Today I found out that a guy I was friends with when I was a kid, who was my best friend, and the only kid that I knew without a doubt that really liked me/like hanging out with me, has been wanting/trying to get in contact with me for the past 6 months.
I am surprised, although I haven't felt much surprise. I have felt good some because someone else seems to like me enough to want talk with me some, maybe even stay in contact and be friends. I believed this would happen. I am also nervous and anxious. There are a lot of unknowns here.
I don't why he wants to talk to me. I mean, it's been years. I assumed he, along with everyone else I knew as a kid, would never try to get in touch with me or hang out with me again. I don't know if this means that we might become friends again or not. I although I am fairly similar to who I was towards to the end of regularly hanging out with him, I have changed in some ways and at least added on new preferences in music, movies, hobbies, etc. I'm also no longer religious. I have no idea how much he has changed or how similar he is to me.
Even though he was 2 years younger than me, he was always smarter than me, and he read a lot and was learning piano when he was a kid. He's going to good university. I'm assuming he is a lot smarter, skilled, and more successful than me. I always figured he would be, it was how his parents raised him.
I stopped hanging out with him for multiple reasons. For one, since I was 2 years older than him, I hit ****rty before him and started changing. I lost interest in playing with legos and playing out in the woods. Time playing video games was limit at his house, which was all I really had interest in at the time. I also started having trouble with anxiety and depression at 13. So when I was 14, I stopped calling (I didn't go to school and no longer went to church, so calling was the only way to get in touch). We stopped hanging out.
And now after about 7 years, he tries to get in contact with me and has succeeded. Something I have been to afraid to do. Something that I have believed too many negative things about, in regards to myself, and defeated myself from doing.