How are you feeling?

Not great, having moments where I believe I can get out of this mental hole, but day after day I look up and I'm still there

A little worried, I've had this pounding pressure in my forehead for the last week or so. It makes it hard to look straight.

Now, this happening isn't uncommon, it comes and goes, but it typically doesn't last this long. I reckon it must be stress.

Lonely.

I also wish I could trust my ideas more often.

TryAgain said: ↑

I also wish I could trust my ideas more often.

Same here... I also wish I didn't doubt myself as much as I do either.

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Same here... I also wish I didn't doubt myself as much as I do either.

So much of our self esteem and believing in our ideas comes from the affirmation of others believing in us. I have found this to be the case so much so. There are some really untalented people who have bad ideas but gave gotten all kinds of constant affermations that they are great at things, and gifted that they believe it so. I think our parents really pave the way for how good we feel about ourselves in this world. I have seen it first hand, the way some parents give all of their efforts to the children, this making for an adult in most cases that has very high self worth. All of the child's achievements are center stage to the parents. They make every effort to give the child constant praise and reward them with gifts. How could you feel nothing but proud of yourself in this environment as a child? And if they are struggling they would make sure the child got the best tudors to help them. There is always someone who loves you and believes in you. There's always an adult to help you in the world and make you feel good about yourself. Must be nice for those kids! It's easy to believe in yourself when you have that kind of support system. The rest of us have to learn to do it on our own, and that is really, really unfair.

I think I need to reboot today

Down , plain down. Either I havent done enough for myself, and I feel as if I have bad luck

Still annoyed that the "Multiple Quote" button is gone from SPW. I really miss it! :thumbdown:

I want to reply to 3 different posts like you used to be able to do, but I don't have the time to open this site in 3 different tabs with the 3 different quotes and copy and paste all three into one. :sad:

I feel so old. Constantly running. I'm tired. I just want to sleep for a year.

nodejesque said: ↑

I feel so old. Constantly running. I'm tired. I just want to sleep for a year.

^ Sounds like you are suffering from burnout. :sad:
Can you save up for a vacation somewhere where you can totally relax and refresh your mind and body? When was the last time you had a vacation? It does not have to be an expensive one, just being away from your everyday routine and work can be refreshing.

Lonely. Not from being alone I think, but from being unable to make connections or enjoy most people's company. I don't know how to like people anymore.

I'm feeling so tired and bored of everything.

I am starting to hate my life.. I treat people kindly, but in the end, all they do is hurt me, use me and take advantage of me. Are all people like this?? I am feeling so down right now...

AlienGeranium said: ↑

Lonely. Not from being alone I think, but from being unable to make connections or enjoy most people's company. I don't know how to like people anymore.

Yep! Ah've been feelin' this way as well lately.

Halym said: ↑

I am starting to hate my life.. I treat people kindly, but in the end, all they do is hurt me, use me and take advantage of me. Are all people like this?? I am feeling so down right now...

^ This has been my life for a few years now, Halym. As depressing as it sounds, yer not alone in how yer feelin'.

Also, not all people are like how you described. But people who treat you as you treat them are rare nowadays. Or, at least, seem to be.

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Feel awful tonight. Meh, guess this depression and loneliness is returning. Every time I feel alright, it seems to only come in short bursts. The anxiety and crazy in me always wins.

I hate being in the wake of my anxiety almost as much as I hate being in the swell of it.

peakwary said: ↑

I'm feeling so tired and bored of everything.

Hey! Me too!

Sick of this world.

I wish I was born just after World War II, when there were jobs available for anyone who wanted one. Manufacturing had not been shipped off to China for slave labor wages yet.
An average family house was not 7 to 10 times the annual salary like they are in my country now.
If you trained for a specific job there were always jobs available in that field for new graduates.
If you worked full-time you could at least afford to pay the rent and then not struggle to afford enough food.

Unless you were born into a wealthy family, the future is so bleak.

Taken advantage of and not being able to deal with the repercussions. I kept lending someone money who had nothing and needed someone to help them get on their feet with no one else, but now a year later my savings are gone. Every time things started going well something went wrong and set her back. I was supposed to get paid back with a life savings check, but every day over the last week something has prevented it from being given to me. I try not to be cynical, but it all seems to be too convenient. I don't have a car anymore and would need to get paid back to get a new one. If I don't get that money in the next few days I don't know what I'm going to do. It's my own fault, I shouldn't have been so trusting, but now I feel my options are few and dark because of it.

AlienGeranium said: ↑

Taken advantage of and not being able to deal with the repercussions. I kept lending someone money who had nothing and needed someone to help them get on their feet with no one else, but now a year later my savings are gone. Every time things started going well something went wrong and set her back. I was supposed to get paid back with a life savings check, but every day over the last week something has prevented it from being given to me. I try not to be cynical, but it all seems to be too convenient. I don't have a car anymore and would need to get paid back to get a new one. If I don't get that money in the next few days I don't know what I'm going to do. It's my own fault, I shouldn't have been so trusting, but now I feel my options are few and dark because of it.

That's horrible.

I loaned my brother a lot of money a few years ago and he's never paid me back a single cent. If it wasn't for my mother I'd take him to small claims court, but that would just hurt her, so I simply have to take the loss. It's just one more thing on the pile of stupid, shitty, things he's done over the last fifteen years.

Any way, if you've documented the loan and have emails, or other proof saying that she'd pay you back, then you could probably take her to court and win easily.

Of course, I know social phobia likely makes that hard, but at least it's an option.