I will be graduating from college this fall, but won't be attending the commencement ceremony. Does anybody give a d*mn about it?
I get angry people telling me I'm stupid because I won't be attending. They think I was too frightened to attend just because of some verbal bullies in class. They don't understand me at all! Sometimes I want to tell them “hey you know the definition of introvert, shy, and social phobia? It means the person doesn't enjoy being around people. It's pretty self explanatory why I will be skipping highly populated events like graduation ceremonies.” So I have to wonder, do those people truly care about me or do they care more about themselves?
In fact, this ISN'T the first time I'll be skipping a ceremony. Since high school, I've skipped awards ceremonies. I just took the award certificates and ran. I also skipped my high school graduation ceremony. I never bought the graduation regalia. I still remember clearly what I did that day. No, I did not cry my eyes out, become depressed like sh*t, etc. I went to the library, checked out some books, and watched a movie at home. This is my definition of “fun”. I was happy doing the things I did. And I don't regret it because I know the graduation ceremony would have sucked.
In high school, the only cereomony I attended was the honor society induction ceremony. Waiting in line was no fun. It was boring, and I grew restless. The girls in front of me were looking and talking about me. It was weird. And everybody was very well dressed, except for me. I had on a tshirt and some pants, while they wore more formal clothes. When they called my name, I went onstage to get my certificate but could see a presenter chuckling at me, for a split second, before he quickly stopped. When I got off stage, I got many weird stares from certain schoolmates and parents. Some of them laughed, or talked about me. I think it was because of my informal dress, which made me stood out. And I was really nervous the whole time. I told myself I won't force myself to go through this nightmare again.
This time, I won't be attending my college commencement ceremony for various reasons. As I mentioned before, I don't like being around large groups of people. The entire ceremony would be 5-6 hours, and that's not counting traffic. I don't have the patience to wait this long. I could watch 2-3 movies in this amount of time, so it's not worth it. I also don't want to bring my parents with me; I do admit I have a fear of people meeting my parents. My dad has banged up teeth, smelly breath, and has sudden sleepwalking episodes (which could come anytime, even when he's awake). Having to sit and wait for 5-6 hours will definitely put my dad to sleep. I don't want to reveal my mom's lunacy to the world either. The verbal bullies in class, well, they only play a tiny part in my decision not to attend. I've been planning NOT to attend the commencement ceremony a while back, even BEFORE I met those bullies. People tell me, “they get the last laugh, they're mooning you...blah blah”, but I don't even feel this way at all.
I get angry people telling me I'm stupid because I won't be attending. They think I was too frightened to attend just because of some verbal bullies in class. They don't understand me at all! Sometimes I want to tell them “hey you know the definition of introvert, shy, and social phobia? It means the person doesn't enjoy being around people. It's pretty self explanatory why I will be skipping highly populated events like graduation ceremonies.” So I have to wonder, do those people truly care about me or do they care more about themselves?
In fact, this ISN'T the first time I'll be skipping a ceremony. Since high school, I've skipped awards ceremonies. I just took the award certificates and ran. I also skipped my high school graduation ceremony. I never bought the graduation regalia. I still remember clearly what I did that day. No, I did not cry my eyes out, become depressed like sh*t, etc. I went to the library, checked out some books, and watched a movie at home. This is my definition of “fun”. I was happy doing the things I did. And I don't regret it because I know the graduation ceremony would have sucked.
In high school, the only cereomony I attended was the honor society induction ceremony. Waiting in line was no fun. It was boring, and I grew restless. The girls in front of me were looking and talking about me. It was weird. And everybody was very well dressed, except for me. I had on a tshirt and some pants, while they wore more formal clothes. When they called my name, I went onstage to get my certificate but could see a presenter chuckling at me, for a split second, before he quickly stopped. When I got off stage, I got many weird stares from certain schoolmates and parents. Some of them laughed, or talked about me. I think it was because of my informal dress, which made me stood out. And I was really nervous the whole time. I told myself I won't force myself to go through this nightmare again.
This time, I won't be attending my college commencement ceremony for various reasons. As I mentioned before, I don't like being around large groups of people. The entire ceremony would be 5-6 hours, and that's not counting traffic. I don't have the patience to wait this long. I could watch 2-3 movies in this amount of time, so it's not worth it. I also don't want to bring my parents with me; I do admit I have a fear of people meeting my parents. My dad has banged up teeth, smelly breath, and has sudden sleepwalking episodes (which could come anytime, even when he's awake). Having to sit and wait for 5-6 hours will definitely put my dad to sleep. I don't want to reveal my mom's lunacy to the world either. The verbal bullies in class, well, they only play a tiny part in my decision not to attend. I've been planning NOT to attend the commencement ceremony a while back, even BEFORE I met those bullies. People tell me, “they get the last laugh, they're mooning you...blah blah”, but I don't even feel this way at all.