ripewithdecay
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I got curious and looked up the 'fear of eternity' and this is the word that came up: Apeirophobia. Since I was very young i've had this particular anxiety whenever I thought about time and the fact that it will never end.
The thing that bothers me is that this fear is very intense. I just can't come to terms with 'forever'. It is to the point where I fear it more than death itself. I mean...... there is no ending to time. Never. No matter how much you want it - it doesn't exist.
Some people hope that there is an afterlife. I'll admit, that I too would like to live again somehow... but.. not forever. True death is the only escape from eternity. I want to be so dead that i don't even know i was ever alive.
Has anybody else ever really thought about this or felt this fear?
And yes, I am a nutcase. I know this.
The thing that bothers me is that this fear is very intense. I just can't come to terms with 'forever'. It is to the point where I fear it more than death itself. I mean...... there is no ending to time. Never. No matter how much you want it - it doesn't exist.
Some people hope that there is an afterlife. I'll admit, that I too would like to live again somehow... but.. not forever. True death is the only escape from eternity. I want to be so dead that i don't even know i was ever alive.
Has anybody else ever really thought about this or felt this fear?
And yes, I am a nutcase. I know this.