Middle school was absolutely awful for me as far as "friends" go.
In 6th grade I became really good friends with this one girl, we'll call her L.
(I actually saw her today, but that's a different story for another time) We got along great, we had a somewhat similar sense of humor and we started becoming friends with the same people so we had our own little group. Well, I thought she was a great friend up until a year later. That's when she started becoming friends with another girl, we'll call her "tag-along." Why? Because she was one of those people who never really had any true friends, but instead bounced from person to person, clique to clique only because she would constantly run her mouth about people and lie to them and basically cause trouble for everyone else. Loved to start drama, she did. Anyway, once L became friends with "tag-along" all she would do is talk about me behind my back with the other girl, lie to my face, and make fun of me (with the other girl joining in). There was a time where we had a huge argument and stopped being friends, but then in 9th grade reformed the friendship. I was stupid, so so so so stupid to think that she changed. She didn't, if anything she was worse. She
still made fun of me, she
still lied to my face even more, and she was
still friends with "tag-along." So basically for six years I put up with this oh so stupidly. I finally cut off all contact with her last year. When I did it, I honestly felt this small weight lift off my shoulders, it was so relieving and I have been a little happier without her. She is probably one of the main reasons why I even have SA to begin with.
In the beginning of 7th grade I was also friends with a couple of these girls who would constantly make fun of me, about how quiet I was and how I acted so awkward sometimes. They both did drugs and partied a lot, at the age of 12/13 mind you. They would even make fun of me for not participating in what they did. Why would I? I eventually ditched them that same year. Even then, the one girl would continue to tease me up until senior year, and she only did it because she was jealous of me, really. How do I know? Just by the way she acted. She was always trying to prove something, always trying to compete with me, and I really don't even know why. Here's an extremely stupid example: A couple years ago, we were both going to the same tech school for Culinary Arts (we were in the same class). Well, it was about the second day in the kitchen, and we were putting pies in the oven. Well the guy she liked at the time was right behind me and says, "Woah, your hands are soooo small!" I kind of just smiled and walked away, a lot of people were commenting about my hands that day and it made me feel really self-conscious. He followed me, then he smiled and put his hand up and said, "Let me see." So I put my hand up to his, just because. (And I would've felt rude if I rejected him because I'm sensitive like that. Obviously my hand was about half of his.) Well apparently she was nearby, because she instantly butted in between us and says, "I bet
mine are smaller." So she grabs my hand and compares them to hers. Mine were smaller by an inch. She gave me this dirty look and basically walked away.
Like I said, extremely stupid, it actually makes me laugh thinking about it.
What exactly is there to be jealous of? I have no idea, it's still a mystery to me.
