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I wish I would stop damaging my body.

My life has not been a "fairytale", oh no, quite on the contrary, it has been a "nightmare" :sad: :crying:
It has taken everything i have just to "hang in there" for all these years. Bugger it.

I've been chasing my dreams for so long now you know what? I figure my dreams might've just served me a restraining order some time ago.

Hot_Tamale said: ↑

I've been chasing my dreams for so long now you know what? I figure my dreams might've just served me a restraining order some time ago.

What are your dreams?

Sarah_M said: ↑

What are your dreams?

I only have 4 dreams. The first one is to get a better paying job so I can move out and have my own apartment. The other two are a first kiss and a first date because I've never had either yet.

Thank you for asking, I really hope you get the physicians assistant job you want. 🙂

Hot_Tamale said: ↑

I only have 4 dreams. The first one is to get a better paying job so I can move out and have my own apartment. The other two are a first kiss and a first date because I've never had either yet.

Thank you for asking, I really hope you get the physicians assistant job you want. 🙂

I really think you can do it. I practice this thing called Law of Attraction and it's basically where like attracts like - the energy you release into the world attracts the experiences you have. It can be tricky at times, but it really has worked for me. I wanted a job I didn't hate that allowed me to work part-time so I could attend college - the right person saw something in me and got me my current job. I work 3 12 hour shifts a week and sometimes get 7 days off in a row and I don't hate it, either. I just changed my vibe and KNEW something good would happen. Sometimes the best thing to do is just chill out, take a step back and know things will work out just fine.

In terms of finding a girl; looks aren't as important as you may think. I have never see you before, but I feel like most of us (including myself) have a low opinion of their physical appearance. The guy I recently went out with physically was not my type - he had SOME characteristics of what I like, but it wasn't a strong physical attraction. BUT, the mental connection was ****ing amazing - we could talk for a millenia like no one else existed. I fell for him even though I didn't want to and I ended up not giving a **** about his appearance because it didn't matter. That relationship taught me that. Just be you and the right girl will find you 🙂

You're welcome! Although I mostly come on here to vent/selfishly talk about my own problems, I actually give a shit about other people. Thank you very much - I still need a lot of schooling first. I hope all of your dreams come true - I will be on the look out for shooting stars to wish upon for you 😉

Sarah_M said: ↑

You're welcome! Although I mostly come on here to vent/selfishly talk about my own problems, I actually give a shit about other people. Thank you very much - I still need a lot of schooling first. I hope all of your dreams come true - I will be on the look out for shooting stars to wish upon for you 😉

Using your only wish on a person you've never met before, aren't you selfless! I don't think it's selfish to talk about our problems on this forum because if they're kept bottled up for too long then the emotions will just be unleashed on somebody that doesn't deserve it. This is off topic too but I don't know why the word "shit" is uncensored but every other swear word is bleeped out on the forum, lol. 😂😂

Commenting on your "just be yourself" quote, I used to see my university counselor in counseling sessions during the school year. I told her I thought I was slowly turning into the character Gregory House from the old TV show House M.D. My counselor told me that they agreed. If anyone knows what Hugh Laurie was like on that TV show then that is not a particularly good thing, lol 😂😂. On the plus side I have always been a fantastic listener and have had a talent for years for making other people smile or maybe laugh sometimes so the medical/fitness field suits me well.

And 12 hour shifts...amazing. I know people that work shifts like that. Much respect for that work ethic.

My plan is to reduce my Pepsi Max intake down to 375ml. I have reduced some days and I like how I am more relaxed. I sense that the people I work with don't believe my behaviour is anxiety, which is frightening.

Hot_Tamale said: ↑

Using your only wish on a person you've never met before, aren't you selfless! I don't think it's selfish to talk about our problems on this forum because if they're kept bottled up for too long then the emotions will just be unleashed on somebody that doesn't deserve it. This is off topic too but I don't know why the word "shit" is uncensored but every other swear word is bleeped out on the forum, lol. 😂😂

Commenting on your "just be yourself" quote, I used to see my university counselor in counseling sessions during the school year. I told her I thought I was slowly turning into the character Gregory House from the old TV show House M.D. My counselor told me that they agreed. If anyone knows what Hugh Laurie was like on that TV show then that is not a particularly good thing, lol 😂😂. On the plus side I have always been a fantastic listener and have had a talent for years for making other people smile or maybe laugh sometimes so the medical/fitness field suits me well.

And 12 hour shifts...amazing. I know people that work shifts like that. Much respect for that work ethic.

That's true - it's good to get it all out in here. Haha I really have no idea why they bleep everything else out.

LOL I actually really like House! That character alway made me laugh. What specifically in the medical/fitness field are doing? Did you already graduate? Being funny/a good listener are two very good traits - don't lose that 🙂

Sarah_M said: ↑

That's true - it's good to get it all out in here. Haha I really have no idea why they bleep everything else out.

LOL I actually really like House! That character alway made me laugh. What specifically in the medical/fitness field are doing? Did you already graduate? Being funny/a good listener are two very good traits - don't lose that 🙂

Did I graduate? Yes, a Master's degree in kinesiology only 4 months ago. In a nutshell it's studying how the body's muscles, bones, and body chemistry all work together to operate our bodies and what happens when those systems break down. I work in a not so well known fatty-food restaurant so technically speaking I'm doing more to put people in hospitals more so than I'm doing to make people healthier. Oh gawd...the irony is so #$%&ing thick you could cut it with a knife :ironicsmile: When it comes right down to it my life is basically one big race: Will I find a better paying job and finally move out or will homelessness catch me before that happens? Just thinking about it sends my anxiety skyrocketing :idontknow: I could be in big trouble in several short weeks, months, or years? It's like reading a book on your own life and having the last several chapters ripped out. What is faith in God if it isn't put to the test I suppose...

