How are you feeling?
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The Sun's Architect
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Scored a 100 on the Liebowitz test and 28 on BDI yesterday. Somehow I don't even care. Even though I'm nearly unable to talk to my parents and sisters (because I can hardly breathe when I'm with them), haven't been in any contact with my friends lately and I don't think I'm going to live for 2 years more, one could say I'm somewhat content with my life. Or well, I have accepted that life sucks.
I spend my life playing The Lord of The Rings Online and some other RPGs. If I'm unable to live the real life, why should I? Instead, I can just spend a couple of years in a world where I'm happy. I will fight suicide as long as I possibly can, because I don't want to make my family and friends feel the pain that it would cause.
I'm still seeing a psychiatrist regularly. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I still want to avoid psychosis. And maybe some minor part of me still wants to enjoy life. Dunno.
Also, hey everyone. Just registered. Probably won't be very active though, it's really hard to me to even write something on a forum. Usually I write a response but never press on "Submit". Who knows why.
I spend my life playing The Lord of The Rings Online and some other RPGs. If I'm unable to live the real life, why should I? Instead, I can just spend a couple of years in a world where I'm happy. I will fight suicide as long as I possibly can, because I don't want to make my family and friends feel the pain that it would cause.
I'm still seeing a psychiatrist regularly. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's because I still want to avoid psychosis. And maybe some minor part of me still wants to enjoy life. Dunno.
Also, hey everyone. Just registered. Probably won't be very active though, it's really hard to me to even write something on a forum. Usually I write a response but never press on "Submit". Who knows why.
lonely_drummer
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Actually slept lastnight, my mind is starting to settle down, for now
Lea
Banned
I just read an article recently that open offices are the biggest stressors and damaging to mental health. And that the bosses in there are largely psychopaths.
Phoenixx
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Tired, unmotivated, feel like avoiding people today, but I'm not exactly depressed. It doesn't help I didn't go to bed until 3am. XP I seem to be staying up later and later. While I enjoy it then, I feel kinda awful the next day.
Finally heard back from my best friend and we've been exchanging a couple messages over the last few days. It's nice to hear from her, but the conversation feels so stiff anymore. I'm not really sure what to even do, whether it's even worth keeping in touch.
Finally heard back from my best friend and we've been exchanging a couple messages over the last few days. It's nice to hear from her, but the conversation feels so stiff anymore. I'm not really sure what to even do, whether it's even worth keeping in touch.
I feel good now, just in my own room.
At work i felt embarrassed since two girls were asking me lots of questions.
Where i live, if i had siblings etc. etc.
Just normal questions but it still felt awkward...
At work i felt embarrassed since two girls were asking me lots of questions.
Where i live, if i had siblings etc. etc.
Just normal questions but it still felt awkward...
Invisibleman
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Not too good after my sister embarassed me in front of all her friends.
DeadmanWalking
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I'm sorry about that. Have you gone to speak to her about it?
coyote
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find a little speck of something
dirt, paper, spinach, cookie crumb, whatever
and stick on your cheek or forehead
it'll drive your boss crazy staring it all day
especially if she doesn't want you to know she's looking at you, because she won't be able to say anything
BlueDays
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Sorry to hear you have an insensitive sister Invisibleman :s
As Deadman mentioned, have you spoken to her about what she did? Are you able to let her know how hurt you must feel that she behaved that way?
lonely_drummer
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Feeling overwhelmed yet excited to leave my grandparents tomorrow, there's too much drama here. I guess that's what happen in the middle of nowhere in Newfoundland. Also feeling a wee buzzzzed ha!
vexatiousmind
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I do not care about my life.
Srijita52
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^Please don't say that. All of us here care for you, you're very special for everyone here. Hope you feel better
I feel like banging my head against a wall for a while (don't worry, I won't). I feel tired. Not (only) physically tired, but emotionally. It's been a crappy year, and it's all sort of weighing down on me at once, right now. I'd like to think that next year will automagically fix everything, but I know better than that.
DeadmanWalking
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Well, the end to the macabre madness is almost here. With a new year comes a new start, new chances to turn things around. It won't magically change by itself now, you've got to put some effort in too. As for feeling tired, why not take a break and reflect? That should ease you down and let you unwind a bit, or I believe so anyway:
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BlueDays
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: Is there soemething you could do to distract your mind from thinking about all of the thoughts weighing you down atm? music? reading? good movie? Hang in there Pyrophosphate, you don't know what will happen next year. Something positive could be just around the corner for you.
Srijita52
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^I agree, we don't know what's going to happen next year but we can always hope and try our best. Hope you feel betterWell, the end to the macabre madness is almost here. With a new year comes a new start, new chances to turn things around. It won't magically change by itself now, you've got to put some effort in too. As for feeling tired, why not take a break and reflect? That should ease you down and let you unwind a bit, or I believe so anyway:
