Mind of Malice

[DeadmanWalking]

Yepp. Totally carries me away. Pfft yeah I fail.....

Wha-?! NO! That's not what I meant! I meant to slap you, you accursed skirt-chaser you and no, I don't feel the slightest bit better -__-

Now excuse me while I go burn my lips off.

I'm totally blown away by what you said though! Why is it that when someone else kisses you, you act all blush and demure, yet when I do it, you get mean and want to go burn your lips off?! What do they have that I don't? Of course, looking at it another way, because you're acting so mean towards me could be a sign that you like me! How silly of me! We're like Asuka and Shinji, you and I! Of course you're going to be rough on me, you're a Tsundere! Watch this!

Neon Genesis Evangelion - Kiss Scene - YouTube
It's like I'm watching you and me!

 

[MikeyC]

The past week or so has been a never ending roller coaster of emotions for me. It was mostly made up of spontaneous but dreadfully long periods of depression, especially Thursday when I spent about 4 hours locked up in my room, crying like the day my father died.

It did a great job keeping me away from SPW too. I would log on and then immediately log off. On Friday I typed up the most massive journal entry to date (it filled up 7 full pages on MS Word, I kid you not) but then deleted it right after reading over it because I said such horrific and depressing things. I don't have the slightest clue where such things came from and didn't know such words were possible, even from someone as self-loathing as myself. I don't even know why I've been so sad lately. I should be the happiest person on earth right now, but I'm not. I'm far from it. It's pathetic.

I'm sorry you went through massive bouts of depression. I am available if you ever feel the need to talk to someone. Someone Australian.

Typing out a 7-page letter, then immediately deleting it, is probably something that helped you. A friend of mine told me about "messages you don't intend to send". Basically, in your case, you would write out everything that you felt - in detail - with the "intention" of posting it here. Then, once you have completely unburdened yourself, delete the entire thing. That way you haven't felt like you were bothering us (you wouldn't have, by the way), and you still got the emotions out. He said it's better for angry writing to people you hate, but it can work for just about anything.

I'm very glad to hear you're feeling better now, though. It's unusual how you can be in the absolute pits of despair (me on Friday) and then get out of it. The mind is a chaotic network of emotions.

 

[Phoenixx]

Sorry to hear how you've been feeling lately. I've been feeling a bit of the same way though. Glad to hear the feeling is subsiding, mine has been too (a bit).

I think that is the most random collection I've seen in a car. I've always wondered why people do that, put their collections in their cars. Honestly having all that stuff in the back window would probably annoy me.

 

[antihistamine]

I'm a fan of this young witer already. Keep it up!!

 

[MaliceInWickedland]

I'm totally blown away by what you said though! Why is it that when someone else kisses you, you act all blush and demure, yet when I do it, you get mean and want to go burn your lips off?! What do they have that I don't? Of course, looking at it another way, because you're acting so mean towards me could be a sign that you like me! How silly of me! We're like Asuka and Shinji, you and I! Of course you're going to be rough on me, you're a Tsundere! Watch this!

Neon Genesis Evangelion - Kiss Scene - YouTube
It's like I'm watching you and me!

Haha Evangelion! But no... just no. The answer to your question is quite simple: because they're not skirt chasers and don't go around flirting with a bunch of other girls at the same time, which I can't stand! Flirting with me is one thing, but when you go around doing it with other girls it shows that you're, well... a player. It bugs me even more after going through a bunch of drama with a former user here who was also very flirty with me as well as a bunch of other girls here and turned out to be something he wasn't making himself out to be.

Anyway, I'm not trying to be mean or offend you. I just can't stand it when guys are so flirty. It gets a bit obnoxious after a while to be honest.

 

[MaliceInWickedland]

I'm sorry you went through massive bouts of depression. I am available if you ever feel the need to talk to someone. Someone Australian.

Typing out a 7-page letter, then immediately deleting it, is probably something that helped you. A friend of mine told me about "messages you don't intend to send". Basically, in your case, you would write out everything that you felt - in detail - with the "intention" of posting it here. Then, once you have completely unburdened yourself, delete the entire thing. That way you haven't felt like you were bothering us (you wouldn't have, by the way), and you still got the emotions out. He said it's better for angry writing to people you hate, but it can work for just about anything.

I'm very glad to hear you're feeling better now, though. It's unusual how you can be in the absolute pits of despair (me on Friday) and then get out of it. The mind is a chaotic network of emotions.

No worries. It happens a lot but at least it hasn't been as bad lately, and thanks

I guess. I'm still a bit peeved that I spent like an hour and a half typing all of that out, only to delete it and pretty much use up that hour for nothing when I could have done something much more productive with my time. I do feel like it helped me somewhat though. At least I got most of that negativity and despair off my chest.

Thanks again, and I completely agree. My mind is like a ticking time bomb that will explode into a fury of different emotions at even the slightest touch. It's ridiculous.

 

[MaliceInWickedland]

Sorry to hear how you've been feeling lately. I've been feeling a bit of the same way though. Glad to hear the feeling is subsiding, mine has been too (a bit).

I think that is the most random collection I've seen in a car. I've always wondered why people do that, put their collections in their cars. Honestly having all that stuff in the back window would probably annoy me.

No worries, it happens. I'm also glad to hear that yours is subsiding as well

Right?! I mean seriously, goats?? xD
One time I even saw a car in front of us on the street that practically had the whole back of their car littered with bobbleheads and it was pretty annoying to watch all of them bobbing their heads simultaneously and staring at me with those creepy smiles <__<

And people think I'm strange?

