Lavinialuna
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I can't keep up with first world standards. Everything is too fast paced and I'm not even interested. I just want to live in a remote location in peace away from societal expectations. I want to enjoy the land, the earth. I do not care about any of this other nonsense. It's not natural, it doesn't fit.
I feel the same way. I just am not mentally equipped to handle the stress.
My daughter (who is 20) and I were talking about how neat it would be to have a large farm. As the family got older we could all have our own homes and help each other on the homestead. In a "society" like that (like a tribe) I would actually have VALUE. I could cook, I could take care of kids, I could tend the garden and animals. I would be of some help. In the society I am trapped in right now, I am nothing but a BURDEN because I am sickly and have anxiety problems. I am worthless and talked about by politicians like I am lazy and better off dead. It is hurtful and it DOES effect my self esteem. It causes me to feel shame.
If she ever marries and her husband is interested in that lifestyle, I would go off the grid and take all my kids and just go. I know my husband would be on board. Those who could work would work, and those who could work at home would work at home. It's a dream I have.