How are you feeling?

[Phoenixx]

My, such violence. If I weren't used to stuff like that, I'd be truly terrified of you right about now. Although, the fact that I'm used to such levels of violence brings up questions as well. You do know that if you indeed do inflict that level of pain upon me that you will be the one taking care of me in the hospital and paying those bills? Sekinin wo torinasai (this should be easy to translate if you use Google:!

Anyway, aren't you glad to be awake and not lazy anymore? Now, instead of tickling, what would propose I do so we don't enter Mortal Kombat or something? Alarm clock the snot out of you?

^ I'd like to know how you're used to such levels of violence. D: That's awful.

If I did do any harm to you, I'm sure I would not have you wound up in the hospital. I'm really not that strong. I'm too small. XP

I've been awake, but I'm still lazy. I'd be up for Mortal Kombat though. The game. Not real life Mortal Kombat, no.

 

[dottie]

vulnerable. i feel like i am holding my breath waiting to be hurt/let down. like i already know it's going to happen.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

vulnerable. i feel like i am holding my breath waiting to be hurt/let down. like i already know it's going to happen.

Remember, the "self-fulfilling prophecy" thing? If you believe something, you will begin to act in a way that will cause it to come about. Now, what's got you feeling like this? Maybe talking it out may help ease your anxieties and make you calm again.

 

[dottie]

you're right... and i really do not want that. i stress out about my boyfriend. i get very possessive and jealous when he has friendships with females (in real life, online). i try not to let it show too much but i still FEEL it. how will i ever be able to tell if he is cheating on me?

 

[DeadmanWalking]

you're right... and i really do not want that. i stress out about my boyfriend. i get very possessive and jealous when he has friendships with females (in real life, online). i try not to let it show too much but i still FEEL it. how will i ever be able to tell if he is cheating on me?

I think it's alright to feel some sort of anxiety about that. After all, it shows that you care that much about him. The thing is to not let it take control of you. I'm not entirely sure about the signs of when someone is cheating on you because I've never been in a relationship, but I'd say check for changes or watch out for weird events. If his personality suddenly changes, like he becomes jumpy and/or irritable, or if he starts doing suspicious things, like he's got something to hide, or staying out late, then those may be signs that he's cheating on you. Ask others around here and see what kind of advice they can give you. I'm sorry I can't be much more help.

 

[Blannabers]

Yesterday, I was feeling good. I was like "Yeah! I feel good! I can do this!" then I get hit with 'it' again. I caught on to the idea that every time I feel great, something happens and then I feel sorry for getting up in spirits in the first place.

 

[she1slander]

a little tired. blahhhhhhhhh as per usual.

 

[vj288]

My body feels depressed. Emotionally I'm not fantastic but it definitely has been one of my better months. Lately I've been tired all the times, I'm sleeping through the night but when I wake up it feels like I never went to bed at all.

And the strangest thing, everyday this week my eyes have watered at some point while laying in bed while trying to fall asleep. I've been chalking it up to tiredness, but maybe it's my body trying to tell me something? I mean it's not crying but it's still weird.

 

[NathanielWingatePeaslee]

Veej, those could be symptoms of an allergy.

 

[vj288]

Veej, those could be symptoms of an allergy.

Wow, yeah that makes a lot more sense I feel a little silly now :: I get sick so rarely I usually don't even think of it as a possibility.

 

[LadyWench]

Not good. I had a pretty bad dream last night, and woke up with a panic attack. I'm still panicking and don't know what to do. I took Klonopin a few minutes ago, but that obviously takes a little time to go into effect. The weird thing is, I don't know why I'm panicking over this. I have bad dreams all the time. In fact, it's quite normal for me (unfortunately). I rarely ever actually panic over them, though. So, I don't know why this is happening. I can't call my therapist because she's on vacation all this week. I'm sure I could call the Counseling Center and talk to SOMEONE, but I don't know yet. I'm waiting for my mum to get up and everything so I can talk with her. I just hope I calm down soon. When my panic attacks get really bad, I end up throwing up (which is a huge phobia of mine). I try to prevent it getting to that point, but it's difficult.

 

[tenuous~hold]

Angry. Alone. Abandoned. Wondering why it is that everyone I'm close to just cuts me out of their lives, eventually. My sister has turned into a total bitch over the last 10 months and her new boyfriend is smug, stuck-up, condesending c-word. And I'm supposed to actually like this guy? Just because we both happen to like The Simpsons and Family Guy? F*%k the F*%k off!

See, I have a rather harsh rule of thumb - in order for me to actually like someone they must, at the very least, be likeable. Is that unfair on my part?

Mini-rant over.

family can be SO annoying! my sister was sending constant texts about how excited she was for xmas eve & this whole get-together that SHE HERSELF planned... then the day after xmas she sends a "hey guys" text explaining how stressed she is, how old things just don't work anymore, how she's not doing another xmas get-together & not accepting presents.

thing is, she's so ungrateful, & has taught her kids to be that way also, so i'm happy not to give presents (that won't be appreciated anyway, & will quickly be tossed out).

i just don't wanta deal with her bi-polar bull**** anymore! (as far as i know, she hasn't been diagnosed with that - she thinks she just has a social anxiety problem - but i think the way she's always so up & then down just leads me to the natural conclusion of bi-polar) she probably STILL goes shopping, puts a bunch of stuff in her cart, & then decides she doesn't want any of it afterall - that's just another example...

i could go on & on, but who's really gonna care?

 

[Silatuyok]

I feel like my soul has atrophied. I'm hoping a new year away from the computer will help me rediscover my lust for life.

 

[Mickery]

Literally?

 

[Silatuyok]

^Are you talking to me? lol

 

[Invisibleman]

I want to finally get a job so I made up my resume. I have to go in tomorrow and pass it in in person and im so scared. Ive said before I hate how SA makes me worried sick over the most stupid petty things. Even when I know they wont even care, its EB games the people there hate their jobs::

 

[Srijita52]

I want to finally get a job so I made up my resume. I have to go in tomorrow and pass it in in person and im so scared. Ive said before I hate how SA makes me worried sick over the most stupid petty things. Even when I know they wont even care, its EB games the people there hate their jobs::

^Yeah, I hate it too how my SA worries me about these stuff. But if you think its something important for you atm then maybe its worth
giving a try. Good luck!

 

[eternalnewb]

Happy that my computer is working again after almost 7 months without it.

 

[dottie]

open office environment. supervisor sits across from me, directly facing me. she micro-managingly stares all the time. she will just sit there and stare!!! she is constantly watching me and it stresses me out so bad.

this is not the first time or last time i will post about this. it drives me NUTS. have to gripe somewhere.

 

[Graeme1988]

Trying to come to terms with and deal with the implications of yesterday evening - I'll no forget Dec 29th 2011 for awhile. Nae f*%king chance.

Long story short, my 2 sisters has an argument, which isn't really surprising. Anyway, the oldest sister finally heard the truth - that she's changed. I'm just glad I didn't get involved - like I probably should have. Because I think once I'd started tell how it is, I wouldn't know where to stop. I'd have told my oldest sister not only how but why she's changed. She'd have left the house crying if she knew what I really think. And I'd have verbally laid waste to her new boyfriend - whom I've had the misfortune of meeting and don't have even a kind word for.

Oh, the joy of being part of a dysfunctional family. F*%k knows how I'm still sane.