I tried to improve my looks too and I just don't have the motivation.
I don't either. So you're not the only one.
You use British pounds in Scotland right?
Aye, like the rest of the UK. Though, back in 2014, there was talk of possibly scrapping it if Scotland were to become independent.
And yea you kind of have to because it you might get sick.
True. But that whole situation with food and drink could've been avoid if my mum just bought it all a week before the family visit.
Oh, your sister lives in Scotland too right? If is to personal you don't have to answer.
One of them does - the oldest sister still lives in Scotland. My older sister - the middle child - lives over in Northern Ireland.
Bad because I don't look good and I get it pointed out by my family member a lot. That makes me more self conscious.
Oh. It's the exact opposite with me, and I feel just as self conscious at having my appearance critiqued positively by my family. :idontknow:
But that was in school, people still think of you this way? How does being chubby gives you that perception?
Well, I don't know for sure, but I get the feeling that's the vibe I give off. What with being quite shy, quiet and introverted. Not to mention the bushy beard on ma face.
And I have had my size and height pointed out to me more than once within the last year. Mainly during my hospital checkup appointments and during my rehab from surgery. Not a negative way, certainly. But enough to make me more self-aware of my height and body type. As well as me pumping those dumbell weights, so my arms are quite big.
Oh, and there was that really awkward experience in Edinburgh last year.
Oh, that means you can change rapidly for the worse?
Kinda. But I try not to let my temper get the better of me nowadays. I was inclined to be like that when I was younger. Though, if ye nag, or repeatedly pressure me to do something - that'll piss me off.
What dual identity did you have to come to terms with?
Oh, it was just the whole bi-racial issue in terms of national identity. After my dad passed away, it kinda brought this issue to the forefront when my oldest sister made a passing reference to how I'd probably eligable for dual Kenyan citizenship if I applied for it, given my parentage. And this made me realise I've only ever identified with my place of birth, and never really acknowledged my African roots, for lack of better word.
Who were you trying to fit in with that you felt you didn't fit in due to a lighter skin tone?
Those around me for the part - Scottish people. But being a brown, feckle-faced lad, I've always felt I didn't, or found it fit in.
Yeah, they were.
Oh that sucks, did you try making friends with the family the guy raised?
My half-siblings on my dad's side? No, I never did. Simply because I would've just felt like the odd one out. In that, knowing my dad, my other sibling would've probably been more sophisticated and cultured than me.
I mean, I've met 2 my sisters on my dad's side of the family. I even went my first-ever music concert with one of them. But never really felt a connection with 'em. Since we grow up apart, and in different parts of the south of Scotland. Me, very much a city boy; my dad's side of the family more rual, out in the country.
That's prejudice on their part, with all due respect to your family.
Oh, I know... But they've kinda come to like and appreciate some of more alternative/indie rock bands I enjoy listening to. Though, they're still don't get why I'm such a metalhead or lover of classical instrumental music.
They shouldn't think that their brother is a waste of space!
I know, they shouldn't. But those remarks were made. Hell, even my mum frequently liked to remind me that I was
"effin' useless" throughout my teens, whenever I did something wrong. Even to this day, I wonder if, either, my mum or my sisters still feel this way about me? That I'm a waste of space. :sad: :question:
How does being conservative matter in teaching you about sex?
Oh, my mum's also conservative in the sense of being a deeply religious Christian wummin. Therefore, a prude when it came to talking about sex.
