Oh, it is a british curse than?
An acceptable curse word, aye. :bigsmile:
Maybe you guys need family counseling if you are open to that.
Nope, not because it won't work. It just my sister's too arrogant to admit when she's wrong and doesn't like when I criticisize her. Which is why I never got closure for all those times she'd compare me to a terrorist whenever we were out in public.
mg: And I'm the one who gets labelled autistic by ma other sister...?! :kickingmyself:
And my Mum couldnae even openly talk about sex and relationship during teen when I quizzed her on the topic, so she's unlikely to open up during a family therapy session. She always changed the subject when ah tried open up about ma depression an sucidial thoughts, age 16. And went ape-shit, when ah confided in ma sister about ma struggle. Obviously ma sister betrayed me on that.
Plus, she (my Mum) doesn't seem to bothered by how she treats me because I'm always the one at fault. Apparently, her stabbing me in a rage with manicure scissors was my fault. Or how the man-hating, bitter rants she'd go off on after my dad came back into ma life huv affected my self-esteem and relationships with wimmin. She now tell me she was only joking when she said all those things - like generalising all men as useless, worthless and selfish.
And her constantly thinking the worst about everything has only made my anxiety when I'm outside worse, and in general. As well as telling not to trust anyone outside the family. Which has made me huv lil trust in anyone, including my family. As well always being negative about everything when I'm tryin' to be positive. But how she is around me, but she'll tell my sisters not to be pessimistic when they speak negatively about something.
See, ya don't turn out great when yer raised by an angry, illiterate parent with a gender bias. Unless yer somewhat smart, like me. In which case, you can figure stuff out, eventually. And if ye do call yer mum and sister on their BS double standards, they'll just claim victimhood, as most feminists and SJWs do nowadays.
Oh! And her, as well as my sister's - tendency to lie about things. And my Mum contradicting me whenever I make a decision for myself. As well as both of them always asked
"Are ye sure?" when ah say
"No" to something.
What do you mean that your imitating and they still don't listen to you?
Oh, just that ah'll ask them to do somethin' for me, nice. Then, they won't aknowledge me, so I ask them again. By the time, ah've had to repeat myself for 3rd or 4th, I'm start to get considerably pissed off. Or when I tell them to just leave something alone, they do the opposite.
And, y'know, being smarter than my Mum and sister doesnae help, since ah know the meaning of "
big words" & huvin standards and values that ah won't compromising for anyone. Also, the beard and the Scottish accent...
Oh
Also you could think about going to a rehab clinic if you want.
I'm actually go to one this Thursday. I'm a bit nervous, though. I don't know my new physiotherapist team that well, and don't really like being too personal with strangers. Or most people for that matter... Since ah feel like they'll judge me negatively or are already doing so.
