Anybody else ever wish the world would stop for a second so you can catch your breath?
I should look into one of those, then again I dont know if it will make a difference when a big part of the issue is the sharing a single bed with 3 big boofhead dogs who are all trying to claim as much space as possibleThe mattress pad I bought has worked wonders for my back. Now I don't wake up feeling like I jumped out of a moving car.
Thing is, I have a big, queen-sized, bed and I still get mushed into the corner by one 35-pound dog. I don't know how you do it.I should look into one of those, then again I dont know if it will make a difference when a big part of the issue is the sharing a single bed with 3 big boofhead dogs who are all trying to claim as much space as possible
I've applied for a job - considering I've had no interviews for the handful of jobs I've applied since the start of 2020 - and it's unlikely I will succeed but I find myself drifting off and imagining myself in the jobs I apply for. Getting carried away and I end up kicking myself for doing that when I get the inevitable rejection email.
On the other hand I think what if I did get it? Then I'd be starting all over again and potentially awaiting the dreaded scenario of people in the new workplace realising: "Yeah, this guy is lovely but he's not really assertive or as confident as we thought he would be. And maybe we should have gone for the other person."
Anyways, it's more money but the fear of being caught out is one that has somehow got me through six years in my current job however I feel well protected. If I did something wrong I don't feel I'd get hauled into a disciplinary but other places I'd probably lose confidence of people around me.
Way to go!So, I had my interview yesterday and I thought it went "okay" conveniently ignoring the positive comments the panel gave to me ("great presentation" and other good words). I was told not to expect a call before the end of the week so carried on working away and to my surprise, I got the call at the end of the day and told I was successful! I had made my mind up to take it as I was sick of being underpaid and tired of political BS in the team but nervous, yes?
Back to a new school moment but I'm going to try and make it work. I've got 7 years of experience and the other areas I struggle with or get anxious about I'm going to try and act it out as I simply cannot fail in this job with the potential impact it could have on my personal life.
I've been posting in this thread recently with my frame of mind in a negative spiral (anxiety afflicting from various scenarios) so wanted to share this post which was a positive one. x
What do you mean by surpasses your capabilities? Otherwise, I often feel what you've described. And when I do get enough attention, I'm always afraid of losing the same level of attention in future meetings.
So tired of this emotional coil. I don't even know how to deal with it, or if i can at all. If i dont get "enough" attention, i feel unloved, insufficient even but if i get it, then it surpases my capabilities, drains me and i tend to isolate myself from others.
It's the f***ing neverending story.