I still can't believe this kind of thing exists for you, but okay. Why would they do that? Anyway, hopefully it's only paranoia.
Man... it HAS to be the way I am coming across to people somehow...perhaps...or it could be a number of things, some of it me, some of it them - I dont know. I just wish
somebody could see real life examples of some of the things I have talked about - its very frustrating because no one seems to believe me.... I realize how completely ridiculous it sounds.
Paranoia is a big problem for me, because I cant shake it, I dont know how to shake the feeling I get... but whats worse is that I dont know if it is paranoia or if its real. No one can tell me - I just have to guess.
I get deeply annoyed when people see me for the first time and they roll their eyes, or they shoulder me as I walk past them - or are are just downright rude to me for no reason. I am a nice person, I think.... its like...what the hell? I get so confused.
But - its all good - I will just deal with it and vent if need be.