How are you feeling?

Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Beatrice said:
Feeling better about my body. Don't know why, just spent some time in the mirror with some music on trying to admire what I liked about myself. It seems to have worked for a little while :) I'm going to enjoy the peace while I can! And now, to Wal-Mart! :)
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^ That's great! I love that feeling. Too bad that feeling doesn't last forever for me.
 
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Beatrice

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Phoenixx said:
^ That's great! I love that feeling. Too bad that feeling doesn't last forever for me.
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Yeah, didn't last for me, either. Got yet ANOTHER comment about my age, but I'm trying not to think about it because there is literally NOTHING I can do. I am what I am, depressing as it may be to me sometimes. Yep, could be worse.....

Eh, I have things to entertain myself anyway, I suppose. I guess the thing I'm most afraid of in the end is being alone and losing loved ones.

Random. Yup.
 
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^^^ I get that too. I am almost 20 and people think I am 14. My cousins looked older than me when they were 13.

Butt think about it this way, when you are older, you will still look young. It's a good thing trust me.
 
EscapeArtist

EscapeArtist

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Don't enjoy having a job. It interrupts the feeling of 'yay I can stay up all night because there is nothing I HAVE to dooooo"..... But it's way better than staying at home and messing with my life, so, meh.
 
CosmicNeurotica

CosmicNeurotica

Banned
absolutely defeated and lonely.
Nothing new here. And it's nothing new that I always say nothing new.

Same thing.
Every day.
Over.
And over.
And over.
Again.
 
Honda

Honda

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This forum sucks my positive energy away... It makes me mingle more with my weak and timid side..
 
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Feathers

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latte said:
this is the problem.
it all starts with little harmless lies until it gets to the point it's too late suddenly to change and tell the truth.

maybe it's a habit i have. i catch myself lying sometimes on unnecessary things when i didn't had any problem also saying the truth.

thank you phocas :) i hope she won't think i'm ignoring her on purpose and i'll have the opportunity to become friends with her.
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Well, maybe this girl likes you? :) Or at least likes you as a friend?
So maybe decide if you'd be interested in either of that... Even if you don't want to study, do you have such other busy plans?? Do you plan to pass the exam and finish that school or not?

If you have no intention of passing or finishing the school and have other plans, might as well tell her? If you do intend to pass but not this time, maybe in autumn, tell her that too?
No point that she might be worrying about you when you might have other plans??

Or do you just plan to study alone? (To hide you haven't been studying before?)
You can say something that is like, 'Sorry I have other plans' (apparently you do have other plans??) - maybe even say it's a 'family thing' or such.. (It's good to be honest though, you can maybe just omit some specifics or be vague..)
Maybe also say 'maybe next time' - or 'how about going for ice-cream after exam/next week' or something such if you don't want to study with her but would still like to hang out?

If none of the above is true, might as well study with her (you might learn more than alone??) and just say 'it's been a while since I looked into this so I forgot most of it' or such?? (You probably did at least look into it right?? At least at school/when writing it down at class?)
 
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missk029

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Feeling down but trying to get myself psyched for a concert later on today. I met someone earlier this week I had been chatting with on a dating site. It was a spur of the moment thing but I had a pretty good time, the guy was nice but I for some reason I felt like I wasn't really his type. We texted for the next few days and Friday night he said he wanted to see me the next day. I texted him when I got out of work, went home and took a nap then woke up to two texts from him saying he's gonna have to take a raincheck because he got into a car accident the night before. The next message was a pic of his car dented on the passenger side. Maybe I'm being insensitive but the car still looked driveable to me so it didn't sound like a good enough excuse to back out of a date. He knows I drive too so I wouldn't have had a problem picking him up. Anyway I'll just take it as him not being interested and move on. It just put me in a bad mood because it got me thinking about how other people have canceled on me before. Its a nice day out so I gotta get up and try to make today a better day.
 
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Beatrice

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I'm freaking out right now. Ever since yesterday I've had this weird sensation in my right ear, and sounds sound muffled in that ear, but amplified in the other. I'm wondering if it has to do with not taking my thyroid meds regularly because I'm running out and no insurance, but.... I didn't have this problem BEFORE taking my thyroid meds. I don't know....

Also, if what I have right now is "hyperacusis", or amplified hearing, it CAN be caused by migraines, but I don't have a migraine right now (though I'm not sure if you have to have a migraine at the time).

OR, something I'm REALLY freaking out about... it could just be sudden permanent hearing loss in one ear due to any number of different factors.

I don't listen to really loud music, I haven't had any kind of illness lately....

What's wrong with me????? I started crying and freaking out earlier, but I really shouldn't panic. This is scary though :( I have to go to work later, too, but I may have to cancel....

Edit: Okay, so I looked it up. It could just be ear obstruction from ear wax lodged deep in the ear (gross, I know, but it happens). And yes, I do clean my ears :p

It could also be due to allergies.

Hmmm, I just hope it goes away soon. But the obstruction, if that's what it is, has to be taken care of by a doctor. NO INSURANCE!!! S**t.

Edit II: So, I'm thinking this may be a lesson from god/zeus/the sentient universe.... to help me get over my BDD by appreciating the things I DO have like excellent hearing (except for today), decent vision, legs to walk on, etc. I'm not being serious, but I can certainly look at it that way :p

Sorry for the freakishly long "feeling" post :D
 
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Kathryn.fr

Kathryn.fr

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Feeling a little awesome. Went to a wedding of the family, wasn't as bad as I thought went great. Came out to my dad as transsexual, he's a bit upset that I couldn't just tell him before because I didn't exactly get to go to the wedding as I wanted. But he's supportive. :) So's the family.
 
Danfalc

Danfalc

Banned
Kathryn.fr said:
Came out to my dad as transsexual, he's a bit upset that I couldn't just tell him before because I didn't exactly get to go to the wedding as I wanted. But he's supportive. :) So's the family.
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Wow congratulations, that's huge. And really brave of you, I'm glad your Dad is supportive, makes life so much easier when the people we care about and family accept and support us.
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I'm feeling rough, but had a great weekend. I went out clubbing again last night. I still feel self concious and I couldn't dance much. But I bumped into people I haven't seen for years and it was nice. Even had random girls coming over to me and trying to get me to dance, starting to think maybe I am not such a horrible person and a social disaster as I thought.

Also feeling scared, I'm taking a huge step with something tomorrow, which will pretty much make me very ill and put my life on hold for at least a few weeks. I know I can get through it, I know I will, but I cant wait for it just to be over so I can finally lay that part of my life to rest.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Extremely tired. Didn't get much sleep last night, as the previous night (Friday). Insomnia f**king sucks.
 
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