F-f-f-frazzled. Had to call the apartment office about my rent payment, liability insurance, and lease renewal. All went well, but my hands are still shaking from the anxiety. Gotta get outta this place somehow.
F-f-f-frazzled. Had to call the apartment office about my rent payment, liability insurance, and lease renewal. All went well, but my hands are still shaking from the anxiety. Gotta get outta this place somehow.
You did it though, and I assume it went well in spite of your fear? What counts is that you did it.
I had to do something similar today, involving asking for my money back. Gulp. I was pretty nervous too.
I realise I am not lonely, living alone is great. I wouldn’t want to live with anyone again, that would be uncomfortable for me. What I need to do is change myself, or my anxiety, enough so that people no longer react to it, or react less to it. Sunglasses give me a little protection, without them seems like walking on a trapeze without anything protecting my fall. And things go wrong all the time, when I expose myself to social interaction. That is what causes me so much fear and despair. One answer is to avoid. I keep doing things out of a desire not to let my anxiety win, but then I wonder is this out of a stubborness not to avoid, or is it simply because that thing is no longer enjoyable. The thing I miss most is the ability to have a conversation with someone, without fear.
You did it though, and I assume it went well in spite of your fear? What counts is that you did it.
I had to do something similar today, involving asking for my money back. Gulp. I was pretty nervous too.
Yes, it went well. 🙂 I think that had a lot to do with spontaneity. I ran into a problem when I went to pay my rent online, and instead of fretting about it, I just picked up the phone and dialed. By not taking the time to think about it and imagine all the possible negative outcomes, I avoided working myself into an anxious lather. It helped that the woman who answered the phone is someone I've known for years, so we have at least some rapport. I did falter a bit when the conversation switched to the insurance and lease issues, because I was completely unprepared to discuss them, but even that wasn't too bad. In all, another job well done, as Mr. Natural would say.
I was pleased to see that your phone call went okay, too. :thumbup:
I feel like I'm annoying people. I don't want them to think something's wrong and make them worry. Sometimes I get kinda moody especially during certain times of the month. I can't help it, but I want to get it under control somehow.
I feel like I'm annoying people. I don't want them to think something's wrong and make them worry. Sometimes I get kinda moody especially during certain times of the month. I can't help it, but I want to get it under control somehow.
Ah feel the same way. Ah can be a right grumpy auld b@stard at times. Also, suppressin' the urge tae use the words "F**k" and "Off!" in the same sentence isnae good fur ye. Because there's times when thae words need tae be said n' ye cannae hint at them, especially when somebuddy's gettin' on yur tits n' will'nae shut up. But then ah should probably tell masel' tae shut ma gob every noo n' again. 🤭
I feel very very dumb! So yesterday, I had a convo with my cousin. I knew he was C's brother, but for some weird, crazy, unknown reason I kept asking "who are you?" My mom already told me, before handing the phone over to me, that I would be speaking with C's brother (he only had 1 brother). :kickingmyself: Is it just me or did my IQ drop like 60 points during social interaction? I feel like screaming or something. I don't know why, but I have this habit of asking STUPID questions that I already KNOW the answers to! :sarcastic: What the h*ll is wrong with me?!
I can't help but beat myself over it. :kickingmyself:
Fiona contacted me overnight, saying thanks for my Christmas card ten weeks late and saying that things haven't been so good for her. I'm feeling a mixture of happy that she's contacted me after months of silence, sadness that things haven't gone well for her recently, and old, old, repressed feelings I've had for her coming out that I don't want to feel again.
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