Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Yeah, that's pretty much my life, outside of getting out to the odd concert or comedy show.
How are you feeling?
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Yeah, that's pretty much my life, outside of getting out to the odd concert or comedy show.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Burned out. Lately, I've been feeling more tired during the day than at night. Nae idea what's going on there. :idontknow:
defiance
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Damn man that hit too close to home.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
It does, doesn't it? :sad: It's the opening verse to the song, Everyday Is Exactly the Same by Nine Inch Nails.
Just in case ye thought I was clever enough to come up with that on my own.
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Life is what happens while you're making other plans, it's also what happens while you're stuck at dog-shit zero. At least normal people can make plans, I'm ****ing chained around my own monument to nothingness and despair, maaaaaaan.
You shouldn't have to get old AND have social phobia.
You shouldn't have to get old AND have social phobia.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Even though I'm still fairly young, I can definitely relate. :sad:
GraybeardGhost
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Damn straight. I can make the plans and dream the dreams, but in my heart I know I'm just fooling myself because this is who I am, and this is where I am, and that's how it's going to be 'til I turn up my toes and start pushing up the daisies. As for that, any day now would be fine with me.
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defiance
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This morning I wake up and the first thing I look at is the belt next to me. All I could think about at that moment was "today could be the day your pain can end. Wait until everyone is out of the house and you can hang yourself and drift into freedom." Not going to lie it was incredibly tempting. Yet, for the sake of one person, my Mom, not having to suffer a fate of losing a child like that I continue to exist. Notice I didn't say live because I stopped doing that years ago. At least if I die in my sleep I can't be held accountable for it and it would make the pain less for my family as opposed to me ending it.
theslowesthand
Banned
Been abroad, bit aggro/nervy/action/restless/rushing as is always the case after being abroad. So: strong coffee, chocolate & biscuits, beer - yep, i'm going "hard out"! (crazy binging for crazy stress)
FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
You have to throttle it.
Go full Boston Strangler on that sumbitch, then bury your face into it and scream.
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defiance
Well-known member
Don't want to see another day. Words cannot express how tired I am of all of it. I can't connect to anything and just about everything makes me anxious and scared. The fact that there are now people that look at my age and see my situation doesn't make it any better as they start to judge you for what you don't have such as a good job or being married and so forth. I find no meaning in anything anymore no matter how hard I try. I mean it is up to us to put meaning into anything really but I can't even do that. Everything feels cold and numb to me. Again .... I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY don't want to be here anymore and would prefer the eternal sleep.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Same here, mate. As far as feeling a lack of connection, and scared of everything. :sad:
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Don't know how much longer I can put up with my mum's eccentric behaviour? :idontknow:
It stopped being hysterically funny and cute a long time ago. Now, it's just embarrassing. :kickingmyself:
I wish I had enough money to just move away... away from my family, away from shitty, infamous, wee town in which ah live.
It stopped being hysterically funny and cute a long time ago. Now, it's just embarrassing. :kickingmyself:
I wish I had enough money to just move away... away from my family, away from shitty, infamous, wee town in which ah live.
defiance
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Isn't it funny how money can solve some of our biggest issues? In your case it would be to move away and in my case I could use it to tell those who are judging me for not having a job to f**k off. And also to buy a house fully payed off and make fun of them for having a mortgage just so they can get a little taste of their own medicine.
Hot_Tamale
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I would advise you not to start off by looking for paid work all the time, that's "putting the cart before the horse" so to speak. Companies always hire people from the inside already. I volunteered at a hospital for a few years, even though I still don't have a job at that hospital I got interviewed for positions they had because they knew who I was! On job postings "experience" doesn't have to mean "paid experience" and companies near you could use you.
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theslowesthand
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Day by day, i'm getting more & more restless, in every way :bigsmile: (good excuse to drink beer)
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theslowesthand
Banned
So you reckon you live in the "an.us of the world"?
I thought it was a town in my country, at the bottom of the world
theslowesthand
Banned
Although i'm not that far gone, i do sense my aggressiveness/irritability/restlessness rising up lately. I'm wondering if diet is the cause (too much junk foods, too much coffee in my moffee, too much dark chocolate, eating less overall) :question:I feel like smashing all of the plates and glasses in my kitchen.
But I am too poor to be doing that.
Punching a pillow just does not do my anger justice right now.
Btw This is just a thought .. could you afford to buy some dirt-cheap plates/etc at a thrift store? (and you can then smash them to your heart's content without worrying about the money) :question:
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Metal_isthe_Answer
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First off, hi peeps, its been a while since I've been here. So how am I feeling? Really upset.
My cat woke me up messing with my window blinds, I got up move my dresser aside so he can't get back there, got back on bed and went to sleep with on my chest.
Woke up, he leaves my room, walks around, usual stuff. I put my shows on to go to work, he jumps on the table and make a growling/groaning sound. I get up to look and he's unconscious (never happened before). Took him to an animal hospital and he had already passed away. Apparently a heart failure.
I had a test a little over a month ago cause the vet heard a murmur, but I didn't hear back from them (i think they called the wrong number). After call I g the today they told me they left a message that he had an advanced murmur, I've been feeling g extra terrible cause I feel like its my fault. Maybe if I had acted quicker or more proactively hrs still be here. But at the same time, if it was advanced enough there might have been nothing they could do.
Well anyway that was my day. I had a cat previously that had feline leukemia, I don't intend to get another cat anytime soon, this past cat was a "replacement" for the other, just filled with a sad emptiness of not having a pet. Now though I almost feel cursed, like I'm dooming the next pet I get.
My cat woke me up messing with my window blinds, I got up move my dresser aside so he can't get back there, got back on bed and went to sleep with on my chest.
Woke up, he leaves my room, walks around, usual stuff. I put my shows on to go to work, he jumps on the table and make a growling/groaning sound. I get up to look and he's unconscious (never happened before). Took him to an animal hospital and he had already passed away. Apparently a heart failure.
I had a test a little over a month ago cause the vet heard a murmur, but I didn't hear back from them (i think they called the wrong number). After call I g the today they told me they left a message that he had an advanced murmur, I've been feeling g extra terrible cause I feel like its my fault. Maybe if I had acted quicker or more proactively hrs still be here. But at the same time, if it was advanced enough there might have been nothing they could do.
Well anyway that was my day. I had a cat previously that had feline leukemia, I don't intend to get another cat anytime soon, this past cat was a "replacement" for the other, just filled with a sad emptiness of not having a pet. Now though I almost feel cursed, like I'm dooming the next pet I get.