I'm a fan of this young witer already. Keep it up!!

Wooooo! A new minio- err.. fan~
Welcome to the dark side of SPW my dear

 

[MikeyC]

No worries. It happens a lot but at least it hasn't been as bad lately, and thanks

I guess. I'm still a bit peeved that I spent like an hour and a half typing all of that out, only to delete it and pretty much use up that hour for nothing when I could have done something much more productive with my time. I do feel like it helped me somewhat though. At least I got most of that negativity and despair off my chest.

Thanks again, and I completely agree. My mind is like a ticking time bomb that will explode into a fury of different emotions at even the slightest touch. It's ridiculous.

Yeah, I know I would be peeved as well. It's a long thing to write only to delete it by accident. As long as it helped you in any way, that's all that matters.

 

[Pyrophosphate]

Wooooo! A new minio- err.. fan~

You have minions now? And you're trying to keep them a secret? And you wonder why I'm afraid of you?

 

[MaliceInWickedland]

My day today was pretty mundane for the most part. At least until we stopped by Fresh and Easy for some groceries and came across this rather amusing concoction:

Couldn't they have thought of another name...? And what the arse torpedo do dicks have to do with sponges anyway??

Just imagine if they had a commercial for this:

Spotted Dick - it's full of holes! ...and microwaveable

xD

 

[MikeyC]

Looks delicious!

 

[MrJones]

Looks delicious!

...Just want to point that you just said that a dick looks delicious

 

[MikeyC]

...Just want to point that you just said that a dick looks delicious

Yes, unfortunately text can't convey sarcasm. ::

 

[MrJones]

Yes, unfortunately text can't convey sarcasm. ::

Yeah, now try to fix it

 

[MikeyC]

It was all sarcasm! I swear!

 

[Phoenixx]

My day today was pretty mundane for the most part. At least until we stopped by Fresh and Easy for some groceries and came across this rather amusing concoction:

Couldn't they have thought of another name...? And what the arse torpedo do dicks have to do with sponges anyway??

Just imagine if they had a commercial for this:

Spotted Dick - it's full of holes! ...and microwaveable

xD

^ I see those in the European Imports aisle in Wegman's all the time. Pretty funny. ::

Talking about that, I also found some nice rye bread from Germany there the other day, and it's wheat free! I bought some, but I have yet to try it. Oh, and I managed to find gluten free fortune cookies in the Asian section I can have too. :] Wegman's is so much fun to shop at. So many exciting things!

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

My day today was pretty mundane for the most part. At least until we stopped by Fresh and Easy for some groceries and came across this rather amusing concoction:

As funny as the spotted dick was, it was the fact that you bought it at a store with a name that sounds like a feminine sanitary product that really made me laugh.

'Fresh & Easy'...because life is for living, whatever the time of the month!

 

[theslowesthand]

How about this --> The ads for "Dick Smith Electronics" have now taken to saying just "Dick", like its a person: 'who loves you? well DICK does! ... this xmas DICK is all about GIVING! ... only DICK can make you this HAPPY!'
Do they not know how re-DICK-ulous it sounds??? Perhaps a deliberate pun taken a bit too far?

 

[MaliceInWickedland]

Before I post my actual journal entry of the day, I would like to take this moment to wish all of my fellow SPWers a very
Merry Christmas!

Oh wait, wrong picture xD

...

Now that's what I'm talking about

Ladies, don't you just wanna feel those snowballs?

...

Ahem yes well... on a more serious note...

So yeah, it's Christmas. Yay...?

Sorry, I just haven't been feeling that holiday spirit for a while. Well, years actually. It just feels like another mundane day with nothing to do and nobody to spend it with. I just spent it here in my lovely home, having a movie marathon with my mom and have been locked up here in my room video gaming myself to death and, of course, am now sitting here on my lazy bum before my bright computer screen trying to find something to make my life more worthwhile and failing miserably to do yet again.

Yeah.... but enough about boring ol' me. How was you guys' Christmas?? Much more enjoyable I hope. Get anything special? Something you really wanted? Got drunk off your rocker? Do tell~ =D

As for my "actual" journal entry, I'll just save it for tomorrow or another day. You guys are probably better off not reading it anyway. Just some more emotional rambling over my typical nonsensical life. Wooo! \o/

...A-ny-who...

Happy Holidays to you all and I hope you enjoy the rest of your Christmas! =)

 

[MikeyC]

Don't you just wanna feel those snowballs?

NO!

I just spent it here in my lovely home, having a movie marathon with my mom and have been locked up here in my room video gaming myself to death and, of course, sitting here on my lazy bum before my bright computer screen trying to find something to make my life more worthwhile and failing miserably to do yet again.

Sounds like you need a break from tradition/routine. That way you might feel more inclined to do something and it'll keep your mind active. Exercise is the best for this.

Sorry to hear you're not feeling great. :: I would join you in that movie marathon if you wanted...unless it's Lord Of The Rings, then you're on your own. ::

Yeah.... but enough about boring ol' me. How was you guys' Christmas?? Much more enjoyable I hope. Get anything special? Something you really wanted? Got drunk off your rocker? Do tell~ =D

Not getting drunk, but I have eaten a lot. Best of all I have started work holidays for nearly a month and I'm off to Melbourne in a couple of days. Yes!