F**kin' ugly. Sorry, am still reelin' fae yet another o' ma oldest sister's "sarcastic, joke" comments aboot ma appearance again, the other day. Metaphorically speakin', am a broken vase. Just a f**kin' worthless husk! :crying:
Nae self-esteem, nae confidence, nae nuthin'. Ah used tae huv the auld self-esteem n' confidence when ah wuz a wee lad, a cheeky wee gobshite who'd huv a comeback fur any f**ker that'd try n' get the better o' me. Not so much now, though...
The irony being, of course, ma oldest sister doesnae like it when ah talk-back to her, always got tae be nice. Because am nice tae everybuddy. But she can be a condesending, arrogant, sactimonious c**t towards me, talk tae me like am an effin' child 'n' ah just huv tae just take it. Coz fleein' off the handle in a rage makes me look bad. She also doesnae make jokes aboot her ain appearance or like be embarrassed or humilated herself. Double standard, anyone? :kickingmyself:
Though, ah imagine she wouldnae talk tae be again if ah throw every harsh "joke" comment/insult at back at her? It'd be like being psychologically maimed. But then she's made most o' ma adult life miserable. So mibbe it's aboot time that ah gave her a wee reality check, eh? Or she can f**k off outta ma life. Yin or the other? Am no' really that bothered anymair... :idontknow:
Sorry, just ventin' ma suppressed rage... :sad:
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