Relieved. Went hiking today and we're up on a ridge that looked down about 500 feet below. My poor dog almost fell off of it, being older and out of shape he lost his way and almost dove off a cliff!
Was soooo pretty up there though. Majestic.
Glad to be home and safe with only a dew claw injury.
Relieved. Went hiking today and we're up on a ridge that looked down about 500 feet below. My poor dog almost fell off of it, being older and out of shape he lost his way and almost dove off a cliff!
Was soooo pretty up there though. Majestic.
Glad to be home and safe with only a dew claw injury.
I'm ecstatic to be alive!! My boyfriend and I played with a Ouiji board this past Monday and it spelled my initials before "death soon 7/3/15" so there was a SLIGHT chance I was going to die yesterday. But I'm still here, thank God! **** Satan.
^ You think that those of us who get letdown often would soon become desensitised to it huh?
No matter how many times it happens it still hurts a lot. Is that the case with you too, Graeme?
Sorry to hear someone has done this to you again. :sad:
The few things I have control of in my life seem to be getting fewer and fewer. I am suffocating.
Just want to get in my car and drive. For hours and hours, and never come back.
^ You think that those of us who get letdown often would soon become desensitised to it huh?
No matter how many times it happens it still hurts a lot. Is that the case with you too, Graeme?
Sorry to hear someone has done this to you again. :sad:
Och, nae danger - that means "it's okay". Am really used to it by now. Aye, it still hurts, but only cuz it always ma family who do it, as per usual. And ah always give 'em the benefit o' the doubt, every time, like the dumb, *****-whipped c**t ah um :kickingmyself: Whit d'ye expect living with an' being raised by a feminist?
Ah just wheesht an' get oan with it! Cuz ma family huv always used ma word against me, even when am right, am f***in' wrong.
Sorry about the rant, ah've just been pissed as of late - asking for help in tidying the house an' huvin to do it myself.
Kind of paranoid...
I walked to go get some tea and 2 guys drove by kind of slowly and stared at me. I'm not sure if maybe they recognize me from somewhere or what. I was sweaty as **** because it's, like, 100 degrees outside, so that was embarrassing too...
I don't think I can express how bad I feel in words, and have felt for a while now on and off (but mostly on). My sisters are going somewhere tomorrow (I don't want to see the person they're seeing) and I can't bear the thought of being without them even a day.
There are people who like me and try to get me to hang out with them but 90% of the time I push them away. I don't want to but I'm too insecure now.
I want to go to the hospital... but I'm too insecure even to do that. I can't take any more loneliness (internally because I'm not even isolated), conflict or anxiety. I want to push EVERYONE away and tell them all to go to hell and at the same time I think the problem is all my fault. I don't know how to feel better. I think I'll just disappear. Stay in my room, stay off my phone, just keep to myself. That will make it worse but it seems no matter what I do I'm depressed. At least I won't have to worry about other people's bullshit.
I don't think I can express how bad I feel in words, and have felt for a while now on and off (but mostly on). My sisters are going somewhere tomorrow (I don't want to see the person they're seeing) and I can't bear the thought of being without them even a day.
There are people who like me and try to get me to hang out with them but 90% of the time I push them away. I don't want to but I'm too insecure now.
I want to go to the hospital... but I'm too insecure even to do that. I can't take any more loneliness (internally because I'm not even isolated), conflict or anxiety. I want to push EVERYONE away and tell them all to go to hell and at the same time I think the problem is all my fault. I don't know how to feel better. I think I'll just disappear. Stay in my room, stay off my phone, just keep to myself. That will make it worse but it seems no matter what I do I'm depressed. At least I won't have to worry about other people's bullshit.
:sad: have you got a good book for tomorrow? or something to distract you ? wait why do you want to go to hospital?
We got a second chance to do an assessment at school tomorrow after it went horrible today, we were lucky already on that because there shouldn't be a second chance here, then the two teachers meet us and say we don't have to do it anymore tomorrow and we can prepare for the final presentation on Friday which is more important. I suppose I should feel good.
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