Anyway...the biology and chemistry classes you'll end up taking are ohhh so much fun to be a part of too, I hope you stocked up on aspirin. Hit the anatomy and physiology-themed classes hard because those classes will pack a punch to your GPA if you aren't careful! GOOD LUCK!

Hot_Tamale said: ↑

Did I graduate? Yes, a Master's degree in kinesiology only 4 months ago. In a nutshell it's studying how the body's muscles, bones, and body chemistry all work together to operate our bodies and what happens when those systems break down. I work in a not so well known fatty-food restaurant so technically speaking I'm doing more to put people in hospitals more so than I'm doing to make people healthier. Oh gawd...the irony is so #$%&ing thick you could cut it with a knife :ironicsmile: When it comes right down to it my life is basically one big race: Will I find a better paying job and finally move out or will homelessness catch me before that happens? Just thinking about it sends my anxiety skyrocketing :idontknow: I could be in big trouble in several short weeks, months, or years? It's like reading a book on your own life and having the last several chapters ripped out. What is faith in God if it isn't put to the test I suppose...

Anyway...the biology and chemistry classes you'll end up taking are ohhh so much fun to be a part of too, I hope you stocked up on aspirin. Hit the anatomy and physiology-themed classes hard because those classes will pack a punch to your GPA if you aren't careful! GOOD LUCK!

As someone who is REALLY good at getting jobs (if I get an interview, I basically have the job), I feel compelled to help you. It would be stupid of me to assume you haven't been looking for a job in your field of study, so I won't send you a link from Indeed lol. I have found that, a lot of times, getting a job has A LOT to do with your social presence rather than what's on your actual resumé. Remember: you have to make yourself into the person they want to hire. That means being charming AF and being on your A game - you have to say what they wanna hear. Beefing up your resumé is good too, though. Make any previous job/education sound way more impressive than it actually is. If you need any help, I am happy to assist - I really enjoy helping people and want to see you do well!


Thank you for the tips! I know it will be difficult, but I have the drive to see this through. I'm really going to push myself to succeed 🙂

Sarah_M said: ↑

I have found that, a lot of times, getting a job has A LOT to do with your social presence rather than what's on your actual resumé.

Yea, House knew Dr. Cuddy from med school in the show so that's probably how he got the position at the hospital. Their relationship made up for the fact that he was an a-hole. I need to find the "Cuddy" in my own life.

Hot_Tamale said: ↑

Yea, House knew Dr. Cuddy from med school in the show so that's probably how he got the position at the hospital. Their relationship made up for the fact that he was an a-hole. I need to find the "Cuddy" in my own life.

Well, good luck to you 🙂

Sarah_M said: ↑

I just changed my vibe and KNEW something good would happen. Sometimes the best thing to do is just chill out, take a step back and know things will work out just fine

That's the law of attraction isn't it? (your vibe = basically the energy of the thoughts you think)

Sarah_M said: ↑

Just be you and the right girl will find you

I'll have to disagree on that one though. I've been waiting for 45 years, and the right girl STILL hasn't found me. Either i'm not being the real me, i'm doing it all wrong, there is no "right" girl for me, or my destiny is to remain single for my entire life. :question: :question: :question:

theslowesthand said: ↑

That's the law of attraction isn't it? (your vibe = basically the energy of the thoughts you think)


I'll have to disagree on that one though. I've been waiting for 45 years, and the right girl STILL hasn't found me. Either i'm not being the real me, i'm doing it all wrong, there is no "right" girl for me, or my destiny is to remain single for my entire life. :question: :question: :question:

Yes, it's Law of Attraction - something that has worked for me in the past. It's such a simple concept, but can be difficult to apply in your life.

Well, there are a few things I can think of that would keep you from that. One of which being a lack of social opportunity - having SA makes you a hermit, so meeting people can be difficult. Maybe you aren't being your authentic self? I mean, for me, I almost never act like my true self at work or in most social interactions. Also, when you're anxious, your prefrontal cortex is going bat shit, thus disabling your ability to think clearly. Someone asks how you're doing and all-of-a-sudden your arm pits are like a dam burst and you respond by saying: " I can count to potato" - anxiety is a son of a bitch
. I guess I didn't say that right - there is action required on your part to find a girl, but being authentic is very attractive, in my opinion *shrug*

Sarah_M said: ↑

Well, there are a few things I can think of that would keep you from that. One of which being a lack of social opportunity - having SA makes you a hermit, so meeting people can be difficult

Nowadays i almost never go out, and then it's only to see my therapist or do the shopping. When i used to work, i had the odd few opportunities with women, but a part of me wouldn't allow anything to happen - so nothing ever did. So for me, there is nowhere to meet women, and i refuse to use dating sites/apps (i don't know why but my "personal ruler" forbids it). I have Asperger's also, which doesn't help, as it means i don't pick up social cues, flirtation, etc, very well. In hindsight, i wish i'd never had opportunities, as now i am dwelling on those missed opportunities; who knows where ANY ONE of those opportunities/possibilities may have led - but no, NOT EVEN ONE happened.

Can being HUNGRY manifest as wanting to comfort eat? :question:

Anyone else feel really self-conscious when someone points out that yer "really or awfully quiet"?
Or is it just me who feel like doing this :omg: every-feckin'-time it happens to me? :question:

^ That's quite common or normal isn't it