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Ithior

Ithior

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KiaKaha said:
I think people get depressed with facebook because it shows people being sociable and popular - and by comparison it makes you feel bad because you feel left out and.... not so popular. I can kind of relate because I feel a bit that way too - but I take facebook with a pinch of salt.
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I don't feel bad when I see others being sociable and popular. It's not something I like to do, and I know I wouldn't have a good time if I were in their place. I don't fancy the idea of being popular either, I enjoy going by relatively unnoticed (not completely unnoticed, I like being given credit for the things I do and I don't want to be completely ignored by everyone)
Maybe it doesn't affect me much because I go out enough times I guess, like once a month or something. That's more than enough for me.
 
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Nathália

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Flanscho said:
I'm not sure where to go in my life.

In general, I think I did alright. I fought the SA and it became much better over the years. I got a pretty nice circle of friends now, that took me a decade to put together. I also live in a very nice city, and got a nice flat too, just for myself. I got six years of work experience as programmer too. All in all, I guess that's not bad.

At the same time... I have no partner, and I have very little money. There are many things in my life I'd like to do, and I could do, but I'd like to do them with someone else. So I could share the experiences. Like, a bicycle tour in northern Japan. Sure I could do it alone, but it would be much more fun with someone else. Or Hiking in Scandinavia. But should I really wait for the rest of my life until I find a partner to do that together with?

Some day I'd like to own a patch of land, mostly far away from civilization. Somewhere in the midst of Canada or Scandinavia. Just a place where I can say "this is my land. There is nothing on it, but it's mine". And then camp there, or maybe build a small hut.

Sometimes I think about studying again. Universities are nearly for free in Germany. But I have to earn money to pay the flat. And getting a part time job, that generates enough money to pay the bills AND leaves me enough time for the courses AND enough time to study AND some free time too... I doubt I can do that.
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Hope you can find a way to do something for you, the things you dream of. That all sounds cool.
 
coyote

coyote

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"The most beautiful makeup for a woman is passion. But, cosmetics are easier to buy." - Yves Saint Laurant
 
FallenFeathers

FallenFeathers

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Utterly heavy hearted. I am totally head over heels for a friend. Not only is she taken, probably way beyond my league, but our friendship is truly something beautiful, why do I have to complicate things >.<

I am content with our friendship, I have no illusions that I might end up with her one day, you know I'm not faking this friendship with a hidden agenda. But my heart flutters every time we speak, she's taught me to laugh again when I thought I might never again. I feel guilty for liking her this much, like I'm somehow betraying our friendship :( Hope I can get a handle on this soon. Heart y u no listen to brain >.<
 
Flanscho

Flanscho

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Went today to the job agency. They said that the job market is pretty good for me, and will improve over the course of the next few months further. And that it would be quite surprising, if I'd be unemployed for more than a month. I guess that's good.
 
dmsteyn

dmsteyn

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Flanscho said:
Went today to the job agency. They said that the job market is pretty good for me, and will improve over the course of the next few months further. And that it would be quite surprising, if I'd be unemployed for more than a month. I guess that's good.
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That is certainly good news. Good luck with finding a job soon, Flanscho.
 
Ithior

Ithior

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Finally done with my tooth. Had to devitalize it or whatever it's called, and I've been going to the dentist with temporary things in my tooth to see how it is progressing. It was a bit of risk to finish it now because it still was bleeding a little bit from the non definitive tries, but since the blood didn't have any bacteria my dentist considered that it was time to make the definitive. Feels good to be done with it (if nothing goes wrong in the next days...) because I've been going to the dentist practically every week for at least three months now.

I used to be scared of going to the dentist when I was younger, always had a lot of problems with my teeth and I had to go there every two months. That dentist used to hurt a lot and just say stuff like "Stop whining." and I hated going there.

A few months ago I really had to go to the dentist because of this tooth that was hurting like hell (the one I have now devitalized), but since I still hadn't treated all of the other teeth I decided to keep going every week to take care of them. I haven't been going to the same dentist though, it's my cousin this time and she's really careful and I don't even fear the day I have to go to the dentist anymore, it just feels like weekly routine.
 
neardeath

neardeath

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I have been making great efforts to change behaviors because I am so tired of staying alive right on death's door, but I always end up in the same spot. Today, my son is coming to visit and I am totally stressed out. My own son! We get along well, always have, and he is an easy-going funny guy. How can I be socially phobic of my own flesh & blood? This sickness runs deep. I'd rather be dead than have a visit from ANYONE! I should put a big sign on my door that says "LEAVE ME THE ____ ALONE!"
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Nathália said:
Do you exist? Yay for self love, but there will be people in life you may have to continue to weed out to get to the ones that will respect you.
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Opaline said:
I think you're wrong about no such person existing, it's just a matter of finding them but I know that could take a lot of waiting, luck, etc.

Hope you feel better very soon.
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KiaKaha said:
I like you. I find it hard to believe that such a sweet heart can feel so lonely :-(
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Thank you. Maybe I will find someone like this someday but I guess first I need to learn to respect myself, only then I can respect others right?
 
twiggle

twiggle

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It's been a terrible week at work!!! BUT meh it. It's Friday, I have some fun things planned for the weekend and a new addition to the family due any day.
So MEH to work.
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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twiggle said:
It's been a terrible week at work!!! BUT meh it. It's Friday, I have some fun things planned for the weekend and a new addition to the family due any day.
So MEH to work.
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I'm sorry you had a bad week, I hope you enjoy the weekend and that's great. :perfect:
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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Flanscho said:
Went today to the job agency. They said that the job market is pretty good for me, and will improve over the course of the next few months further. And that it would be quite surprising, if I'd be unemployed for more than a month. I guess that's good.
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That's awesome. I hope you find a great job soon. :)
 
Srijita52

Srijita52

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neardeath said:
I have been making great efforts to change behaviors because I am so tired of staying alive right on death's door, but I always end up in the same spot. Today, my son is coming to visit and I am totally stressed out. My own son! We get along well, always have, and he is an easy-going funny guy. How can I be socially phobic of my own flesh & blood? This sickness runs deep. I'd rather be dead than have a visit from ANYONE! I should put a big sign on my door that says "LEAVE ME THE ____ ALONE!"
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I'm sorry. That's what anxiety does I guess, hope you have a great time with your son.
 
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