How are you feeling?

S_Spartan said: ↑

Tell them that you can't text right now cause you got diarrhea.

That's what my grandma always does, it works for her. 😀

Zaki said: ↑

Haven't been truly happy in so long...

I could go on and on but ain't nobody got time for that, so I'll try to keep it short. I've experienced a lot of abandonment, hurt, and betrayal. Although I try to be there for others as best I can given my circumstances and many issues, no one really cares whether I live or die. The main source of my anxiety and low self-esteem is something I am unable to change because it would cost a boatload of money to fix, and I'm not Oprah Winfrey. Basically, the bulk of my experiences has sent me the message that I don't matter, and I feel like a lost cause. Sorry for being whiny and annoying. Feel free to disregard.

Buckin' hell, ah cun relate... Which is depressin'. :sad:

Zaki said: ↑

I could go on and on but ain't nobody got time for that, so I'll try to keep it short. I've experienced a lot of abandonment, hurt, and betrayal. Although I try to be there for others as best I can given my circumstances and many issues, no one really cares whether I live or die. The main source of my anxiety and low self-esteem is something I am unable to change because it would cost a boatload of money to fix, and I'm not Oprah Winfrey. Basically, the bulk of my experiences has sent me the message that I don't matter, and I feel like a lost cause. Sorry for being whiny and annoying. Feel free to disregard.

Oh god sorry I completely misread your post. I thought you said you haven't been this truly happy in forever, meaning you are really happy right now. I'm sorry 🙁

S_Spartan said: ↑

Tell them that you can't text right now cause you got diarrhea.

Do you know I would but this particular person would probably want to talk about that :omg:

Jim Carrey's Twitter is making me cry tears of laughter. It's like he's constantly high.

BOING!

I freaking hate humans

I'm feeling like things always seem to go so wrong for me. Whether it's my health, or the chance of doing something social. I should never get my hopes up since it's simply an idiotic thing to do, I should know by this point that nothing ever works out the way I may idealize it to. It's probably just because I am this person that I've become, but it still hurts.

I'm not sure if my mom is being an utter asswipe or whether I'm just an ungrateful son.

Re: I freaking hate humans

Psychedelicious said: ↑

I'm feeling like things always seem to go so wrong for me. Whether it's my health, or the chance of doing something social. I should never get my hopes up since it's simply an idiotic thing to do, I should know by this point that nothing ever works out the way I may idealize it to. It's probably just because I am this person that I've become, but it still hurts.

Life does require some of us to keep our expectations very close to zero.

It's taken me 43 years to even begin to not give a ****.

Real beauty is talking to a teenager, and making the realization that they're already way more comfortable socially than you'll ever be.

I had to make idle conversation with a plumber yesterday who was maybe 19, and the chasm between our levels of adjustment was staggering.

I feel like a dog chasing the dot of a laser pen at this point.

I feel good.

I bought three twelve packs of Mountain Dew Baja Blast last night and we're steadily making way.

Ugh... yeah... no... *vomit*

**** people are stupid sometimes. Can I be a different animal? A falcon. I'd like to be a falcon. A peregrine falcon.

3... 2... 1...

DONE.

Opaline said: ↑

Ugh... yeah... no... *vomit*

Baja Blast has electrolytes.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

Baja Blast has electrolytes.

Not hungover but thanks haha. Does it though? Don't you mean Gatorade? Funny you mentioned Baja blast though, my brother bought a case of it two days ago and offered me one. Mountain Dew is disgusting 😛

I should buy groceries but I don't want to leave the house because I fear being among people, especially today.

I've been invited to a party. I should go, but the person who invited me is not someone I'm completely comfortable with. If it had been someone else I would almost definitely go. I've met most of the other people she's invited, and they aren't rude or anything, but they're all friends already and the party I went to with them was awkward because everyone knew each other and I was literally the only person there who only knew the friend I went with - and of course she knew them, so guess who ended up feeling alone? They were nice enough but clearly interested in their own social circle, and them being drunk didn't help that aspect of it either.

Basically I don't know if I should go or not. I MIGHT have a good time, but then it could be just a repeat of last time. Not sure what to do.

...I AM going to a party this week. It's been a while. I don't even know what to wear :/

This should be fun, right? Aren't parties supposed to be fun? Minus the unwanted pregnancies and projectile vomiting that is.

Hah, juuuuuuuust kidding...

Working with construction site people today and I don't like it very much. I know they all think I am some tree hugging weirdo......

Blah. Lots of work to do in such little time and I'm already finding myself procrastinating. :thumbdown: Get your crap together!

I'm exhausted. Looking forward to a nice weekend... Doing NOTHING. Just sleeping, eating, and reading. Ugh. Hurry up Friday!