It makes me terrified when I'm talking to someone and somehow there's a silence, I blame myself painfully because I immedietely think it's my responsibility to break the silence...it's horrible.
It's funny you bring this up because I just had a date where I had like 20 awkward silences.
Yes, the awkward silence is usually because of me, and that's okay because I'm shy and those happen a lot because small talk doesn't always come naturally to me. I'm not afraid of awkward silence, but I do admit there were times where I got really uncomfortable during that date when there was the awkward silence.
When it started happening at first, this girl was really weird and she would just stare at me waiting for me to say something. After it kept happening I just instinctively would look away and try to think of something to say. It wouldn't have been as bad if she hadn't of just stared at me during those moments like she was penetrating into my soul.
That was the only date where awkward silences were a large issue for me, which is good. I think that has to do with luck too, because the women I dated before that were very talkative.
I think a lot of people who are shy, a big reason why they avoid others is because of awkward silences. That is the biggest reason I avoided dating for 5 years, I didn't think I'd have anything to say. It turns out I do have stuff to say, which is good. I need to find a woman who likes me for who I am, which unfortunately has been a little difficult.