i'm terribly sorry to hear about your sweet pup
know that there are many of us here who know exactly how you must feel.. you gave her such a great life and cared for her in many ways that other dogs don't get. my heart broke when my golden retriever passed five years ago, i still miss her, but now it's easy for me to remember what a sweetheart she was and how much i loved having her around. she still visits me in my dreams sometimes and it makes me smile
i hope you can feel better soon..