How are you feeling?

[Shyangel]

I feel like I'm fat and stupid. I can't understand the math to my work and can't get down in my weight. Terrible day for me but I'm managing. Plus I've got the flu. bleh .

I don't think your either of those things. You'll figure it out, you've made it however long already. Losing weight is tough, don't be so hard on yourself and keep working at it. Sickness, sucks, I hope you feel better soon.

 

[Graeme1988]

Not great. :: I'm uncomfortable about opening up about how I'm feeling to my sister. Even though, she'd like me to be able to. It's mainly because I don't want to admit how I'm really feeling, and what I go through. The social anxiety and depression are only two things I'm dealing with. I don't know how my sister will react if I tell her about my self-loathing. And I'm not to sure I can talk about that issue without breaking down in tears, or whether she'll understand. ::

 

[SilentBird]

Aw, why?

After all of this time and effort I am here in this position, in a small flat which feels like a cage. I feel little purpose or enjoyment in my life, next to no willingness to face people and I am the one largely responsible for it becoming this way.

With another laboured breath and forced step I carry on.

 

[Unfunny64]

feel pathetic that I ain't funny and can't live to everyones expectations.

 

[Iluv]

I don't think your either of those things. You'll figure it out, you've made it however long already. Losing weight is tough, don't be so hard on yourself and keep working at it. Sickness, sucks, I hope you feel better soon.

Aw thank you. ! Getting better by the minute with everyones nice support.

 

[Shyangel]

feel pathetic that I ain't funny and can't live to everyones expectations.

I'm sure your a great and fun person, don't be so down. Look at the positives in yourself. You have many fun interests that are easily relatable to other's, which can work for you to make friends. Don't let other's have that much control over you. You decide about how good a person you are, no one else.

 

[MikeyC]

After all of this time and effort I am here in this position, in a small flat which feels like a cage. I feel little purpose or enjoyment in my life, next to no willingness to face people and I am the one largely responsible for it becoming this way.

With another laboured breath and forced step I carry on.

You have a flat, which is actually quite a good achievement. I can understand your pain, though, and I hope it washes away soon. No enjoyment of life makes us really upset.

Don't let other's have that much control over you.

Oh, if only it were that easy, but this is excellent advice!

 

[Shyangel]

Yeah, I hear ya there, buddy.

The statement holds very true, though. I don't let other's opinions get to me. If someone were to come up to me and call me a name I would just laugh at them. Who are they to think I give a damn about there impression of me, it's absurd.
I did have alot of trouble with this in the past, though. Words do always hurt no matter what. Your to cool of a guy, Mikey, let dumb people's perspective bother you. The kinda people that go around calling names or whatever are sad people and miles below you.

 

[SilentBird]

You have a flat, which is actually quite a good achievement.

Thanks Mikey. Yes this flat is my little space where I do have control or a space where I can lose control or be indulgent sometimes.

Your avatar is neat. Homer, one of the great philosophers of our time

 

[anomicdeer]

I just want to be better. I hate myself so much right now.

 

[MikeyC]

Yeah, I hear ya there, buddy.

The statement holds very true, though. I don't let other's opinions get to me. If someone were to come up to me and call me a name I would just laugh at them. Who are they to think I give a damn about there impression of me, it's absurd.
I did have alot of trouble with this in the past, though. Words do always hurt no matter what. Your to cool of a guy, Mikey, let dumb people's perspective bother you. The kinda people that go around calling names or whatever are sad people and miles below you.

Words do hurt, especially when they've been thrown at you for years. I'm trying not to let it bother me as much but sometimes it happens that way. I'm glad you just let it slide off you...I wish I was as thick-skinned as you.

Thank you, you're too kind.

 

[sparsilestar]

I just want to be better. I hate myself so much right now.

I'm in the same boat.
I wish I had something positive to say...

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks Mikey. Yes this flat is my little space where I do have control or a space where I can lose control or be indulgent sometimes.

Your avatar is neat. Homer, one of the great philosophers of our time

Exactly. I don't have that freedom and I really, really want it. Money does not allow that right now, though.

Homer did invent Skittlebrau, remember?

 

[SilentBird]

Regarding self-hatred, something that still affects me - I don't think anyone is born to hate themselves, it's something that is learned.

 

[MikeyC]

Regarding self-hatred, something that still affects me - I don't think anyone is born to hate themselves, it's something that is learned.

Different life factors and your own mind can make that happen, as unfortunate as that is.

 

[polishgirl]

Regarding self-hatred, something that still affects me - I don't think anyone is born to hate themselves, it's something that is learned.

I do understand where you are coming from. I've been fighting with hatred towards myself for a while now. And I fear it is a lost battle... However, that is only me. Many people overcome their low self-esteem and I believe you can do so too! Has this feeling been triggered by some specific event?

 

[KiaKaha]

So... its been my first few days of classes. I already dont fit in. I am so... awkward around people... and its so obvious. Its so exhausting living this way, and I have been for so long. It makes me feel terribly unhappy that I dont seem to be able to function normally and to feel uncomfortble nearly every where I go....when I feel sad I look sad...and people can tell, and that makes me feel embarrased. I am sorry I dont mean to gripe... I just need to express myself.

The more I look at the symptoms of AVPD - the more I think I have it.

:'-(

 

[anomicdeer]

Trying not to hurt myself right now.

 

[MikeyC]

So... its been my first few days of classes. I already dont fit in. I am so... awkward around people... and its so obvious. Its so exhausting living this way, and I have been for so long. It makes me feel terribly unhappy that I dont seem to be able to function normally and to feel uncomfortble nearly every where I go....when I feel sad I look sad...and people can tell, and that makes me feel embarrased. I am sorry I dont mean to gripe... I just need to express myself.

The more I look at the symptoms of AVPD - the more I think I have it.

:'-(

Don't give up on classes, mate. Concentrate on your work and not on the people around you and you should be more content.

Trying not to hurt myself right now.

Please do not hurt yourself. ::

 

[KiaKaha]

Don't give up on classes, mate. Concentrate on your work and not on the people around you and you should be more content.

Thanks for the encouragement - but its easier said than done - the way it makes me feel is really unpleasant. I will deal with it... as I have done my entire life - I wish I knew how to get the help that I need.