MikeyC
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That's still really good. Having purpose always helps.thanks;-) not totally selfless...i get something out of helping him too. makes me feel like i'm accomplishing something and gives me a sense of purpose.
That's still really good. Having purpose always helps.thanks;-) not totally selfless...i get something out of helping him too. makes me feel like i'm accomplishing something and gives me a sense of purpose.
You're welcome to vent to me whenever you need to.Not that great. I am having issues with my job, injuries and generally feeling like a complete failure at life.
I need to vent. I feel a journal entry coming up pretty soon.
What did you get up to?Exhausted. I've had such a long day. It was pretty enjoyable though.
^ Quoted from the positive thread:What did you get up to?
1) I finally got my butt to the mall. (been dying to go for weeks now)
2) Got a $10 t-shirt, which is super cheap considering the store I was at.
3) I have a wedding to go to this Saturday, so I was mostly at the mall today to buy a dress. I picked up this strapless blue dress on a whim, just to try it on, but figuring it'd make me look even more disproportionate, so I wasn't expecting much. (and I hate dress shopping) It fit perfect, I didn't look weird but actually decent, it was a much smaller size than I thought, and it was only $4!
4) Finished putting together all my mom's graduation gifts she had bought for kids we know. I don't really talk to any of them, except one. She talks to them way more than I do. I love putting together gift baskets/bags though.
5) I had an eye appointment today. I wasn't even anxious this morning, which is great because they always make me super anxious for some reason. I also had a brand new doctor test me today. I like him much better than the last two I had. He was actually nice and talked to me rather than trying to rush me through the appointment.
6) I got to walk down my favorite street today while I was there and just look in shop windows. I want to move there so, so bad.
7) I made grilled pizza, which was fantastic.
Yeah I had a good day.
Oh, I didn't see that one. That's awesome, Phoenixx. I'm very glad you had a great day.^ Quoted from the positive thread:
Only because I'm too lazy to type it out again.
I'm feeling anxious as usual. Every moment I'm sitting, standing; whatever, I feel sad and a constant need to stop and do something more important but I don't know what. This is the feelings I fight constantly lately. I just want to do something; anything, and actually enjoy it. I don't want to feel bad about. I don't want to think about how it's not gonna get me a job, or how it's just a useless activity that will do nothing for my life...I just want to enjoy things.
I hope you all are doing awesomely.
Yeah I know how you feel shy. I mean look at what I said in my above post, I stepped outside for the first time in 15 days today 15 DAYS! I feel like a jobless,worthless sack of complete sh*t lately and I have the same sort of feeling
Oh, you should kicked him in the groin! Okay, maybe not that, but something extreme to show him that looking at his phone constantly is rude and makes you feel inferior. I know that if someone did that to me I would feel terrible, and I consciously make a habit of missing calls or not replying to texts immediately if I'm in the middle of a conversation. If there's a lull in the talking, then I might do it.I finally stepped outside for the first time in 15 days. I went to the movies with a friend. I dont know. I feel a bit better but at the same time we probably just hung out because I was his last resort, thats usually how it goes. I mean everytime I tried to talk to him he would rip out his phone every 2 seconds and read a bunch of texts and stuff. I dont know.
Why do you feel what you're doing isn't important? What could you do that makes you feel it is important? Lots of activities we do are technically "useless," but if you find enjoyment out of it, that's all that matters.I'm feeling anxious as usual. Every moment I'm sitting, standing; whatever, I feel sad and a constant need to stop and do something more important but I don't know what. This is the feelings I fight constantly lately. I just want to do something; anything, and actually enjoy it. I don't want to feel bad about. I don't want to think about how it's not gonna get me a job, or how it's just a useless activity that will do nothing for my life...I just want to enjoy things.
I hope you all are doing awesomely.
These days are the worst days in my life. I am seriously suffering in depression, self-pity this is why I'm crying all the time for a simple reason: I got no friends, I don't talk to girls, I got nobody who I could talk to, I can't go outside, all because I am just too weak. I can thank everything to myself, I am too weak now to start getting social, because I wouldn't know where to start. I can't think of any other thing than my problems.
Me & my parents are currently switching rooms bedroom, my room living room, so we are packing all day, all because of me, since I once quietly said my room is too small and theres no air in it. So my parents started to switch rooms and I know I can't dissuade them from this, because they really think I will be happy because my new place later. But I know in the same time, that I can't live with my parents forever, sooner or later I need to live on my own. This is just another thing to worry about.
I know I'm making my mom really sad and almost depressed too, because of my problems. This is why she had enough and called a psychiatrist and told her who I really am, what are my fears and everything. Now I just need to call that woman to get an appointment, she's a really known supervisor, hypnotherapist, psychotherapist.
Hi, I hope that things get better for you. It might be and idea to make that call. The first step can be the hardest. It took me years to make a CBT appointment yet it turned out to be one of the best things that I have ever done....good luck...keep postingThese days are the worst days in my life. I am seriously suffering in depression, self-pity this is why I'm crying all the time for a simple reason: I got no friends, I don't talk to girls, I got nobody who I could talk to, I can't go outside, all because I am just too weak. I can thank everything to myself, I am too weak now to start getting social, because I wouldn't know where to start. I can't think of any other thing than my problems.
Me & my parents are currently switching rooms bedroom, my room living room, so we are packing all day, all because of me, since I once quietly said my room is too small and theres no air in it. So my parents started to switch rooms and I know I can't dissuade them from this, because they really think I will be happy because my new place later. But I know in the same time, that I can't live with my parents forever, sooner or later I need to live on my own. This is just another thing to worry about.
I know I'm making my mom really sad and almost depressed too, because of my problems. This is why she had enough and called a psychiatrist and told her who I really am, what are my fears and everything. Now I just need to call that woman to get an appointment, she's a really known supervisor, hypnotherapist, psychotherapist.