Sorry for the long post, here goes. I'm not really sure, people rarely comment on my looks. Once a friend of mine told her friends that she thought I was good-looking, and they just looked at me and frowned. My aunt also told my mother once that she(my mother) had good looking children, then looked at me and frowned and said "well". For a good number of years I felt like the hunch back of notre dame, and it took everything I had to cope with feeling so ugly in the presence of others. Yet one time one of my friends told me he didn't understand why I didn't try more with women, he said I could have whatever girl I wanted, but that I just didn't try. So I was usually more confused than anything.
Meantime, these days, I am changing how I think about the world and myself, cracking the negative thoughts, getting in better shape, and accepting myself better. It’s like the "streets of london" after all. And though I'm sure I will not be appealing to many people, I'm happy with how I look, and I wouldn't want to look any other way. I look like me, and that’s exactly how I should look. And since I've been more confident, and not as distracted by the anxiousness, I've noticed a few women have been looking my way. There was a girl one time that made me feel like a million bucks, and I talked to her just the other day, and now I'm thinking things aren't so bad after all. Maybe I can get her to look my way too.