Recent content by ripewithdecay

I got curious and looked up the 'fear of eternity' and this is the word that came up: Apeirophobia. Since I was very young i've had this particular anxiety whenever I thought about time and the fact that it will never end. The thing that bothers me is that this fear is very intense. I just...

I am going to take a course in male self-improvement and attracting women. In other words, i'm going to join a 'dating coach'. It has taken me a long time to come to this decision, and it makes me super nervous just thinking about it and typing it but I think that every guy that thinks he has...

I can't remember the last time I really felt pleasure from just having a conversation with someone. Because, in my brain, social interaction = painful experience. But wouldn't that be really wild if it actually felt good to talk to people? When was the last time you associated pleasure with...

I have a really hard time talking out loud, even if it's just to myself in my own home. I live in an apartment building and I get too paranoid that my neighbors will hear me when im talking at full regular volume. So when I do try it feels very strained, much lower in volume, and it starts to...

This is something i've thought about, and even discussed a bit with some online friends in the past. Do you think pop culture as we know it today has added to how you view yourself negatively? I think it affects everyone, not just people with SP, but I think that maybe we're more sensitive to it.

Do you think in order to be happy and really feel like you have a good social life that you need to have a lot of friends and be spending a lot of time doing social activities? Or do you think you would just need a little bit to feel good about yourself and not feel lonely? Like maybe just a few...

Who else get's really bad anticipatory anxiety when you know a social event is coming up? Whether it be a few days away or maybe a few hours away, do you start feeling sick? Like right now i know that in 20 minutes im going to get a call from a somewhat distant relative who is in town for the...

I can't help but admit it - that i look pretty darn scary. Like my natural face is just creepy looking. It's not so much that i'm ugly ? i just look unfriendly. that is how God made me. it really sucks because i would need to have a very outgoing bubbly personality to make up for it, but since...

Im at the point in my life where I pretty much have to choose to go to school now and start a career or just keep doing the same low paying dead end jobs i've been doing for the past 5 years. I'd like to know what everyone else's experience with college has been. To be frank i'm quite terrified...

My boss called me today and told me that I have to train 2 new people at work tommorow on my own. I've never had to train anyone let alone 2 :X Im so nervous right now because one of the new ppl is a girl and probably really attractive (knowing my 'terrible' luck) and the other can hardly speak...

Does it feel like no one gives a crap what you have to say, or what you do with your life? Even though you feel that your hobbies and interests have value, does it feel like it's all completely irrelevant and people just dislike you? I feel like this all the time. So sometimes I try to open up...

Sorry, this might be too long but here is my situation. Recently, for the past month or so, i've been allowing a family member (brother) to stay at my place, because he doesn't yet have a place of his own. He only comes for the weekends and he's here all the time. I'm getting tired of it though...

I've realized that during the past few months I've actually gained a lot of confidence in social interactions. I can hold a fairly decent conversation, I can make eye contact, I'm in a lot more control now with my body language and tone of voice, and I'm even a lot more comfortable with the...

Does anyone else get treated like a little kid by their family or someone older who gets to know you after a while? My family, especially my parents, treat me like i'm 6 years old. They talk to me like a baby, they don't take anything I say seriously, and they can't have a conversation with me...

It's Friday night, i was walking home from work and noticed all the groups of people, and beautiful girls all decked out, everyone laughing and excited the weekend is finally here. People are gonna be having a blast tonight, getting loaded, with all their friends, or just doing something else...