How are you feeling?

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

Genuinely sad. :sad:

What's wrong, Marie?

I went into work today and some of my coworkers looked at me and said, "So, your mom is moving to Oregon?"
I was like, "huh?"
Turns out my mom is moving to Oregon, and I had to find out from random coworkers who don't even know my mother.

*cue deep-rooted abandonment issues*

I feel like I have been waiting my whole life for my mother to have time to spend with me, but she has always had other things in her life that were more important. Now she is dropping all those things to move 2500 miles away to retire.
I'm just a bit upset about it all.

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

I went into work today and some of my coworkers looked at me and said, "So, your mom is moving to Oregon?"
I was like, "huh?"
Turns out my mom is moving to Oregon, and I had to find out from random coworkers who don't even know my mother.

*cue deep-rooted abandonment issues*

I feel like I have been waiting my whole life for my mother to have time to spend with me, but she has always had other things in her life that were more important. Now she is dropping all those things to move 2500 miles away to retire.
I'm just a bit upset about it all.

Maybe you should bring all this up with your mom. If she's making you feel bad, then she needs to know. You need to figure out the reason behind her actions, even if it's not an answer that you'd like to hear. But, don't ever blame yourself for stuff like this because it's not your fault, okay? You've done nothing wrong:).

Re: hggj

Psychedelicious said: ↑

Feeling very apathetic towards everything right now.

Me too. I can hardly remember what real excitement feels like.

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

I went into work today and some of my coworkers looked at me and said, "So, your mom is moving to Oregon?"
I was like, "huh?"
Turns out my mom is moving to Oregon, and I had to find out from random coworkers who don't even know my mother.

*cue deep-rooted abandonment issues*

I feel like I have been waiting my whole life for my mother to have time to spend with me, but she has always had other things in her life that were more important. Now she is dropping all those things to move 2500 miles away to retire.
I'm just a bit upset about it all.

It saddens me to read this; I'm so sorry, you must be feeling deeply hurt :sad:

DeadmanWalking said: ↑

Maybe you should bring all this up with your mom. If she's making you feel bad, then she needs to know. You need to figure out the reason behind her actions, even if it's not an answer that you'd like to hear. But, don't ever blame yourself for stuff like this because it's not your fault, okay? You've done nothing wrong:).

Thank you. I know she's doing it because it's the best opportunity for her right now. And I don't feel like I can bring it up with her because she would have a mental breakdown at the mere mention of the problem. I'd rather just suffer in silence and hope that she gets all the enjoyment out of her decision as she can.

kihira said: ↑

It saddens me to read this; I'm so sorry, you must be feeling deeply hurt :sad:

Thank you. I am. Just waiting for a moment when I can be alone and work through it a little.

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

Thank you. I know she's doing it because it's the best opportunity for her right now. And I don't feel like I can bring it up with her because she would have a mental breakdown at the mere mention of the problem. I'd rather just suffer in silence and hope that she gets all the enjoyment out of her decision as she can.

Well, you shouldn't have to suffer though, Marie. You deserve to be happy too and to not have others make you feel bad because of their words/actions:thumbup:. Whether you want to tell her or not is up to you, but you shouldn't have to be hurt because of anyone's actions.

Feeling confident. It's a foreign feeling for me, but I've got a new, better attitude recently, so it's easier to manage. Now it's just a matter of keeping it up no matter what...

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

I went into work today and some of my coworkers looked at me and said, "So, your mom is moving to Oregon?"
I was like, "huh?"
Turns out my mom is moving to Oregon, and I had to find out from random coworkers who don't even know my mother.

*cue deep-rooted abandonment issues*

I feel like I have been waiting my whole life for my mother to have time to spend with me, but she has always had other things in her life that were more important. Now she is dropping all those things to move 2500 miles away to retire.
I'm just a bit upset about it all.

^ Ouch. I'm really sorry to hear that Marie. :sad:

Loved and happy.... I haven't felt such emotions in so long. I feel like crying. Tears of joy, of course. I already had a moment like this a week back or so, teared up because I felt happy. It's so good to feel happy again. Truly happy, deeply happy, not on-the-surface happy where anxiety, depression, and anger still boil underneath.

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

Genuinely sad. :sad:

I'm sorry, Marie 🙁 I hope you feel better soon.

Phoenixx said: ↑

Loved and happy.... I haven't felt such emotions in so long. I feel like crying. Tears of joy, of course. I already had a moment like this a week back or so, teared up because I felt happy. It's so good to feel happy again. Truly happy, deeply happy, not on-the-surface happy where anxiety, depression, and anger still boil underneath.

This is really heartwarming to read 🙂 I'm glad you're feeling so happy, Phoenixx.

depressy

.....

Miserable.

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ Ouch. I'm really sorry to hear that Marie. :sad:

Opaline said: ↑

I'm sorry, Marie 🙁 I hope you feel better soon.

Thanks, ladies. I honestly don't think I've ever been hurt this badly in my life. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through the next two weeks.

Eh... feelin' a wee bit better the day. Am no' talkin' like this anymair. Y'know, the barely f**kin' audible raspy, whisper.

Thank f**k fur Vicks Vapour Rub. :brindis:

Huvin' said that, am still speakin' in as few syllables as possible. :ironicsmile:

Anyway, am no' as blocked up with the flu. Still got auld cough, which has been keepin' me awake at night, but that should clear up shortly.

Other than that, am feelin' rather depressed. :sad: Or is it pissed off? Naw, actually it's both. :kickingmyself:

I'm feeling post-anxiously relieved, a bit ashamed and tired.

touched. i could cry tears of gratitude. i cant believe it.

Absolutely_Sweet_Marie said: ↑

Thanks, ladies. I honestly don't think I've ever been hurt this badly in my life. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through the next two weeks.

I know what you mean... I'm kind of feeling the same, although I don't think my reasons are nearly as bad as yours. You should come into the chatbox more over the next two weeks, maybe all the lonely and sad for the holidays people can go in there and chat together. It's a nice idea anyway.

dottie said: ↑

touched. i could cry tears of gratitude. i cant believe it.

What happened? 🙂

With the completion of my last final and 5 weeks of break ahead, I'm feeling somewhat deflated. Going to class gave me purpose, and now I feel I lost that for a month and I have to try to find things to keep me going until the next semester starts.

Also... after I handed my final in to my professor I told him to have a good break and he said "See you next semester" and I smiled and said yeah. But I was so nervous and I'm paranoid it showed, I feel like I made myself look really stupid. No way to tell and no sense in ruminating over it, but there.
I'm PMSing so everything feels melodramatic and depressing and I was reading things (or lack of things) in my professor's brief interactions with me today and I'm sad I won't get to see him for another 5 weeks.

I think my crush has gone up a level to infatuation. I haven't been this attracted to anyone in... pfft, I don't even know how long. It seems silly of me and it's a little painful and I really don't want to deal with it, but gahhhhh I can't help it he's just so... *sigh.* 5 weeks... 5 weeks... and then after next semester I'll never see him again :sad:

And I feel bad because I was too shy to say hello to my classmate I keep seeing, who apparently lives in the same town as me. Why? 🙁 Gah. Feel kind of empty.