Hey Modern, sorry for the late reply. I mean that I feel overwhelmed . What you said sometimes happens to me with close friends, like if our last time together is not as good as the previous one is because "our friendship is deteriorating". Tho I don't let those thoughts affect me much.What do you mean by surpasses your capabilities? Otherwise, I often feel what you've described. And when I do get enough attention, I'm always afraid of losing the same level of attention in future meetings.
I'm well aware that most of the time, when our relationship with someone isn't (or think it ain't) "as good as it was" it doesn't necessarily mean that is because of us. Is always good to talk things out tho.