How are you feeling?

twiggle

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No, you're not rude. You already told her you weren't going to be around and she made the plans, anyway. Do what you were originally going to do and you might see her after that.

Thanks Mikey. It turns out I jumped to conclusions though. She just phoned and said that by 'after lunch' she meant setting off after lunch, and arriving here at about 6pm, which I can do.
Whoops ::eek::
 

Iluv

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My mother very nearly did.

::(: . I say it sometimes without thinking, most of the time not meaning it but if I knew my mother ever nearly did I think it would push me down further. i'm sorry to hear that though.

An abortion? That's a little extreme! Just tell them those items were from your past and you want to forget about them. Or maybe put them in a plastic bag and throw them out later. They'll never know!

Yeah I tried everything but I did try putting some in a plastic bag so thanks for the advice :). I call them the rats because they think they have the right to go through peoples stuff all the time. More like racoons since they like going through the trash. ::p:
 

Shyangel

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I'm feeling okay. Had a bit of a spat with my ex.
I cried some. I feel better. Mostly because he messaged me and apologized.
I didn't cry over the fight. I cried over the fact of feeling like I hate someone of whom I've shared so many great memories. The only person I got so close to. I still think about the good times and smile, then get hit with a mountain of pain. I hate thinking about him and remembering how warm he felt. How warm he made me feel. Because that's not the reality any more. Why can't memories change with the times? I have these memories. I can't get rid of them. It hurts me so much to think that once this person held so much importance in my life and now I can hardly get a hold of him. How does that happen? How can some one that meant that world to you become someone you hate?...I don't know...I have so many thoughts I want to express about this but I don't quite have the ability.....I'm gonna stop thinking about this and instead think about the fun I'm gonna have at that rave....Yeah...We'll see.
 

MikeyC

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Yeah I tried everything but I did try putting some in a plastic bag so thanks for the advice :). I call them the rats because they think they have the right to go through peoples stuff all the time. More like racoons since they like going through the trash. ::p:
I guess just tell them the truth and hopefully they accept it. It is rat-like behaviour, isn't it? Haha.

I am going to try and have a holiday from my worries today.:) I hope it can at last at least 24 hrs. I deserve a break.:rolleyes:
You do deserve a break. Spoil yourself.

I'm feeling okay. Had a bit of a spat with my ex.
I cried some. I feel better. Mostly because he messaged me and apologized.
I didn't cry over the fight. I cried over the fact of feeling like I hate someone of whom I've shared so many great memories. The only person I got so close to. I still think about the good times and smile, then get hit with a mountain of pain. I hate thinking about him and remembering how warm he felt. How warm he made me feel. Because that's not the reality any more. Why can't memories change with the times? I have these memories. I can't get rid of them. It hurts me so much to think that once this person held so much importance in my life and now I can hardly get a hold of him. How does that happen? How can some one that meant that world to you become someone you hate?...I don't know...I have so many thoughts I want to express about this but I don't quite have the ability.....I'm gonna stop thinking about this and instead think about the fun I'm gonna have at that rave....Yeah...We'll see.
People change and drift apart. Unfortunately that is life and it's happened to me many times over the course of my life. It will happen to you again, too. This one hurts more because of the memories and closeness you two felt.

Sorry you're going through this. It's not nice.
 

WeirdyMcGee

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Amused.
Sometimes I find it difficult to do my job because of my sense of humor.


@shyangel
I dated a boy/man once for 8 years. He broke up with me 3 years ago and I'm still struggling with memories and trying to forget about him.
It takes time; so I hear.
Probably would take less time if we could leave our rooms and work and have a half decent social life. haha
But-- hang in there.
Keeping good memories is fine; as good memories tend to stand out much more than bad ones-- they're harder to get rid of.
Instead of forgetting, just try to make new good memories to replace them with.
 

Shyangel

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I guess just tell them the truth and hopefully they accept it. It is rat-like behaviour, isn't it? Haha.


You do deserve a break. Spoil yourself.


People change and drift apart. Unfortunately that is life and it's happened to me many times over the course of my life. It will happen to you again, too. This one hurts more because of the memories and closeness you two felt.

Sorry you're going through this. It's not nice.

Yeah...It's still hard to understand, though....I get mad at myself because I just can't make sense of it and it wont stop driving me crazy...It's strange to me that you have these great moving memories, you laugh at them smile, then you think I don't talk to them any more...You would just think if you shared something deep that you would be connected emotionally forever. I feel like these bonds don't totally wear off..I'm seriously not sure what I'm getting at. Haha!

Anyway, thanks for the concern. It's much appreciated.:)

I'm gonna go eat diner now. Catch Ya'll later.
 

MikeyC

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Yeah...It's still hard to understand, though....I get mad at myself because I just can't make sense of it and it wont stop driving me crazy...It's strange to me that you have these great moving memories, you laugh at them smile, then you think I don't talk to them any more...You would just think if you shared something deep that you would be connected emotionally forever. I feel like these bonds don't totally wear off..I'm seriously not sure what I'm getting at. Haha!

Anyway, thanks for the concern. It's much appreciated.:)
It never makes sense. You are connected forever...through memories. Whether they're all good, all bad, or a mixture of the two, you and him will always be connected for that reason.

Weirdy is right, too. Remember fondly of the good memories and replace them with even better memories. You will be okay. Time heals everything.
 

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Feeling a wee bit stressed, to be honest.

I've got my appointment for my GP on Tuesday afternoon. To actually refer me to a counselor and get my therapy sessions started, I wish they'd already started.

And my occupational therapist has also had to rescheduled her home visit for the same day, to see about getting me a new wheelchair. So, I suppose, it's good that things are finally starting to get sorted out.
 
I realized that what I want, what I'm in position to get and what others are willing to offer me (I don't wanna go into details about those things) are three things than won't coincide at all as long as I don't live on my own, and is going to be at least two years until I'll be able to do that.

And that's a though thing, it's gonna be some sad two years.
 

pop-princess

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The good thing about "those kind of days" is that they pass, so try to tough things out and these feelings will go away:). If you need help, I'm always here.

Yes you are right about that I just wish I didn't have those type of days so often, that would make things a lot easier ::p:

Oh, thank you! :)
 

Shyangel

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Amused.
Sometimes I find it difficult to do my job because of my sense of humor.


@shyangel
I dated a boy/man once for 8 years. He broke up with me 3 years ago and I'm still struggling with memories and trying to forget about him.
It takes time; so I hear.
Probably would take less time if we could leave our rooms and work and have a half decent social life. haha
But-- hang in there.
Keeping good memories is fine; as good memories tend to stand out much more than bad ones-- they're harder to get rid of.
Instead of forgetting, just try to make new good memories to replace them with.

Thanks, Weirdy. That's great advice I'll try and keep in mind. 8 years, hu? Wow, I'm sorry about that. Here I am complaining about my measly 4. You seem like a great girl, so he's the one missing out.
 
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