theslowesthand
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Post your random thoughts/feelings etc
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I've been hoping you could get away from that situation for years now. No chance of advancement in your career?
In the case of this guy, I can't help but wonder if he felt pressured to be your savior. It's the sort of thing that might make me uncomfortable were I in his position and I knew my lover was in yours. I'd also be wondering if she even really loved me for me. I apologize if this is a horrible thing to say.
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BlueDays
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Well done with the 15 years, Graybeard! :thumbup:
I just wrote a long response to your post, but a 'only displaying secure content' message screwed the page up and I lost it! :
:Can not remember most of it - my short-term memory is kaput - but it went along the lines of totally relating to your contemplation of your past, 'what if I' etc... :sad:
I hate how one particular decision, left turn or right turn, can affect the rest of your life and there is nothing you can do to change it.
BlueDays
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That is a difficult situation to deal with, Puma. :sad:
((((Hugs))))
BlueDays
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Has that annoying train engine left the tunnel yet? :sad:
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
It's better.
The trick is having something to do that keeps you on track.
Thanks, Blue.
I was feeling really defeated and sad because I am scheduled to retake my math test on Monday and every practice test I take for it, I get the lowest score possible. It seems like I just don't understand math.
I just watched a Neil deGrasse Tyson video about math where he says most people are bad at it. I also watched a Ted Talks video that stated a fixed mind-set of not being able to do something hampers your potential and ability to do it. Alternatively, someone who believes they can do anything are more likely to reach their full potential. That made me feel better because maybe if I actually believe in myself, I can accomplish the things I set out to. It seems stupid, but eventually being in calculus would make me feel really good about myself considering my present rudimentary math skills.
On a side note, I realized something: every time I'm sad, lonely, depressed etc. I look at videos online of people talking about these subjects as well as coming on here to vent or read stories. How can I say I hate people when they help me get through the hard times and make me happy? I love people - sometimes they can be mean or bad, but for the most part they improve my quality of life.
I just watched a Neil deGrasse Tyson video about math where he says most people are bad at it. I also watched a Ted Talks video that stated a fixed mind-set of not being able to do something hampers your potential and ability to do it. Alternatively, someone who believes they can do anything are more likely to reach their full potential. That made me feel better because maybe if I actually believe in myself, I can accomplish the things I set out to. It seems stupid, but eventually being in calculus would make me feel really good about myself considering my present rudimentary math skills.
On a side note, I realized something: every time I'm sad, lonely, depressed etc. I look at videos online of people talking about these subjects as well as coming on here to vent or read stories. How can I say I hate people when they help me get through the hard times and make me happy? I love people - sometimes they can be mean or bad, but for the most part they improve my quality of life.
meow meow meow
The hotel I am staying in tonight only has one TV channel. So thankful for wifi right now! Even though I have no idea what to do on the internet right meow either.
The hotel I am staying in tonight only has one TV channel. So thankful for wifi right now! Even though I have no idea what to do on the internet right meow either.
We're still friends, and it'll be okay eventually.. Its just a little confusing right now. It's already a lot better than a day or two ago.
No career at all, I'm afraid.. I crashed and burned out a good while ago, and haven't been able to life a finger on anything productive for over a year, and it's not looking good. But I really don't like bringing bad news to this forum, God knows there's enough of that.
Don't feel bad, it's not horrible. That's exactly what the situation is like. I mean, he knows it's genuine (we're still very much close friends,) but he's just not able to make that big a sacrifice. If he did it it'd be only for me, and I agree with him it'd be wrong to do it just for that reason. He loves me, but just not that way right now.. just not where's he's at. It's a lot better now, just needed a few days to get used to the idea.
It'll be okay.. It's already much better. Thank you, Blue.
