I just 'accidently' found out via Facebook that this year's last high school party is coming in 2 weeks... Others have obviously known it for much longer as hundreds of people are already officially participating. No one has told me about it and I haven't even been invited. I guess that it's because people have realized that I'm not socially active and thus they don't bother talking to me about non-school things. Out of all high school parties, I've only been to one, and even though it was far from as bad as I'd expected, it still was boring and I didn't really talk much to anyone. For the next two parties I bought a ticket, but then I didn't show up because of anxiety and because I was tired and rather wanted to stay home. I generally don't like parties, drunk people, loud music, etc., but I also want to be social... I guess I just don't fit in to today's youth... I really need to join a political group once I've dealt with my shyness a bit.