How are you feeling?

[Louco]

Gnashing my teeth like I'm already in hell. I feel like most of the soft tissues in my body are sore and hurting. I just can't make a phone call for seeing a doctor. I can't ask someone else to make the call for me if said person will give me criticism or say something else to show how I shouldn't be asking for such a simple thing.

Why am I even writing this here though? It's not like it makes me feel better...

 

[GraybeardGhost]

I feel like nobody needs me or wants me—in any capacity—and I really can't blame them. I'm a disappointment to the universe, a wreck upon the hostile shores of life. My parents, teachers, mentors would be so ashamed to see me now. That much, at least, we have in common. :sad:

 

[Graeme1988]

I feel like nobody needs me or wants me—in any capacity—and I really can't blame them. I'm a disappointment to the universe, a wreck upon the hostile shores of life. My parents, teachers, mentors would be so ashamed to see me now. That much, at least, we have in common. :sad:

Aye, that's how ah've felt for the last month or so... :sad:

 

[grapevine]

bloated/mentally tired/want to give up and hide away for awhile

 

[Graeme1988]

Thought about doing away with myself, as sad as that sounds. :sad:
But I'm just tired o' feelin' like a burden tae ma family.
Fed-up with constantly feelin' like ah've got to change who I am on a daily basis just to please them over myself.

The amount o' nonsense and stress ah've hud to put up with over the years...
You'd think they'd be grateful that I'm nicer to them than they are to me.

 

[defiance]

I want to smash my head against a wall until the blood starts running down my face. That's how I'm feeling.

 

[GraybeardGhost]

Tired and flailing, impulses pulling me this way and that, but without the energy or focus to follow through. So much to do; so little getting done.

Was life always this way? Were there not busy days of work and satisfaction when sleeping in the afternoon—every afternoon—was not even a thought? What happened to the guy I used to be? I'd like to call him up and ask, but I'm afraid I lost his number long ago.

 

[Kiwong]

Went back to on line shopping. Can't face going into supermarkets where I feel like I am being watched and followed.

 

[PugofCrydee]

Guilty.

Someone at work stole something and the bosses are looking at us all like we did it. I know I didn't do it, but I feel like... guilty. Or like they think I did it.

Fking stupid huh.

 

[grapevine]

Hideous and axnious of walking into a lightened room, of walking into the bathroom to have a shower--- of the phobia of mirrors and my reflection .. and anxious of a thing I dont know whether to pursue tomorrow afternoon or not that I know will make me feel worse in the short term and tip me over the edge but something that I year for in the long term.

 

[Graeme1988]

Lied to and let down again... :sad: Which is nothin' new for my family, they're always like that. Say what they think ah want to here, instead o' being honest.

So how many more chances should ah give ma oldest sister? Considering she's lied to me, numerous times as well as, humilated me in public and back-tracked on things we previously agreed to more than once. Because I'm getting pretty close to just giving up on her and rest o' them.

Why bother talking me intae going somewhere for the weekend, if ye don't huv an intent on actually going? Tired o' being taken advantage of, treat like an eejit, and huvin ma time wasted. :veryangry:

 

[defiance]

Went for a walk late last night because it was nice a cool for a change. As I was passing by these tall buildings all I thought about was "hmm a fall from that height would definitely kill me":sad:

 

[defiance]

I hate this existence oh so much.

 

[mantishugo]

Don't feel bad. I know how it feels but try to comfort your feelings by trying to think about all those positive things in your life. Change your thinking habits. We tend to think about negative aspects of life. Then we feel even worse. If you get a chance then drink Noni fruit juice. It helps to release mental stress by stopping the "sad" hormone secretion. I've tried it.

 

[grapevine]

So ugly and overwhelemed and stuff. Gotta unwind and write in journal. Have a hot shower maybe bath and then get into bed and write and all that.

 

[treegirl]

Like I have many faces. Not the 'I am deceptive/I am inauthentic' definition of wearing many faces, the I have split personalties definition. Like I can't decide who I am and what my true perception is of a situation because I have many.

 

[defiance]

Just want to cry. What does someone like me have to look forward to? I don't know what I'm going to do man because I am beyond lost.

 

[Graeme1988]

Don't see much in livin' anymore, despite huvin somethin' to live for.
Too bad what I'm livin' for isn't ma family... :sad: They'd be better of without me, really.

 

[Opaline]

It's a tiny bit... frustrating, to feel such warm and deep feelings about someone and to be unable to put it into words without sounding terribly corny ;p

But I suppose actions count more than feelings anyway, eh? Or are a result of them.

 

[zharl]

A little attacked and defensive at the moment, but I'll get over it. I'm gonna have a beer.