How are you feeling?

[SilentBird]

I do understand where you are coming from. I've been fighting with hatred towards myself for a while now. And I fear it is a lost battle... However, that is only me. Many people overcome their low self-esteem and I believe you can do so too! Has this feeling been triggered by some specific event?

I can identify particular events which are very personal that have negatively impacted on me and the image of have of myself.

Also, I do believe that we are conditioned from the day we are born in a myriad of ways, from the way we are treated and the examples that are set before us. That is, from our families, schools, peers, churches and the media etc... I guess it's everybody's own choice to accept that conditioning or not.

Thanks for the kind words. To me kindness and understanding are most valuable human traits.

 

[polishgirl]

I can identify particular events which are very personal that have negatively impacted on me and the image of have of myself.

Also, I do believe that we are conditioned from the day we are born in a myriad of ways, from the way we are treated and the examples that are set before us. That is, from our families, schools, peers, churches and the media etc... I guess it's everybody's own choice to accept that conditioning or not.

Thanks for the kind words. To me kindness and understanding are most valuable human traits.

I do believe that what you are now is a result of multiple events that you cannot trace down. It makes me feel a little down, knowing that I will never figure out what made me who I am today. And I think there must be some dependance, too: many people have gone through harder situations than I have and managed to become only stronger. I proved to be weak.

But I do strongly believe that change is possible either way. I don't know how, I don't know when but I am certain it is possible. And I'm crossing my fingers that someday you will be happy with who you are because I know that is the biggest treasure a person can have

And no problem, always here to help

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks for the encouragement - but its easier said than done - the way it makes me feel is really unpleasant. I will deal with it... as I have done my entire life - I wish I knew how to get the help that I need.

I know it's easier said than done. I have no good advice except just hang in there.

 

[KiaKaha]

I know it's easier said than done. I have no good advice except just hang in there.

Thanks... I know. I do appreciate it... I think I am going to have to go to the doctor to get some anti anxiety medication or something... I cant handle it on my own.

 

[sparsilestar]

Trying not to hurt myself right now.

I sincerely hope that you haven't hurt yourself, and I hope that you've found the momentary support (at the very least) that you need.
But (speaking as someone who has struggled with SI for many years) if you already have done something, try not to beat yourself up about it. For me, the after-bashing was the worst part of the whole horrible cycle.
Be safe!
x

 

[SilentBird]

I do believe that what you are now is a result of multiple events that you cannot trace down. It makes me feel a little down, knowing that I will never figure out what made me who I am today. And I think there must be some dependance, too: many people have gone through harder situations than I have and managed to become only stronger. I proved to be weak.

But I do strongly believe that change is possible either way. I don't know how, I don't know when but I am certain it is possible. And I'm crossing my fingers that someday you will be happy with who you are because I know that is the biggest treasure a person can have

And no problem, always here to help

I have a feeling that you are stronger than what you might now believe. No one else knows what it is like to live with the feelings that we have inside.

I have somehow proven to myself that I am stronger and more capable than what I had previously thought.

 

[lonely_drummer]

Yeah!!! I just loaded the tracks onto my computer I did today, they sound clean and crisp, saweeet!!!

 

[Shyangel]

Yeah!!! I just loaded the tracks onto my computer I did today, they sound clean and crisp, saweeet!!!

Great news, drummer. I'm sure your gonna have a complete awesome album very soon.

How I'm feeling....

I'm feeling a little sick from eating to many brownies. The unhealthy midnight eating goes on!!

 

[lonely_drummer]

Great news, drummer. I'm sure your gonna have a complete awesome album very soon.

How I'm feeling....

I'm feeling a little sick from eating to many brownies. The unhealthy midnight eating goes on!!

Thanks! I think it's gonna turn out well. And oh man I been craving chocolate all day, especially brownies. See if i was there I would have had half and you would have only had half of what you had and you wouldn't feel crappy.

 

[Shyangel]

Thanks! I think it's gonna turn out well. And oh man I been craving chocolate all day, especially brownies. See if i was there I would have had half and you would have only had half of what you had and you wouldn't feel crappy.

I should keep you around so you can eat half of my chocolate to prevent this from happening the future. I'll pay?

 

[lonely_drummer]

I should keep you around so you can eat half of my chocolate to prevent this from happening the future. I'll pay?

Omg an actual paying job!! This could be quite the change, when do I start?hahahaha

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks... I know. I do appreciate it... I think I am going to have to go to the doctor to get some anti anxiety medication or something... I cant handle it on my own.

Do what you need to do, mate. You might even be able to relax a little more and talk to some people.

Yeah!!! I just loaded the tracks onto my computer I did today, they sound clean and crisp, saweeet!!!

Awesome! I hope we get to hear some soon!

 

[nosferatu]

downtrodden

 

[MsBuzzkillington]

I should keep you around so you can eat half of my chocolate to prevent this from happening the future. I'll pay?

Can I get on this action? We could invite Mikey too and split the brownies four ways.

 

[Shyangel]

Can I get on this action? We could invite Mikey too and split the brownies four ways.

Sure, girl. We'll have a crazy brownie eating party! We'll even have brownie eating games like: Who can bounce the brownie off the wall into there mouth. or: Pin the brownie on the face; that ones always fun. It's recommended you drink a little to prepare for the 2nd one.

 

[MsBuzzkillington]

Haha, that sounds like tons of fun. A brownie party sounds like the perfect thing to do right now.

 

[MikeyC]

Yeah, I'm coming to this party.

 

[lonely_drummer]

Yes! This sounds awesome!!!

 

[Shyangel]

Awesome! This is gonna be the best party ever! All we need is to add giant block of chocolate eating contest.(I think Mikey would kick our butt on that one) and chocolate cake, we got a ourselves the perfect party! I think we should have a doctor on site in case anyone has a heart attack. Just to be safe. Can anyone think of other chocolaty goodnes that could improve the healthful get together?

 

[lonely_drummer]

Mmmmm, now I'm thinking of the last ones I made, I put reeses peanut butter cups in the middle of each one with m&ms on the top, soooo good!!!!