Don't be so hard on yourself illumination! You seem to be going through one hell of a tough time at the moment. Give yourself time man!
Incidently, there are other places that girl could have chosen to walk during that group walk, but she chose to walk it beside you. Maybe there might be another opportunity to talk to her again, don't despair.
True. I should give myself a little credit, I think. Thank you, Mandy.
I know I would probably walk by someone I wanted to talk to
Or I'll just be too scared. I know...
I dont want to sleep tonight 'cause I dont want to wake up tomorrow. Darkness has become a friend of mine. If only there was no tomorrow. I dont want to go to school and see those faces again.
Weird.
When I took the bus (it was a "bendy bus") on my way back home about half an hour ago, there was this woman (early to mid twenties) sitting ahead of me, but facing my direction. I noticed that she was staring at me, so every few seconds I looked in her direction in order to check whether she was still staring. Whenever I stole a glance at her, our eyes met (because she was still staring!). She probably thought I was checking her out, haha; but I swear, I wasn't!
That wasn't the end of it, though... A few minutes later, she left her seat and sat right next to me (oh uh). I was so freaked out that I got off the bus a minute later.
oh man, why can't I just be normal?!