Post your random thoughts/feelings etc

[Pacific_Loner]

^Well I hope you meet him some day. Maybe you'll find out he's as lost as you. My phobias don't chain me much anymore, and yet I feel like all my options end up the same: You choose a path, you follow it until the end and you die.

 

[Graeme1988]

I don't know what to do with my LIFE

Me neither, sadly. :sad:

 

[FountainandFairfax]

^Well I hope you meet him some day. Maybe you'll find out he's as lost as you. My phobias don't chain me much anymore, and yet I feel like all my options end up the same: You choose a path, you follow it until the end and you die.

Yeah, I was a little presumptuous there.

I'd just like to be content someday... and there's no way I can do that with social phobia. Getting over social phobia might be all it takes. I'll have a little garden and I'll raise goats and everything will be good.

 

[Pacific_Loner]

Yeah, I was a little presumptuous there.

I'd just like to be content someday... and there's no way I can do that with social phobia. Getting over social phobia might be all it takes. I'll have a little garden and I'll raise goats everything will be good.

You know what, I think that's all I've been looking for as well. A little piece of land to grow stuff and rest my tired mind, preferably away enough from any other human being so that I don't have to worry day after day about bothering someone with my bitch face. And a couple of sheeps. Funny that it's so difficult to obtain nowadays. Land is f*cking expensive.

 

[Graeme1988]

Just wondering why my family see no issue with lying, like, in general. :idontknow:
But they expect me to trust them... F**k off! :thumbdown:

 

[FountainandFairfax]

You know what, I think that's all I've been looking for as well. A little piece of land to grow stuff and rest my tired mind, preferably away enough from any other human being so that I don't have to worry day after day about bothering someone with my bitch face. And a couple of sheeps.

 

[theslowesthand]

You know what, I think that's all I've been looking for as well. A little piece of land to grow stuff and rest my tired mind, preferably away enough from any other human being so that I don't have to worry day after day about bothering someone with my bitch face. And a couple of sheeps. Funny that it's so difficult to obtain nowadays. Land is f*cking expensive.

I live in the countryside, plenty of land all around. Usually don't see anybody most days. Several sheep, cows, chickens. It doesn't stop my boredom & depression, but it helps keep me sane i guess. Certainly not complaining about it! :thumbup:

 

[Megaten]

I live in the countryside, plenty of land all around. Usually don't see anybody most days. Several sheep, cows, chickens. It doesn't stop my boredom & depression, but it helps keep me sane i guess. Certainly not complaining about it! [emoji106]

I'd lose my mind if I lived out in the country. Not that I looked being around people all the time but I'd least like to see people. I think the only thing I would like about it is being able to see the stars. There's too much light where I live, so it's easy to forget about space. It's like living in a fish bowl. [emoji44]

 

[State_Of_Trance]

I think what's meant is that he's never "fallen in love" with a girl (or a serious crush?). That's how i interpreted his post anyway. So, having never felt the associated feelings in real life, it's impossible to relate fully with the jane austen characters & how they're feeling.

That was what I meant, I'm attracted to girls but "crushes" and the like don't really happen

 

[Pacific_Loner]

I really liked this TedTalk so I just thought I'd share it here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYvXk_bqlBk

 

[BlueDays]

It is really difficult to climb your way out of depression when you come across articles explaining things so succinctly, like this.

https://www.theguardian.com/money/2...-queens-speech-consumer-credit-loans-spending

While knowing that Trump has also just gotten ridden of many regulations that were put in place after the GFC to prevent it from happening again.

He has essentially poured Gasoline over the huge amassed pile of firewood that has been building up since 2008.

More people are going to suffer this time than last time. :sad:

 

[FountainandFairfax]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50uGxdb9824

Heart chakra overload.

 

[Graeme1988]

Dysfunctional families should come with a f**kin' health warning. :kickingmyself:

 

[Sarah_M]

Today was a pretty good day - spent it with my mom like every Sunday. The driving class I was going to take isn't available until fall, so I am stuck with my family teaching me. I drove all day today and, of course, made mistakes. I get so hung up on my perceived judgements of other drivers. Like, I get insulted if they pass me because that means I am a shit driver - I just need to ignore them. I backed out of a parking spot and hit the gas instead of break and almost gave my mom a heart attack - that was really embarrassing. Oh, and I almost hit a pedestrian because I didn't see him. I should be proud because a few months ago I wouldn't even sit in the driver's seat, but I just feel disappointed that I wasn't perfect. I over turn too... :/

I just hope when I do this more, I will get better and be an amazing driver. I have my placement test tomorrow - I hope I do well. My life is finally heading in a productive direction and I just want to succeed. I can't wait until things start taking off because all of this idle time makes me think too much and I become really sad. Pretty soon my life will be work, school and gym - I'm okay with that. I like staying busy.

