult in her mind. Ironically, my oldest sister is the only one who think I’m more than capable of looking after myself with limited support. As I’ve managed on the other times when I just had the house to myself, with a wee bit help from my sister. But not to the extent where she was showing how to do everything.
But ah do take my Mum’s behaviour personally, more so because of implication of what being said about my disability. :thumbdown: The controlling nature of it doesnae trouble me as much, cuz I’m used to her being that way.
Graeme mine does the same thing to me. I think it is the most undermining behavior and deserves to be challenged every time. It's their sweet motherly way of controlling you through passive aggressive insults to your intelligence.
Happy Mother's Day!.. coming up here on Sunday
All I can do is try to be forgiving and not take her destructive to my mental well-being behavior too personally. I think she must just be Fuc king oblivious!
Still, or...? Cuz my mother does it every occasion when I’m likely to left alone. Even goes as far as show how the central heating to the house on and off. Never mind the countless times she asked me to turn it off or on. :kickingmyself:
I’m starting to think my oldest sister was right when she said to me that our Mum still doesn’t see me as an adult in her mind. Ironically, my oldest sister is the only one who think I’m more than capable of looking after myself with limited support. As I’ve managed on the other times when I just had the house to myself, with a wee bit help from my sister. But not to the extent where she was showing how to do everything.
But ah do take my Mum’s behaviour personally, more so because of implication of what being said about my disability. :thumbdown: The controlling nature of it doesnae trouble me as much, cuz I’m used to her being that way.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Kinda hoping the vibe around the house changes soon. The past, almost year has had a vacationing at Guantanamo Bay vibe about. Or, to put it another way, waking up in the morning has been torture. :bigsmile:
Nae offence intended, by all o’ the above, my twisted sense o’ humour is the only thing that got through the last year. Other than my love of music and reading books.
Nae offence intended, by all o’ the above, my twisted sense o’ humour is the only thing that got through the last year. Other than my love of music and reading books.
MollyBeGood
Well-known member
My mom treats me like I am mentally retarded. I am not, I have issues with my mental health (thanks to her upbringing and genetic pool) but I am not mentally disabled. She has done this to me all of my life, yes. She doesn't do it to my brothers at all. It feel like she never liked me bc I was born a girl I can even go so far as to say that. Maybe she was secretly jealous of me my whole life? I have no idea. She's 70 something now so she's not as bad as she used to be. I think with age she has come to realize she hurt my development more than helped it.
I know for me it has crushed my self esteem. How can you feel good about yourself when your own mother treats you like you are an inferior being to pretty much everyone else? It's impossible. Now, she's not ALWAYS this way with me but i'd say it's 90% of the time. I think she's the reason I don't get on with my own gender as easy bc I cannot trust women now. It's amazing all the damage, life-long damage, bad parenting can do.
I know for me it has crushed my self esteem. How can you feel good about yourself when your own mother treats you like you are an inferior being to pretty much everyone else? It's impossible. Now, she's not ALWAYS this way with me but i'd say it's 90% of the time. I think she's the reason I don't get on with my own gender as easy bc I cannot trust women now. It's amazing all the damage, life-long damage, bad parenting can do.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Same for me as well. Though I do have slight learning disability due to being born with cerebral palsy.
But I’ve always gotten treated differently due to be the only male sibling. In that, my sisters never received nearly as much verbal abuse as I had to endure. Like I don’t recall my mother ever telling my older sister she was useless whenever she made a mistake. Being constantly compared to my father didn’t help.
Though, I still believe my mother’s neglect and constant putdowns were more direct at my Dad. It just so happened that I had to look exactly like him. Sadly, my Mum didn’t even consider this until I asked her if she knew how difficult my life was, not just because I’m disabled. Growing up with zero positive male role models, I only realised this in hindsight. How I’ve always felt this pressure to be perfect. Or why my immediate reaction to a compliment is to almost disregard it. How could I not, when she spent most of my formative years telling me that I’m just like my father. An abusive, intimidating, violent bully, just like him. But she’d be quick to telll me that I’m also a good person with a lot going for me, whenever I’d put myself down.
But, yeah, bad parents can do life-long damage to their kids. More than they care to admit. :sad:
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Ya gotta love it when a program crashes and you haven't saved in an hour.
theslowesthand
Banned
BlueDays
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^Ice-cream, Fountain. Ice-cream. :thumbup:Ya gotta love it when a program crashes and you haven't saved in an hour.
Ice-cream can make everything better!
:inlove:
Today I have hit an even lower low than the lowest low I have hit before.
Ice-cream for breakfast.
Have achieved an expert level for denial. Yay! :applause:
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I got up and went to the store at four in the morning just to buy coco pebbles the other day, so I understand about low.
What kind of ice cream was it? If it was coffee flavored that wouldn't be so bad.