How are you feeling?

[Phoenixx]

I'm feeling a bit uneasy because my dad just had a small seizure.
He was falling asleep watching TV as usual, then I look over and his head is shacking and I couldn't get him to wake up.....Thankfully he snapped out of it quickly. It always scares the daylights out of me no matter how many times it happens. I'm really tired of this.

^ Seizures are scary. My mom is epileptic and while she doesn't have seizures all the time, they still frighten me every single time they happen. What's weird is with her small seizures she doesn't get head shakes, but ends up just staring. It's weird and probably freaks me out more than the actual shaking. I remember the first time I experienced that when I was little, she had one as I was trying to converse with her. She just froze and stared at me for 5 mins. I never felt so uncomfortable in my life. ::

 

[doubtmyself]

nervous...a churning stomach

 

[Shyangel]

^ Seizures are scary. My mom is epileptic and while she doesn't have seizures all the time, they still frighten me every single time they happen. What's weird is with her small seizures she doesn't get head shakes, but ends up just staring. It's weird and probably freaks me out more than the actual shaking. I remember the first time I experienced that when I was little, she had one as I was trying to converse with her. She just froze and stared at me for 5 mins. I never felt so uncomfortable in my life. ::

Wow, I'm sorry you have to deal with that. My dad isn't epileptic, it's a result of a tumor he had removed. When the tumor was in it was causing seizures as well. We were hoping after the tumor was gone so would the seizures, but it didn't workout that way. He has some brain damage from the tumor so it scares me when he has seizures because I'm not certain what it is or if the seizure will damage his brain more. My dad has speech problems and is confused easily because of the tumor and surgery. He is mostly normal, though, but I notice differences from before these things. I love my dad and I just hate seeing him go through these things.

 

[gwennaelle]

Thank you, ShyAngel.

 

[sullyS25]

I'm in such a mega-funk today. Just very hopeless and want to crawl under my desk and sleep until I can go home and crawl into bed. I was stupid and ate 40mgs of adderall yesterday and I'm going to guess it like, sucked all the serotonin out of my brain. Then since I couldn't sleep last night I took about 3mgs of Xanax and I just feel so guilty and horrible and ugh ugh ugh. But I just keep telling myself it's not permanent and tomorrow I will feel better. Just gotta hang on.

I am guessing you are feeling like this as a side effect from the drugs. That certainly is no fun and I am sure you will feel better with time.....40 mgs of adderall is a lot....3 mgs of xanax is a decent amount as well. I hope you don't slip into that pattern of taking more to feel better again....I have done that and it is a downward spiral....I hope you feel better

 

[Shyangel]

Your welcome, Gwen. If you ever want to chat sometime, feel free. I have nothing better to do. lol

How I'm feeling...

I wish had hobby I enjoyed doing or a fun club where I could enjoy this hobby with other people. I'm tired of not enjoying anything and doing it by myself. If I had that I would think things would be much better. I really want to do that...Maybe I will.

 

[MsBuzzkillington]

I feel betrayed this morning.

Last night I Googled one of my e-mail addresses and my photos from this socialphobiaworld site came up. Not just my profile pic! Now I am wondering how much of my information was sold??? Now I feel certain all of what I shared is in a hard drive somewhere only waiting to be sold and then used against me somehow.

Whatever... I suppose nobody really cares about me anyways... However, for now; it feels as though someone has stolen personal belongings from me and that they may have stolen more than I know!
It would have been nice to have been warned.

Pathetic world we live in today where even your intimate thoughts and feelings can be sold just so someone somewhere can feed their ego.

Your information wasn't sold anywhere. When you put your information on the internet, it's out there. Things aren't private. If something is signed up and attached to your email address it will come when you search for it. Like if I searched for my username my posts from SPW would come up. It's part of having your information on the internet, it's just out there.

 

[MrJones]

Screw you, negativity and pessimism! I'm tired of you and I want to get rid of you!

*throws the through the window*

I'm determined to take back the good things I've lost and retain the progress I've made.

I've done a lot of things lately, a lot of progress.
A lot of things happened, good and bad.
I still don't know what to do with myself, but I can't keep being stuck in here.

I will get better and I will always try to help those who helped me in my bad times. I don't have much to say, but I will try my best to give back the good times that were given to me. I owe you everything!

 

[LittleKitty]

So many thoughts running though my head right now....

 

[lonely_drummer]

phew!!!!! feeeeeeeling good. Just had a mad recording session in my room lol. I was like, thats it! Im doing this NOW! I went really smooth, I only had to go through each song once which is typical of me lol. So yeah, I have one of the acoustic guitar tracks all done. Tonight I will practise on lead acoustic parts and hopefully record all that tomorrow and then Im also going to have subtle spaced out electric guitar in the back, then comes the hardest part, the vocals, wooooo.

 

[MikeyC]

I wish had hobby I enjoyed doing or a fun club where I could enjoy this hobby with other people. I'm tired of not enjoying anything and doing it by myself. If I had that I would think things would be much better. I really want to do that...Maybe I will.

It doesn't hurt. Think about what you truly enjoy and go for it!

Screw you, negativity and pessimism! I'm tired of you and I want to get rid of you!

*throws the through the window*

I'm determined to take back the good things I've lost and retain the progress I've made.

I've done a lot of things lately, a lot of progress.
A lot of things happened, good and bad.
I still don't know what to do with myself, but I can't keep being stuck in here.

I will get better and I will always try to help those who helped me in my bad times. I don't have much to say, but I will try my best to give back the good times that were given to me. I owe you everything!

This is a combo-breaking post from you! Of course you will get better. You're already cool as it is and it's good you want to free yourself from the burden of depression and misery. I'm be right behind you if you fall.

So many thoughts running though my head right now....

Anything you want to discuss?

 

[Shyangel]

phew!!!!! feeeeeeeling good. Just had a mad recording session in my room lol. I was like, thats it! Im doing this NOW! I went really smooth, I only had to go through each song once which is typical of me lol. So yeah, I have one of the acoustic guitar tracks all done. Tonight I will practise on lead acoustic parts and hopefully record all that tomorrow and then Im also going to have subtle spaced out electric guitar in the back, then comes the hardest part, the vocals, wooooo.

That's awesome news, Drummer. Your plans sound like some awesome future songs. Just trust yourself, Drummer, your a great artist and you will make great songs. Vocals included.

 

[Phoenixx]

Screw you, negativity and pessimism! I'm tired of you and I want to get rid of you!

*throws the through the window*

I'm determined to take back the good things I've lost and retain the progress I've made.

I've done a lot of things lately, a lot of progress.
A lot of things happened, good and bad.
I still don't know what to do with myself, but I can't keep being stuck in here.

I will get better and I will always try to help those who helped me in my bad times. I don't have much to say, but I will try my best to give back the good times that were given to me. I owe you everything!

^ Yay! *stomps on negativity and pessimism* There, it shouldn't be coming back anytime soon.

Glad to see this great post, Jones!

 

[Barry1979]

Feelin pretty good today....bout to go bust out a long jog!

 

[SilentBird]

Tired of life, sick of myself.

 

[Iluv]

I feel like I'm fat and stupid. I can't understand the math to my work and can't get down in my weight. Terrible day for me but I'm managing. Plus I've got the flu. bleh .

 

[Phoenixx]

Wow, I'm sorry you have to deal with that. My dad isn't epileptic, it's a result of a tumor he had removed. When the tumor was in it was causing seizures as well. We were hoping after the tumor was gone so would the seizures, but it didn't workout that way. He has some brain damage from the tumor so it scares me when he has seizures because I'm not certain what it is or if the seizure will damage his brain more. My dad has speech problems and is confused easily because of the tumor and surgery. He is mostly normal, though, but I notice differences from before these things. I love my dad and I just hate seeing him go through these things.

^ Oh, I'm really sorry to hear that. :: I know it must be hard watching him go through all of those things, but at least the tumor is gone and he's able to live a mostly normal life with you.

 

[MikeyC]

Tired of life, sick of myself.

Aw, why?

I feel like I'm fat and stupid. I can't understand the math to my work and can't get down in my weight. Terrible day for me but I'm managing. Plus I've got the flu. bleh .

Sometimes we have terrible days where all we think about are the bad stuff, and the flu wouldn't be helping. Keep your head up and we're all here if you want to rant.

 

[Iluv]

Sometimes we have terrible days where all we think about are the bad stuff, and the flu wouldn't be helping. Keep your head up and we're all here if you want to rant.

Thanks Mikey :: ! I'll try to keep my head up. At least I'm feeling a little better with all the medicine .

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks Mikey :: ! I'll try to keep my head up. At least I'm feeling a little better with all the medicine .

That's very good news. Take care of that cold.