Today is Father's day and I don't have a father - I never really have. It's a good thing because mine's an *** hole and he is toxic, but it sure would have been nice to have a good father. I'm pretty certain I wouldn't be this ****ed up if I did. I get jealous of other girls with good dads. Like, of course you're further in life/your life is better than mine - your father actually loves you. I guess the only thing I can do is marry someone who will be an amazing father and husband...fingers crossed.

 

[BlueDays]

Today was a pretty good day - spent it with my mom like every Sunday. The driving class I was going to take isn't available until fall, so I am stuck with my family teaching me. I drove all day today and, of course, made mistakes. I get so hung up on my perceived judgements of other drivers. Like, I get insulted if they pass me because that means I am a shit driver - I just need to ignore them. I backed out of a parking spot and hit the gas instead of break and almost gave my mom a heart attack - that was really embarrassing. Oh, and I almost hit a pedestrian because I didn't see him. I should be proud because a few months ago I wouldn't even sit in the driver's seat, but I just feel disappointed that I wasn't perfect. I over turn too... :/

I just hope when I do this more, I will get better and be an amazing driver. I have my placement test tomorrow - I hope I do well. My life is finally heading in a productive direction and I just want to succeed. I can't wait until things start taking off because all of this idle time makes me think too much and I become really sad. Pretty soon my life will be work, school and gym - I'm okay with that. I like staying busy.

Today is Father's day and I don't have a father - I never really have. It's a good thing because mine's an *** hole and he is toxic, but it sure would have been nice to have a good father. I'm pretty certain I wouldn't be this ****ed up if I did. I get jealous of other girls with good dads. Like, of course you're further in life/your life is better than mine - your father actually loves you. I guess the only thing I can do is marry someone who will be an amazing father and husband...fingers crossed.

^Good luck with your driving lessons, Sarah_M! It does get easier, although I know it does not feel that way when you are starting out.

I can completely relate to what you wrote about your father. I too am insanely jealous when I see or read about daughters who have fathers that love them and actually do some 'fathering'. Have never been figure out how a man can just not care one little bit about his child that is his own flesh and blood. To visibly treat his dog with more consideration and care than his own child. :idontknow:

 

[Graeme1988]

I can completely relate to what you wrote about your father. I too am insanely jealous when I see or read about daughters who have fathers that love them and actually do some 'fathering'. Have never been figure out how a man can just not care one little bit about his child that is his own flesh and blood. To visibly treat his dog with more consideration and care than his own child. :idontknow:

Same here. Though, I'm jealous of people - regardless of gender - who grew up with both parents in stable, loving home. Not to take away from the impact growing without yer father has on a child. Because I know that from my own experience. And, for me, it's been a struggle. Being expected to be the "man of the house", then berated for being assertive and trying to get thongs done. Told to, "be a man", only to be criticised by my mum & older sister for "not caring enough" and "being cold" because I rarely cry. idontknow:

 

[Megaten]

I don't understand why my friends on Facebook have to tell everyone how much they love their father. Why not just tell him and leave it at that?

 

[Sarah_M]

^Good luck with your driving lessons, Sarah_M! It does get easier, although I know it does not feel that way when you are starting out.

I can completely relate to what you wrote about your father. I too am insanely jealous when I see or read about daughters who have fathers that love them and actually do some 'fathering'. Have never been figure out how a man can just not care one little bit about his child that is his own flesh and blood. To visibly treat his dog with more consideration and care than his own child. :idontknow:

Thanks, BlueDays! I really hope things turn out.

I'm sorry to hear that about your dad and I agree with you, too - my dad treated his dog better than me, my sister or my mom. He's a real POS.

 

[Sarah_M]

So, I took my placement test and all my scores were perfect except math - I totally bombed math. I will need to study my *** off and retake it so I don't end up having to take unnecessary classes. Overall, I'm really happy with my results.

On a side note, Lenny and Larry's Complete Cookies are the shit! They're vegan, have 8 grams of fiber and 16 grams of protein so you know it's good for the gains lol. Maybe I should start a workout thread because no one wants to discuss macros or workouts with me in real life - I think I annoy everyone lol.

 

[theslowesthand]

I'd lose my mind if I lived out in the country. Not that I looked being around people all the time but I'd least like to see people. I think the only thing I would like about it is being able to see the stars. There's too much light where I live, so it's easy to forget about space. It's like living in a fish bowl.

Perhaps i have. I've certainly lost something up there, if i ever had it. the trouble i have, is that generally people drive me "insane", yet lack also drives me insane. :idontknow: