How are you feeling?
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like a piece of ****......made a 59 on my final.
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Beatrice
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Horrid. But it's getting easier to manage these moods. I think. At least, in the sense that I kind of just apathetically accept whatever happens. For the most part anyway. I'm just done living. There doesn't seem to be any hope. I can't change what's making me miserable so I'll continue to be miserable. Until I die, whenever that will be. Haven't worked that out yet, but hopefully I will. Don't want to be around too long. Five years at the absolute most, I'm hoping.....
Apotheosis
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Old hippies looking for shroomcakes?
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
I have a pretty mean headache, which I think means that my blood pressure’s becoming an issue again… no more 3 am cheeseburgers. Ha Ha
MsBuzzkillington
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Nervous, very nervous. I have been working on this final project for my online class for a few weeks now. It's finally all together, it's finally done... but now I am too afraid to submit it. I am completely mentally drained from staring at the information. I don't know what to add, I don't know what to take away. But I am afraid to submit it, because that will be that... no more chances, no more fixes. Done... out of my control.
So nervous for no good reason.
So nervous for no good reason.
Kiwong
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Salvation Janes?
Lea
Banned
I am stressed out to the point of breakdown but I can´t afford to just stop going to work, even though I´m predominantly volunteering because what would they say.. besides I don't know if just a day of two off would help anything, because this is more or less my permanent state. I am not coping with life, so how can I live?? The only idea is to end it all which maybe is stupid but I can't think of anything more clever.
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Beatrice
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I'm feeling like..... once you're born you're stuck. My family would be devastated if I ended up somehow ceasing to exist, but..... I can't be "happy" just for them, for my entire life.
I'm just going to say it: I'm truly baffled by people who saw that video of my hands and told me they looked normal. Maybe if you guys saw them in real life... you'd understand. You'd see what I see.
It sounds silly to be so depressed over hands, and want to end your life, but I'm not the only one. In doing some Google searches I've found people online who have the same complex about their own hands.
Mine are just too small. But, worse than that.... my fingers really are too short. Like, ugly short. Seriously, I feel that they're hideous. As one of my acquaintances put it, "it looks like someone chopped the tips of your fingers off". Lovely, huh? Tell me you'd be interested in a girl who has baby hands, with fingers that look like THAT. Didn't think so.
I get even more depressed when I look at my sister...... I've never told her and I won't, because I'd feel mean saying it, but.... her hands are so small compared to her body. It just doesn't seem right. She's big-boned and has a mature face, but her hands are so tiny..... It makes me feel like we're a family of freaks. My grandfather's hands are the same way, as are my aunt's. My father's fingers are REALLY stubby, my mom told me. I got his hands, though my fingers aren't as short as his apparently.
My brother and my other sister got normal-sized hands with normal-length fingers. Lucky them. As did my other little brother and sister. My youngest sister has the longest loveliest fingers....... I'm insanely jealous. It's not like I can get plastic hand surgery, either. I'm stuck.
Yes, I know all this makes me insane but it's what's developed in my head over the course of a year and a half. So by now it's a compulsion and a source of despair. I'm a freak and I don't want to live any more, simple as that. I'm ready to die, I just have to find a way...... and somehow let me family know how sorry I am.
I'm just going to say it: I'm truly baffled by people who saw that video of my hands and told me they looked normal. Maybe if you guys saw them in real life... you'd understand. You'd see what I see.
It sounds silly to be so depressed over hands, and want to end your life, but I'm not the only one. In doing some Google searches I've found people online who have the same complex about their own hands.
Mine are just too small. But, worse than that.... my fingers really are too short. Like, ugly short. Seriously, I feel that they're hideous. As one of my acquaintances put it, "it looks like someone chopped the tips of your fingers off". Lovely, huh? Tell me you'd be interested in a girl who has baby hands, with fingers that look like THAT. Didn't think so.
I get even more depressed when I look at my sister...... I've never told her and I won't, because I'd feel mean saying it, but.... her hands are so small compared to her body. It just doesn't seem right. She's big-boned and has a mature face, but her hands are so tiny..... It makes me feel like we're a family of freaks. My grandfather's hands are the same way, as are my aunt's. My father's fingers are REALLY stubby, my mom told me. I got his hands, though my fingers aren't as short as his apparently.
My brother and my other sister got normal-sized hands with normal-length fingers. Lucky them. As did my other little brother and sister. My youngest sister has the longest loveliest fingers....... I'm insanely jealous. It's not like I can get plastic hand surgery, either. I'm stuck.
Yes, I know all this makes me insane but it's what's developed in my head over the course of a year and a half. So by now it's a compulsion and a source of despair. I'm a freak and I don't want to live any more, simple as that. I'm ready to die, I just have to find a way...... and somehow let me family know how sorry I am.
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Phoenixx
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^ An acquaintance of mine told me the other day, "Your hands are tiny! You have such short, stubby fingers!" >.> Yeah, thanks for reminding me.
I get even more depressed when I look at my sister...... I've never told her and I won't, because I'd feel mean saying it, but.... her hands are so small compared to her body. It just doesn't seem right. She's big-boned and has a mature face, but her hands are so tiny.....[/QUOTE]
^ I've always had a problem with this. I don't have a mature face, and I'm not exactly big boned, but my hands compared to my body... I absolutely hate it! My hands are so tiny compared to my body, which is probably one of the reasons why I believe I'm big. Even though people have told me I'm small, I just don't see it. I have pudge and I have a baby face. I could easily pass for 14. Not 18.
^ Yeah my brother has big hands. Not insanely big, but you know, they actually look normal. He's 6 inches taller than me too. And tanner. And has dark hair. Yeah, I kinda envy my brother's looks. I mean, that sounds kinda weird cuz I'm a girl, but I just feel sorta jipped when it comes to physical appearance. I have pale skin, I don't tan that well, but enough. I have super small hands, I'm really short (something I'm reminded of nearly every day >.<), I have a bigger lower body and smaller upper body, and ironically I have long feet. I'm just so disproportional.
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Beatrice
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Wow, that's SO RUDE, that someone would say that to you about your hands! I HATE PEOPLE. I really hate them. Ever since I was little I never fit in. First it was socially, now it's socially AND physically. FML. But really, I can't believe someone would say that to you. I'm sorry, but what *******s, seriously.
I look young, too. I get 12 a lot, with no makeup on. With makeup.... 16 at the oldest. "You'll love it when you're older!" Yeah, too bad I'm not going to make it to being "older". *snort*
Phoenixx
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^ Yeah I thought she was being quite rude. I just ignored her, but it still hurt nonetheless. Yeah I wear hardly any makeup, only foundation really. As embarrassing as this sounds, I'm actually going to try and change my appearance this summer (Like, wear more makeup) so when I go to college, I don't get totally mistaken for a 14 year old.
Beyond Timid
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I'm bored. I just wanna talk to someone. Which is exactly why I'm on here.
Mickery
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Do you know what the worst part of BDD is? It's incredibly upsetting and frustrating to see in other people, even though you have it yourself.
Though now I think, it's a good way of making yourself see sense.
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