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Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
The thought of taking my own life doesn't seem so bad. Surely it can't be anymore painfully than the emotional abuse I endured this week. :crying: :sad:
Please don't, Graeme. People here care about you. Don't let people who aren't deserving decide your fate.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Well, at someone cares. Nae offence, folks, ah know ye care. Just wish my mother and sisters did the same. But, nope! Because, thanks to that narcissist "Yer good girls! Yes, you are... yes, you are. Men - who needs em, huh?" fourth reich feminist shite-talk my mother been spouting for the past 15 years, apparently that give them a free pass to berate and make me feel like crap whenever I do summit for myself. Don't feel sorry for me, that's normal to me.
I mean, my mother - who's currently over in Ireland visiting my older sister and her family - phoned up my oldest sister in tears a few days ago, or so I'm told; because I was refusing to return my mum's phone calls. Which had oldest one rushing over to the house I currently share with my mother, storming up to my bedroom and yelling at me. Nevermind if I just wanted a quiet day to just relax. How I kept calm - f**k knows! :kickingmyself: :veryangry:
Pacific_Loner
Pirate from the North Pole
There seem to be WAY too much emotions and drama all over the place where you live. You should move out, but if you can't, in the meantime isn't there any place for you to go spend a couple of hours daily, outside the house, where you can calm down your own emotions and remember who you are so that other people outbursts don't affect you as much when you get back home?
Heh. Yeah, I know what you mean, man. I'm eroding away among related toxic of people too.
But hey, listen.. you're a good person. I hope you objectively know that, and repeat it to yourself out loud once in a while to tune their negativity out. Keep strong and try not to let them get to you too much.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Other than the pubs? No. I mean there is one on the corner of the street where I live. But, drinking after the amount frustratingly immature or manipulative pish I have to put up with and acquiesce to from ma mum and older sisters, not exactly a combo that says I'm calm.
But that said, moving out has been summit I vaguely discussed with my oldest sister 2 years ago. Our mother's having none of it, though. :thumbdown:
Won't go into why, ah think that wee story in my previous post tell ye all ye need to know...
I've got to the point where, for better or worse, I just don't a f**k
I know that, though, I rarely say out loud. Not when they're present, anyway. And rather ironically, they tell me I'm a good person which always makes me laugh. Since my mum and sisters fail to see the irony of saying this one moment then I am a [insert expletive here] if I refuse to do something they're usually pressuring me to do.
I'll do my best. :thumbup: Gonnae be difficult, though. Since a lot needs to change as far as my mother's attitude towards me goes. And she - like her oldest daughter - hates being on the receiving end of criticism. Tends to throw a hissy fit then play the victim when she is. So, not looking forwards to me to going:
"Tuesday, June 20th - explain please..."
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Well, you'll never guess... Turn this story wus a f*ckin' lie told by my oldest sister to make me feel bad about myself. :sad: Our mum just got back from Ireland today, and her phoning my oldest sibling wus the first thing I said after the usual small-talk about her fime. And my mum repeated twice, that this wus the conversation:
Mum: "Graeme's no answerin' his phone..."
Oldest sister: "He's probably busy on doing something on his laptop"
And when I asked: "Ye tell me the truth?" My mum's response wus: "Aye, that's all ah said. Ah wouldnae lie aboot that"
So the "He doesnae love me anymore" line was utter shite. The f*cking lying bitch! Urrgh! :kickingmyself: :veryangry: But I'll wait n' see if my sister keeps her word regarding a favour I asked of her, before possibly raging at her about this. :thumbdown: Since she's promised to book tickets and take me to a comedy show in a few weeks time. Though, still owes me a genuine apology for a racist joke she repeatedly made at my expense a few years ago. So, there's that as leverage is tries to blame for me for her not getting the tickets. That, and the fact, I'm the only family member who's yet to mad and just verbally berated my oldest siblings and her character flaws. She stormed off in a huff once when I talked back to her.
GraybeardGhost
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I need people, but I can't face having them around. It's like having a rare disease for which there's only one medication and being allergic to that medication at the same time.